I and Paras didn't talk much. We barely even saw each other. I had drowned myself in work. Anyways, I didn't know anything that had happened in the office in the past year that's why I had to do a detailed study of everything. My fracture had also healed.

As far as the company was concerned, I was the ceo of the NI part from the PANI group of companies. I was looking at a presentation of my laptop when the doorbell rang, not once, not twice, but 5 times continuously.

"Who's it Ramesh?" I asked the guard in a frustrated tone. Yeah we still had guards at our apartment door.

"It is Paras sir, Ma'am." Ramesh replied. I wonder why he rang the bell, that too so many times. I went to the living room where I saw Paras's brother giving support to him.

"Bhabhi, bhaiya drank too much tonight. He can barely even stand." He said and I rushed to help him.

"Y...ou... shut up... I ... can stand!" Paras said between the hiccups.

"Ahaan, I'll take care of him now. You go home, mom must be worried." I said while giving him a weak smile and trying to keep Paras standing on his feet.

"Ok bhabhi, you take care." Ahaan said and took his leave. The second he left Paras pinned me to the wall.

"W...ifeyyy you don't love me??" He said. His face was just centimeters away from mine. I could smell the strong alcohol which was making me feel nauseous. I tried to push him away but my body had become considerably weaker after I had that accident.

"Paras, step away right now! Let's go to your room 'cause you need to sleep!" I warned him while giving him a glare. But it had no effect on him.

He was gradually drawing his face closer to mine. His lips looked so tempting but, it wasn't right to do anything right now because he wasn't in the right state of mind.

Bnd in no time, he crashed his lips on mine. I could taste the alcohol. The feeling of that kiss seemed familiar, I was enjoying it but at the same time I wasn't. I knew that if he was sober, he wouldn't kiss me.

Without thinking anything I pushed him away, really hard this time. Making him slip on the floor. I just realised what I had done and I immediately went to help him get up.

He gave out a mocking chuckle.

"All girls are same... when I fall for you, you just push me away..." He said.

All girls are same? Why did it sound familiar? I suddenly felt a sharp pain in my head.

"You know! You all girls are same! Gold digger spoilt brats who trap rich men to fulfill their desires. My mom has taught me to behave well with girls that's why I haven't done something to you yet!"

I suddenly remembered. Yes I remember !!!! Oh my God!!! Yeah, we had a really big fight one night. Yeah yeah I remember !!

I couldn't understand what to do! Should I jump and get all excited? Or feel guilty as I just pushed him away? Or let my lust take over my senses.

"I saw her today..." Paras suddenly said breaking my chain of thoughts. Whom did he see??

"Who Paras? You saw who???" I said sitting on the floor near him looking right in his eyes.

"That bitch Anahita Seth... you know on that cruise ship... I'm so proud of you for giving her a piece of your mind. But you don't remember that either..." He said and gave out another chuckle.

"Nah, I don't give you that much importance Miss Anahita Seth. And yeah, kindly stay away from me as I'm allergic to douchebags."

Why was I r=suddenly remembering so many things? But it was none of my concern right now, because all that mattered at this point was that we had to find that bloody Anahita Seth anyhow!

"Where Paras? Where did you see her???" I said but he didn't respond!

"Paras... where did you see her????" I asked louder this time and shook his shoulders.

"Sky heights club..." He said and fainted. Yeah, considering the amount of liquor he drank, this was bound to happen.

I asked the bodyguard to help me to take him to bed. We took him to his bed and I put him to sleep. I immediately went for my phone after that.

I dialled the number of police.

"I think we might have found Anahita Seth." I said.

I was sitting at sky heights club with my brother Ahaan. I had finished my work early today but I didn't want to go to the place which was technically my own house, it didn't feel like home anymore. That's why I crashed at this club to have some drinks.

"A martini please..." I ordered for myself while my dearest brother was busy playing pubg on his phone.

The bartender served my martini and I drank it rather quickly. As I finished the glass, the alcohol hit me and I started remembering things, negative ones to be specific.

"That's what you want right? You want me to die! That's why you planned that accident! But don't worry you won't need to kill me now! Because I don't want that company now! I guess it was never mine. You can have it!"

Those sentences almost killed me that day. I looked at my wedding ring, I never removed it. At the initial stages of our marriage, even when I used to hate her, I never took it off. And how easily she jumped on conclusions without even knowing anything and threw that ring on me. How inconsiderate of her.

"Are you fine bhaiya?" I heard Ahaan ask. Was I fine? Obviously I wasn't...

There's a big difference between breathing and living. Even the patients who are in coma are breathing, yeah I have had personal experiences about that. Nishtha is not only the purpose of my life, she is my whole life.

She doesn't remember a thing about me and I don't have any fucking idea about how to make her remember me.

Then I suddenly realised that when I decided to end my life, it was a very impulsive decision. I didn't even think once about my family, my parents, my brother, my grandpa. I was so selfish. I even asked Nishtha to stay with me but it is me who avoids crossing paths with her while living under the same roof as her.

Was I so bad? Did I deserve all this? Did Nishtha deserve all this? I didn't know about myself but Nishtha clearly didn't deserve any of it. And, she wasn't in the right state of mind back then! Heck she was in a trauma! I should have been there with her instead of deciding to leave her forever.

I suddenly realized that I was staring into space and I didn't even respond to what Ahaan said.

"Bhai, I asked are you okay???" He asked again. This time I looked at him.

"I don't think so..." I replied and he looked at me with sympathetic eyes.

I just grabbed a vodka shot from the counter and drank it in a go, I didn't even care if it was someone else's.

"Easy bhai..." I heard Ahaan's voice but I pretended as if I didn't hear it.

I drank another one and another and another. Ahaan was constantly trying to stop me but I had become unstoppable. I was behaving like a guilty drunkard but I didn't care. I finished the whole tray and the bartender looked at me with a shocked expression.

My vision had become blurry. My head was spinning. The vodka had taken it's toll on me. I tried to stand up but couldn't. My legs were shaking.

I looked at my left. I intended to look at Ahaan but my eyes fell on a familiar face. That woman was standing at the left most corner of the club.

Even if I was hell drunk, even if my vision was blurry, then too I could recognize those big round evil eyes anywhere.

It was Anahita Seth. I couldn't believe my own eyes. That bitch was back and I was too drunk to even tell Ahaan about it.