Fifteen days later:-

Sanam's Point of view:-

I drank my coffee sitting alone in my room as thousands of thoughts went through my mind.Why am I acting like this... I know I see her often I know I work with her but I also know that I hate her.

I sipped my coffee again standing up walking to the window and looking at the orange sky full of cold wind blowing in my room with a sharp sound and making the curtains flow wildly.

I still remember the last time I had a worked with her...This was there time she was damn flawless and I didn't tell her that she's beautiful making her blush and she didn't need me anymore were like known strangers.

Flashback:-

We were standing in front of eachother with our eyes away from each other without any reason "What are you both doing.. you're gonna pose like this?" The photographer chuckled softly and the assistants came near us pushing us near to each other "Come on guys..you have to build chemistry.." he said to us with a pleading face.

"They don't need to build up chemistry..its already..." we both turned to Keshav and he stopped in the middle of the sentence

we made sure there was enough space between us and that's when he signalled me to move more near to her and I rolled my eyes in irritation.

I placed a hand around her waist on the demand of these people but they pushed her more near and placed some of her black locks in the front and she I got her sweet fragrance once again but I shifted my attention to my work she instinctively looked up at me and my eyes found her and locked as if nothing else was there.We gazed at each other blankly but I saw the emptiness instead of cheer..and sadness instead of joy ...the eyes that don't shine anymore and to my surprise she also didn't even try to look away just like me.

I knew I should not be like this... I shouldn't get this feeling looking at her but then why? Why this thing happens every single time she looks at me and I forget that I hate her.

"Fantastic.... Flawless guys...That was a great pose" He said moving back from the camera and I looked at him confused "What pose..? Which Pose?" We looked at each other quite confused and that's when I realized that she was waiting for me to remove my arm and I removed it in a flash and we both moved away.

After this they shot some more of our pics.. but I didn't get the feeling of pushing away or getting away from her, Is this hate?

"You both look like a real couple" he commented while looking at the pics and I flared with anger but I saw Samar shaking his head at me indicating not to do anything and I walked to my room at a fast pace slamming the door behind me.

Flashback end:-

I keep my empty cup on the table as I sat on the edge of the bed once again resting my elbows on my knees supporting my head on my palms.

How will I go to her place Today? I can't face her.

Everytime!!! I started to recover but then you look at me again.

I have been trying a lot these days but I can't wipe away my memories.. I just can't get on this .

"Sanam...itne din ho gaye hai yaar ..you both still aren't fine" I felt a hand on my shoulder as I groaned at him "Samar ..jaa yaar"

i look up at him pleadingly and he shook his head a clear No.

"Do you even look at yourself ? Mr.Sanam Puri you are confused...stressed and upset.. everything" and I removed his hand from my shoulder "No I am not. I am okay" I stood up from my bed and I heard him chuckling "Ya..sure.. you're not changed..You are someone else now" I looked at him irritated while he just nodded.

"I have seen her changing too ...and these changes are not of recovering.." he sighed while getting in his feet again "She is not at all okay and so not are you..then why do you act like you're okay?" He had concern in his voice but I don't want to see more of our past scenes in my head And I replied him " but see i am okay.. She's the one who is getting weak by this"

He stepped near me saying "Oh..and you don't care about her.." and I snapped my head up at him

"I do Samar..No.. I mean I don't care.." I covered my eyes with my hand tired of my own behavior and heard Him chuckling at me.

"Okay..so tell me one thing" he asked as I nodded slightly "Why Don't you wanna go today... Keshav Is also comming?" I looked away from him "When did I say that I don't want to go?" And he said "Well... okay good for you" he taunted me while leaving the room.

He came inside again and I turned to him "can I say something else?" And I nodded obviously he has that right "Sanam you're affected only mentally and you even handle it sometimes but it's a fact that she can't and I don't why but I am damn worried about both of you"

He walked away muttering "Get ready now..it's late and we have to go to their place also..or else the work will be pending"

I tried to calm myself down.I will act normal... I know she's not Okay but it will not affect me.

Anushka's Point of view:-

"Anushka yaar stop worrying about me... I am just like I was earlier!!!" She snapped at me holding her head and she sat on the couch.

"Anu... please understand.. you're not fine.. you're not.." I whispered again and she said again "I am okay di.. I am just tired.." and I snapped at her "ya..from the last 20 days" I looked at her while she just looked down blankly. "you think I will see you like this and stay calm? "

I sat beside her rubbing my temples with my fingers and my eyes travelled to her again.She finally looked up at me with her tired eyes and she muttered "I am sorry" and I smiled as she threw her arms around me and I hugged her back "Everything will be okay.."

I found her body flamming but I don't want to bother her.. I can't. She doesn't want us to know it but we all notice it.

" I thought he would never hurt me because he loved me that time" she whispered with her head still on my shoulder.

"He never wanted to hurt you..and he still loves you" she lifted her head and pulled away looking at me confused

"He is also hurt by himself..and it doesn't mean it doesn't hurt him..he just suppresses and handles it quiet good"

"I don't know whose fault it was...and It wasn't mine too...and how can I come in between when he loves Riya.."I frown as I huffed in irritation "He doesn't love her...it's just that Riya..wants him" and she looked at me confused and I shut my mouth .

Oh god Samar told me not to tell her everything at once. And she's already not okay.

"Can you explain Anushka?" And I stood up suddenly looking away and I said "Look..we should get freshen up now..we have work also.." and she stood up "But..but..Di you are .." and I picked up my cell "I almost forgot I need to talk to Samar.. actually" she nodded while walking away upstairs.

I survived this time.

I throw my phone on the couch again.. I almost said everything to her.

I hope she's not doing anything crazy to herself which is affecting her like this.

Anu's Point of view:-

I found my way to my room struggling to keep my balance ... I didn't know that those would affect me like this..but I loose my control over myself.

I can't let these feelings take over me... It's been days and whenever I see him at work my head starts spinning with his memories.. even if I look away ..I still get affected by him . I get the feelings that I should not get anymore.

I pushed my hair back looking up wiping off my tears with a sigh.

I stood up from the drowsiness and I went to my closet and took my clothes.No..i will be fine in front of him .. I will be okay Maybe.

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After slipping in a white colored cropped lace top and a knee length peach chiffon skirt I went downstairs and I saw Anushka with her guitar playing different notes.

She noticed me coming and smiled at me keeping her guitar and stood up "Come come..we have guests over" my breathing stopped suddenly as I walked down but I saw a few guys and girls smiling at me.

"They came here to meet us and I told them to wait for you" Anushka told me while I walked to them and saw their cheerful faces. "Hi.." a little girl came forward from the group of six people and I sat down on my knees

"Hello there sweetie" she giggled looking at me. she gave me a small pink glittery notebook with golden stars on it and I open its colourful pages.. while I could see her touching my hair "Wow...you have so beautiful hair.." everyone laughed as she pushed my black locks behind.

Anushka sat down beside me and she looked in the notebook .it has pictures if me and Anushka . I giggled looking at her "You made it?" And she nodded her small head

She gave me a click pen "Anushka di has given her autograph now your turn..." I nodded at her with a smile and I asked her "What is the angel's name?" And she leaned in the notebook "Angel" and I rose my eyebrow "Ya...ya her real name is angel" Anushka said while ruffling her black hair and she giggled "it's a appropriate name for you.." I commented as I wrote...

To

Angel

Lots of love from

Anu Agnihotri

I did what I do always.. I drew a

half moon stroke under my first name and a heart at the end and handed over the pen and the notebook to her with a smile.

"Thank you" she smiled at me looking at the autograph "you're most welcome" I pulled her cheeks as I sat with the other people.

They started chatting and took many pics with us and we enjoyed their company too.

"Di..look at this" Angel walked to me with a tablet in her small hands and I took it from her tugging my bags behind my ear.

"You look so ....cute together , Angel likes it" I gazed at the pics as she wiped them from one to another.He looked at me in every picture like I was the only thing for him and I felt like now...it's everything in his arms.

I blinked a few times before nodding at her and I have it back to her and she went to Anushka. Why did he do that if he doesn't seem happy but he should be happy with Riya now.. I try to stay away always. I palmed my face supporting my elbows on my knees.

"Uhmm So we should leave now...thank you so much" I looked up listening this and stood up.

We went to the door to leave them and we waved at Angel as said her cute bye to us making us giggle.

I sat down on the couch in front of the TV but suddenly my phone rang and I looked at it and it is Samar on my cell?

"Hey .." I tried to sound cheerful and he said "Hi..how you're doing fine?" And I replied "Ya .... I am fine" and Anushka was asking me who it was with her expressions but I turned my attention to him

"Can I talk to Anushka? Actually her phone is off" he said hesitatingly and I said,

"Ya. Ya..sure and why are you asking ..in fact others should take permission from you before talking to Anushka" I pulled his leg and Anushka realized who was it. she pulled my phone "Anu don't tease him.." and I tried to sound sorry "Okay..okay.. I am sorry" and she rolled her eyes at me and answered him "Yaa Samar?"

I could feel the dizziness comming back again and I closed my eyes trying to suppress it.

I decided to think something else turned my attention to the television in front of me and I decided to shift to some music channel.

I was taking a look at the music channels and one of them was showing the guy's interview on it.

I tried to change it as Anushka walked inside again throwing my phone near me "hey let me see it" and I stopped my fingers from Changing the channel.

I stood up ready to leave and that's when she stopped me "let's eat something...." And I frowned at her.

"I don't feel like eating... today" I explained and she looked at me and rose her left eyebrow "Today? Seriously you said Today?" And I rolled my eyes "Ya. Ya I mean these days.." and she kept her hand on her forehead again.

Feeling my legs trembling I sat down beside her and she looked at me "Anu.. I think..then you should go to rest ..please " and I nodded quietly because I felt like it.

"I can go myself" and she looked at me with concern "You're sure.." and I nodded slightly . I stood up and walked towards my room. It's...nothing..it's just weakness and he can't affect me this much ..he can't.

"Don't think about anything!!!" I heard her shouting But I can't help it... I just can't. I clasped the railing beside me and tried to maintain my balance.

"Ya.. I'll not" I replied walking ahead.

I went in my room, straight to my bed holding my cell in my hands .... I left it on the table beside my bed and I closed my eyes lying down and I tried to calm down and get some sleep.

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"Hey... Why don't you ask me anytime that how much do I love you?"

He asked looking at me and I rose my left eyebrow at him "Why this question Sanam?" And he half shrugged his shoulders "Just..like that..Because all people ask this question" and I sat beside him "Mr. Sanam I don't ask this question because..." I looked up in his eyes as he waited for me to continue "I know...that you can't explain how much you love me" he had a proud expression on his face and he asked "And..what tells you this?" And I giggled "Your actions..your eyes..your words..you everything and that's why you can't even explain your love in words.. and neither can I" I have him a smile which he returned.

"Ya..okay...Now we have a concert in Stockholm.. remember tomorrow..so we need to work?" And he gave me a small nod.

I gave him a quick peck on the cheek before standing up for leaving.

"Hey..what are you doing?" I asked him when he pulled me by my wrist to stop him.

I looked back at him,

"Yeh bhi koi kiss hota Hai?" Saying this with a smirk on his freaking handsome face he pulled me on him with a jerked making me gasp . I kept my arms on his chest to maintain done distance but soon he pulled me and crashed my lips on his.

"Sanam..wait.."

I sat up panting hardly in my bed looking around ... And I realized everything. I looked out from the window blankly as those scenes ran in my mind continuously and I felt a streak of tears I tried to blink them back but those scenes didn't allow me to do so and I rested my throbbing head on my knees and I let the ears flowing silently down.

I felt so good in his arms..like anything else doesn't even exist ... I loved how he gave surprise kisses and his winks..but I didn't knew this would happen.

I looked around with my pounding head and painful body to look for my phone . I picked it up and looked for any calls and as I expected Riya called me. Yup she calls me to remind me what happened indirectly but she doesn't know that it is clear in my head every single image.

I kept back my phone on the side table as I stood up still trying to maintain my balance and I walked to the window when I heard honking of a car. I stumbled my way to the window and watched their car entering the lawn.Samar came out of the driver's side and beside him was He and Keshu plopped outside from the backseat.

Anushka stepped out and welcomed them in with hugs and greeting. I knew Venky wouldn't come cause he is in Bengaluru.. I talked to him yesterday and that's when Sanam looked this way and I moved back instantly hoping he didn't see me.

Why did he say things like hat to me? What was he doing with Her..if he wanted he could tell me and much more but I don't have any courage to do so..while Anushka thinks he loves me still.This makes me laugh sometimes but I think what if he truely loves me?

My thoughts were interupted by my phone's ringtone and I picked it up and saw Shraddha's caller ID while I wiped my face with my palms trying to get normal.

"Hey Sweet stuff" She greeted me cheerfully. "hey Shraddha...all good?" I asked and she replied "Yup As usual..." She's too adorable. "why is Anushka's phone off?" She asked me and I said stopping my urge to sob but still my throat was sore with a throbbing head "Ahh..She has ordered a new one..it was not working properly so.." and I could heard a "hmm" as a reply from her.

"So.. you're busy today?" She asked and I stood up and went to the window "Yaa... actually Samar..Sanam and Keshav are here for some editing discussion" and I can heard her long "Ohh" abnd I know she has a wide smile on her face too.

"Waise. Keshav bhi aaya hai..if you want you can come" I pulled her leg taking the advantage of her serious crush on Keshav.

"Well Sanam's there too...if you want you can.... I mean you look great together..?"

I looked forward blankly hearing this.

I t hurts because each second I am thinking of that beautiful past I had with him. I could feel my eyes burning from tears. "Anu you're there?" And I snapped out "Yaar Shraddha nothing's like that please" I said in a slow voice so that my voice wouldn't break due to my crying.

"Hey... You're okay right... I am sorry,if you felt bad.. Don't cry?" She said with concern in her voice and I suppress a sob "No.. Shraddha..it's okay.. I didn't feel bad.. actually.." I stopped in the middle to gain my composure but it didn't help. I blinked back a few tears and looked down "It's..It's .just that.. please don't say that again" I said that cutting off the call without listening to her closing my eyes.

I know.. I hate you ..I hate you very much but..deep there there is so much love . I can't express and I don't know what is so strong in there that it makes me go weak when you're near.

I sat on the edge of the bed holding it tightly and closing my eyes feeling the warm tears. I kept my hands on my eyes trying to stop myself but instead I had to clutch myself to prevent myself from sobbing and it eventually increased my pain in my head and heart and that stinging sensation on my body.

Why am I so weak? Why can't I just .. just leave it?

I cried to myself and I kept my palm on my forehead.

"Anu actually I am so sorry but I didn't know that he loved me..."

"You forced yourself on me Sanam... what's my fault...you gripped me...You wanted me..Tell the truth"

Ya.. maybe I wasn't enough for You Sanam... I can't be like her because I am different. I have felt pain from the beginning...Ya.. maybe I wasn't enough for You Sanam... I can't be like her because I am different. I have felt pain from the beginning but do I deserve it?

Do I deserve crying behind my closed bedroom door? Do I have to fight the battle no body knows about?

I stumbled back when that scene was in front of me again...Why is everything so clear in my mind..every single..damn small things are Crystal clear in front of me.

"Ahh." I cried out softly

My head was spinning and my heart was racing.

"Anu.. you're okay?" My heart skipped a beat when I heard him.

Damnit He's Here.

I nodded with still my throbbing head and I could still feel him stepping near me. "No Sanam.. please don't I am fine.."I rose my hand to stop him which again travelled to my head.

I felt my legs trembling and I stumbled back to the wall. the pain had increased and made me cry out many times.

"Anu... Is everything Okay?" He asked again and I answered "Nothing... I am fine.. I am okay"

Still with that stabbing pain... I tried to stand and took a step forward but my body didn't allow me to stand steadily. I knew he's here but I couldn't help it now.