Its a Long chapter💕-Dajah❤️

✨Y/N✨

I knocked on my mothers door as she finally let me in. "Hey momma" I said walking in and closing the door behind me. I finally turned and looked at her and she didn't look too good. "Are you okay? What's going on with you?" I asked. "Nothing it's just my cancer that's making me look like this" She said as I was lost for words. Cancer?!...

"So you two are finally done?" She questioned before I could even ask about her cancer. "Wow even on your death bed you're still a bitch." I brought up as she looked at me shocked. She went to sit down as I followed. "Did you come to make me make me feel like shit because I already do" She said.

"No I came to talk and check up on my mother since she doesn't have the decency to do so for her own daughter" I smartly said. "So what? What do you want to talk about?" She asked. "You know it's been five years since everything fell apart and you still have a problem with who I'm with" I started off.

"What do you wa-" she started off "for you to listen" I stated "I am listening" She said as I grew aggravated. "You know, I'm glad daddy left your ass" I started off standing up. "What is that supposed to mean?" She questioned standing up. "Exactly what the hell it means" I started off. "I'm glad he left you and I'm glad your fiancé disappeared because you deserve it. You deserve every last fucking thing that's coming your way" I stated.

"Don't think you're going to come up in my house and disrespect me" she said "I've been disrespected for SO long and it's no more. I came over to make amends with you but yet you start with the bullshit. Mother or not I will not be disrespected nor will I Ever allow you to do that shit again" I simply said.

"All the trauma you've caused alone, all through my childhood into adulthood. You made it seem as if I loved a guy who wasn't in church they was going to Break my heart, you condemned me and made me feel bad for having sex or just living out my twenties. You pushed toxic men onto me knowing they wasn't all right." I expressed

"look at how the situation with Jason went" I brought up.

"Jason loved you, you was just being an ungrateful bitch" she said. "He ain't love shit, he cheated on me, placed his hands on me and forced himself on me that's not love!" I shouted on the brink of tears.

"And you tried to hook me up with his friend. What makes you think his friend wouldn't do the same shit?!" I questioned.

"I never did anything to you, I didn't even ask to be born. all I asked of you were to be a mother" I said with tears running down my face. "If I come to you crying because I was hit by a man or touched by A man I want you to console me and help me out of that situation. instead you blamed it on me, make me feel like I was in the wrong, everything was always on me" I explained.

"You're so determined to not fuck with Steve as my husband when he's the only man in my life who has treated me right since day one!" I expressed. "The only man who has made sure I was okay. While you were straight with your fiancé you ain't even check on me and how I was doing" I shouted beyond pissed.

"Steve is the only man who gave a shit about what I was going through, who put my needs and wants before his own and you have the fucking audacity to talk down on him for being a real man?!" I shouted as she just sat there not saying anything. "But then again do you even know what a real man is?" I questioned "the hell is that supposed to mean?" She questioned. "A real man wouldn't touch his lovers daughter" I simply said. "You were being grown!" My mother shouted.

"I'm done with your ass for real this time" I simply said before walking out the house. I just drive back to Albany which was almost two hours and just drove around trying to cool off because I was tight. I got some food continuing to think on everything, I was so emotional about everything. I was dead ass over everything suicide slipped into my mind and I knew it was time for me to get back to the Avengers Compound. I hate thinking like that my last time ever thinking about suicide was when I was with Jason and I told myself I would never get that low again.

Around 9 pm I pulled up in front of the compound and got out the car. I threw away my five guys trash and was hoping Steve was asleep because I was kind of still tight and I didn't want him to be the one I lashed out at. It was dark as I went upstairs and peeked into Autumn's room seeing her sleep. I went and gave her a kiss on the head before I walked out closing her door then walked to the room Steve and I share.

I took a deep breath before walking in. I placed my bag on the chair as he sat onto the bed looking at me.

"I'm glad you decided to finally come home" he said sarcastically as I took off my shirt immediately. "Yeah" I simply said. "So I'm assuming it went good with your mother" he brought up as I took my pants off throwing them into the hamper as I was left in a black, Lacey bra and panty set.

"Nope we argued and I found out she has cancer" I informed as I looked in the mirror placing my hair in a ponytail. "I know someone who can help with that" he started off. "I say we let her ass rot" I simply said taking my necklace off placing it on the dresser as there was a silence.

"Why did you tell Autumn I was leaving?" He questioned. "Steve i really just want to take a shower and go to bed" I said trying to take my bracelet off as I watched him stand up behind me through the mirror.

"Why are you even doing this? what the hell are you doing?! You're not showing any type of affection towards me all of a sudden, now you leave and don't show up til almost ten at night then I'm trying to get your mother help with her cancer and you saying she can rot" Steve said getting loud.

"Because she can rot" I simply said getting loud turning around to look up at Steve. I then calmed down some "Steve I'm pissed so please can we talk about it in the morning?" I asked. "No you didn't wait to tell our daughter that I was leaving and you had no hesitations not picking up my phone calls while you were out ignoring me so don't talk to me about talking when you want to talk" he expressed as I just stood there.

"You want to talk then let's fucking talk" I simply said throwing my bracelet onto the dresser going into the bathroom. "I told her because you are leaving Steve" I said as he closed our bathroom door. "Why the hell would you tell a five year old her father is leaving?!" He asked. "Steve because you are" I argued.

"Why are you pushing me away all of sudden, why now all of a sudden you want me to leave and for me to be with Peggy?!" He questioned. "Because if I don't push you away the harder it will be for me to let you go" I said as it got quiet. "Peggy's dying wish was for me to be with you and do everything that she couldn't with you and for you to do everything you couldn't do with her, with me" I stated.

"By my promise I made to her on her death bed was, if there was a time machine or some way for you to go back and be with her, I would want that for the both of you" I admitted as Steve's face softened and he just looked at me. "When I said it I didn't think It was possible and now that it is I can't get out out of my head and I don't want you nor her to miss that chance of possibly having a life together." I explained

"You've sacrificed a lot for me and I want to make this sacrifice for you. That's why I've made that decision and that's why I'm trying to keep a distance." I admitted as he looked at me. "That decision shouldn't be just left up to you though" he said. "Yeah but it's going to be left up to me" I simply said walking around him to start my shower.

"Y/N" I heard him say as I turned around and looked at Steve. "Don't make the same decision I've made. at least I got a second chance with you but don't push me away for someone else's happiness" he said holding onto my waist. "Steve it's not the sam-" I started off as he nodded.

"I didn't have to do any of the things I did that led to me and Peggy not being together but I did it thinking about others wellbeing's and not my own. I woke up from the ice and went years feeling miserable about the decision I made until I met you. Don't do it Y/N" he explained looking down at me as I looked away.

"Y/N look at me" he said softly as I looked at him. He leaned down to try and kiss my lips as I looked between his eyes and lips. I leaned away some looking at his lips and his eyes before I placed my lips on his.

He kissed my lips as I placed my hand on the back of his neck and the other on the side of his face. He tilted his head some deepening the kiss as he then picked me up and I wrapped my legs around him.

Neither one of us broke the kiss he carried me over to the sink sitting me on the counter as we continued to make out.

I placed my hand at the hem of his wife beater beginning to pull it up. I soon moved back pulling it over his head as he brought me closer to him continuing to deeply kiss me. He groped on my butt and thighs some as I lowly moaned.

"Wait" I started off "mm mmm" he hummed as he kissed my neck and my eyes rolled back. He begun to suck on my neck then he pulled my panties to the side. He slowly placed himself in me as I bit down on my bottom lip. "Shit" I let out in a whisper wrapping an arm around his neck as he looked me in my eyes beginning to thrust up. I moaned softly as he started thrusting at a medium pace.

"Steve" I moaned as my head fell back and I felt him kiss and suck on my neck. "Look at me" he softly said before I leaned my head up placing my head on his forehead and he sped up his thrusts. My mouth hung open as my breathing became uneven and I felt Steve kiss my lips.

I moaned in his mouth as I felt myself on edge about to cum. "You're about to make me cum" I moaned as my head fell back. "Look at me" he groaned as I bit my lip and looked at him. He brought me closer and tighter to him as he rested his forehead on mine giving me all his undivided attention.

His eyes pierced through mine as I felt a bunch of butterflies in my stomach. I squealed some digging my nails deeper into his back as he went deeper. "Give it to me" He groaned as I felt my legs tighten around him. I gasped "Oh my God!" I let out and felt myself release onto him as I placed my hand on his lower ab feeling him slow up.

I rubbed his lower ab and kissed his lip as he kissed back slowly groping my butt. He pulled his lips from mine unhooking my bra. He threw it on the floor as he sat on the toilet seat continuing to kiss my lips.

I begun to move my hips as he groaned softly continuing to kiss my lips. It soon traveled from my lips to my jaw down to my neck. I bit down on my lip moving my hips in a circle.

He wrapped his arm around my waist holding me close and tightly as I wrapped my arms around his neck beginning to bounce. I continued to bounce as he groaned in my neck. I went a bit faster placing my lips on his looking him in his eyes as his eyes rolled back and he moaned.

He opened his eyes and looked me in my eyes as I bucked my hips faster wrapping an arm around his neck and placing a hand on his chest. "Shit" he let out as I moaned loudly. "I love you" I admitted continuing to look him in his eyes and Buck my hips at a fast pace. He leaned his head back letting out a throaty groan as I kissed and sucked on the side of his neck. "I love you too" he let out. I placed my lips on his taking my hand that was on his chest interlocking my finger with his "I'm about to cum" he expressed. "Me too" I let out as I felt my liquids fall.

I then felt Steve release as we sat there out of breath. He kissed my lips softly as we placed our foreheads on each other's. I felt him pick me up going out the bathroom letting me down on the bed. He went to turn off the shower then came back hovering over my body kissing my lips.

I placed a hand on the side of his face deepening the kiss. In between the kiss I felt him slide in slowly. He placed his hands in mine putting them over my head and interlocked our fingers. Steve started to thrust as my mouth hung open and I felt him begin to kiss my neck. My eyes rolled back as I was trying to not moan. "I-oh my G-God. Steve!" I moaned in a gasp as he brought his lips back onto mine. "Shhh" he said in my ear as I whimpered.

He went deeper as I couldn't help but snatch my hands out of his. I placed my hand on his back digging my nails into his back hearing him groan. "Just like that" I whispered as he sat up holding my waist and sped up his pace for a moment. My mouth dropped but nothing came out.

My eyes rolled back as he continuously hit my one spot. "Oh my Gosh- I fucking love you" I said in a whisper but loud enough for him to hear me. He gave me a small smirk before placing my knees to my chest and giving me a kiss..