My words for you

may not be deep,

But my love nd feelings

are..

- Arpita

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With a pillow in her hand she was running behind me, entire room was filled with giggles. I was jumping over my bed, running behind the couch, dodging every pillow attack. "Even if you were P. T. Usha, you could not beat me!" I chuckled while pulling the chair to shield myself from her next attack.

"I don't need to be P. T. Usha.. This Aaru is sufficient for you!" She said nd threw that pillow on me. I failed to dodge it this tym so it hit directly on my face. Freak!!

"Hahaha.." I looked at her holding the pillow in my hands, she was laughing like a kid.. Holding her stomach, giggling nd shaking her hands with closed eyes.. She gets a minor dimple on her right cheek when she laughs.

"Dekha.. Mr. Puri.. Kaha tha na maine, mai akeli hi kafi hoon!" She controlled her laugh nd rested her hands on her hip. "Hmm.. Tum akeli duniya par bhari ho.. Nd now its your turn to run.." I gave a mischievous smile on which she narrowed her eyes.

I started running behind her, "Aaahhh.. Mr. Puri ye cheating hai!!" She whined while running nd saving herself. "Not cheating, its called Tit for Tat ." I tried to catch her.

After several attempts, a moment came when she was struck, she walked backward with slow steps, "You can't hit a girl.. Bad manners Mr. Puri.." She tried to stop me. "Acha?" I gave her a Really kind of look.

I raised my hand which held pillow nd acted as if it will hit her (obvio I won't hit her), she got back to save herself but unfortunately her feet struck by the carpet nd she lost her balance. Before she losses her control over her body nd fell down miserably, I held her wrist to save her but... We both lost our balance nd fell on bed!

During this, I was upon her but didn't let my wait fell completely on her by supporting my hands on the either sides of her face. She had shut her eyes tightly due to fear if falling.

But she looks cute when she is afraid. Her breathing was uneven, her lips that were in a shade of pink, were trembling. She slowly opened her chocolaty orbs and... Again I saw those twinkling eyes with that unexplainable spark which doesn't allow my eyes to see something else. Her eyes defines how innocent and how childish her soul is. Without a blink they speak thousands of unspoken words that may derive anyone's sense.

She gulped visibly which made me realize that we were not in a proper position. I quickly got up nd helped her too, "Uuhh.. I-I'm s-sorry.. I..I.." I stammered like hell!

Why the hell do I always get drifted apart from this world when I look into her eyes? As much I try to run away from such situations, God pushes me more close to her!

"I-its oh-okay.. Ammmm.. I think I must leave before it gets dark.." She said with hesitation clear in her voice, she picked her belongings nd left the room like wind.

As soon as she left, Keshu entered my room with a wiggled look, "What happened here? I mean why did Aaru leave like she was afraid or something.. Don't tell me bro you fought with her again."

What the hell is wrong with him? Why will I fight with her?

"Its nothing like what you are thinking Keshu. She had to leave before it gets dark so she left. " I sat on my bed followed by Keshu. "I'm sorry for my tone, Sanam.. I was just.." Before he could conclude his sentence I began, "You were just worried about her.. Right?" I looked at him and found him struggling for correct words.

"I can see what kind of feelings you have for her Keshu.. I just wanna confirm it from your mouth."

"San.. Ahhh.. Okay fine! I love her.. Idk how and why.. But I do.. I really do Sanam.. My senses go crazy when she comes in front of me.. I haven't felt like this before.. She mean world to me now bro.."

I was startled by his reply. Keshu Loves her? That too so unconditionally

"Sam knows it, hai na?" I asked him as I had found Samar several times teasing him and also saving him in front of Arpita. "Yeah.. He does.." He mumbled. "And you didn't care to tell me?" I don't know what was hurting me more, that he hided his feelings from me or his feelings for her?

"I wanted to Sanam, but.. You were treating her so miserably at that time.. I didn't feel like you will understand it. " he was right.. My behavior was so inhuman with her. I just nodded in reply.

I can't ruin the friendship among us by letting stupid feeling overpowering me. After so many months God has sent someone to help me out and I can't hurt that person.. Along with my best friend.. You will have to control your stupid heart and its idiotic feelings Sanam... She is just being a friend with you, don't forget that she is a doctor who is just fulfilling her duty by bringing you back from trauma. Above that, you have promised Khushi to love her forever.. How can you let someone forget your promises that were meant to be kept till eternity?

If Keshu loves her, he will get his love.. and I will never let myself to be the reason behind his heart break.. I know how it feels when the person you love unconditionally and is taken away from you! My friend will not go through that path from what I'm going!

"Kesh.. I hope your feelings for her are genuine and not infatuation.. She is a kind hearted girl, don't ever break her heart buddy.." I kept my hand over his shoulder and made him understand. He smiled warmly and gave me a hug while saying, "I can break down completely for her, but I can't even imagine to hurt her innocent heart Sanam.."

I hope you will never forget your words Keshu.. Stay happy my friend!

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What the hell is wrong with me? Why do I always forget that he is a star and I'm just a common girl who used to admire him all day!! Why do my heart pumps trillions of times faster than usual when he is close? Why don't I feel to push myself away from him when his breaths touches my skin? Why do my senses go mad when his eyes meets mine? Why the answers of my questions are felt out of syllabus?

I punched hard on the staring wheel of my car on my way back to home. My mind was unsteady, "I need to share it with Bhumi! But how? She doesn't know that I go to the Puri house.. Uhhh.. This will kill me!"

I finally reached home safely. "Welcome home darling!" Arti bua greeted me. "Thank you Bua." I smiled slightly.. "Ky hua puttar? Tu thik to hai na?" She asked me while making me sit beside her on the sofa. "Uhhh.. Haan bua.. Sab thik h.. Tussi fikar na kro.." I hugged her while saying it.. Kash meri baat sach hoti bua.. Me nd Bhumi love our bua like our mother.. May be that's the reason she can read my face and can feel my tension.. "Acha Harshit nd Kartik kaha hai?" I asked her. "Ghar pe bore ho rhe the to ghumne gye h." She informed me. "Oh.. Okay.. Mai fresh ho ke ati hu.." I said nd she nodded.

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After taking a long shower I came out of my bathroom in a bathrobe and came to know that Bhumi is back from her office as I heard her voice. I quickly got into my dark blur floral pyjama nd printed shirt.

I entered the dinning area nd found everyone sitting calmly nd waiting for me to join. "When did you both came back?" I asked Harshit while taking a sit beside him. "When you slept in bathroom!" He started again! Its my fault to ask him. "Harsh!! Don't tease her.. She is very tired today.." Bua ordered him. "Kyu? Kuch hua h ky tere sath?" He asked but carefully this time. "Are you okay Di?" Kartik asked. "Bola tha na tuje subah.. Headache h to rest kr le.. But nhi.." Bhumi boomed. "Chillax guys.. I'm.. I'm fine.." I smiled seeing how much my family cares for me.

You should feel lucky to have such people in your life Aaru.. To kya hua agar ek se door hona pada to?

After dinner me nd Bhumi came into our room while the Mahawal brothers where watching cricket on TV. "Uhh.. Gauri?" I guess I forgot to tell you guys that Bhumi's nickname is Gauri.. "Yeah..?" She said but her eyes were fixed on her lappy. "Ammm.. Actually.. The thing.. Is.." Now she kept her work aside nd looked at me as she found me nervous while speaking.

"Aru? Is everything alright? Why are you stammering?" She asked with concern. How to tell her that her psychologist sister is unable to understand the psychology of her own mind?

"Uhhh.. Actually.. Ky hai na.. Meri ek dost hai.. Yhi Mumbai me.. To kya hua na.. Vo bohot confuse hai kyun ki, she is unable to understand her own emotions.. Ek Ladka h jiske karib ate hi vo sab bhul jati h nd vo ye janti h k vo ladka uska kabhi nhi ho skta.. They don't have a future together.." I used the ancient trick of replacing identities of the protagonist with its friend to explain her nd she listened to me calmly.

"Kitni ajeeb baat h na.. Ek psychologist ko apni Behan ki help leni pad rhi h to understand her friend's psychology!" She softly chuckled. "Dekh.. They have a future together or not ye hum, tum ya vo decide nhi kr skte.. If they are meant to be together then destiny will do something to tie them together in a bond.. Till then ask her not to hesitate while sharing her feelings with her sister nd family nd let the destiny play its role..!" Her talks were more round than earth. Sister kaha se aa gyi?

"Chillax siso.. You will get what I said in the morning.. Now just sleep.." She said while shutting down her lappy. "Okay.." I laid down beside her only if sleep was there in my eyes.

Get out of my head Mr. Puri.. I don't wanna think about you!

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