This is trash

Not going to lie

This is just so bad I even thought of not posting it

I'm sorry this is so bad

I'm running out of ideas and this might end soon

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James' POV

"Alright James, today is your last day here but you will still have to do physical therapy." The doctor tells me, hitting a button on my bed making it sit up. I didn't tell anyone I was getting out early. I may have lied about my pain scale to get out of here early. Do you blame me? It sucks. I swung my legs over the side slowly gettin off the bed. The pressure from my weight on my hip makes me wince and tense. I don't mind it though. I've been in here for a little over a week. I can't stand it anymore. I limp over out the door and head to the front desk to get my pain killers and a new inhaler. I again, limp out the door and the cold breeze hits my face. I sigh contently. My chest and breathing is way better since I haven't been able to put a binder on. The bruises were yellow, healing. I call an Uber to take me to the hair salon. I get my hair cut back to how it was. I actually asked for something to be added though. A design in the side of my head that was a rose.

I left there, and took an Uber to the dorms. I smiled, looking up at the building as I got out. I limp into the building with a smile on my face. I get into the elevator and click my floor. Once I get to my door, I hear several voices, including Thomas'. I quietly put my key in the door, and turn the knob. In there I saw almost the entire gang. All laughing at something another had said. Nobody noticed me walking in. Mae started laughing so hard, the milk she was drinking shot out of her nose. Making everyone laugh harder. I stifle a laugh, and take a few limped steps forward. I slam the door shut, getting everyone's attention.

"What'd I Miss?" I ask. Peggy jumps up from her squished spot on the couch.

"JJ!" She screams. I laugh. Everyone gets up and walks over to me, I put my arms out into front of me to make sure nobody hugs me.

"Hey babe! I thought you weren't supposed to get out until next week?" Thomas says, confused. I giggle.

"I got out early."

"Woah, look at his hair.." Herc admires, noticing the design in the side of my head. I turn my head to the side, showing it off. Earning 'oos' from Everyone. Thomas comes around me and wraps his arm gently around me. I tense up a bit from the pain that shot through my body. Thomas kissed my temple.

"Come on guys, let's leave these amoureux alone." Laf says with a wink. Everyone giggles as my face heats up. Everyone leaves, Peggy hugging me gently before walking with her sisters. I close the door and lock it, Thomas had sat on the couch. This might hurt but whatever.. I walk over to Thomas, and sit on his lap straddling him. He raises an eyebrow at me, with a small smile creeping on his face. My hip burned but I didn't care.

"Tommy..?" I ask gently and softly. Worry plastered over his face quickly.

"Yes?"

"I love you..." I tell him. His smile returns to his face.

"I love you too my beautiful flower." He says, placing his hand delicately on my hip. I flinch. His thumb glazed over my wound. He immediately moves his hand away from my hip.

"Sorry!" He apologizes. I just nod. I lean my head on his chest. I wince again from the pain on my shoulder and groan in annoyance. I make it so I'm laying across Thomas' lap as if he was carrying my bridal style, cuddling into his arm. He chuckles.

"They hurt..." I tell him. He frowns at me.

"I know babe.." he says quietly. A look of guilt on his face. I held my breath for a bit, bracing for pain. I moved myself to face Thomas more, my whimpered at the pain that started coursing through me.

"Babe, get up to where you aren't hurting.." I whimpered as I sat up on Thomas' lap. Covering my chest with my arms.

"I feel uncomfortable.." I mumble. Thomas sighs.

"You have to keep your binder off sweets.. I'm sorry." He tells me. I sigh and lean on his chest. He wrapped his arms around me very gently. Cradling me like new born baby. I look down at my scarred skin. My flawed skin.

"I'm so ugly..." I mumble mostly to myself. Thomas leans down and places a kiss on my forehead.

"You're beautiful. I will always be here to remind you that. You are perfect with any flaws you have. Everyone has imperfections Jemmy. Even me... there are things I don't like about myself. But I know someone finds that flaw beautiful." here to remind you that you're perfect just the way you are. Love you baby! ❤️ onto the story!)

I smile, cuddling into him more.

"Hey babe?" Thomas asked. I hum in response, my eyes closed.

"Do you ever consider top surgery? So you don't have to worry about a binder..?" I freeze and tense up in his arms. I mean I already had surgery. But I guess I'm worried still. I didn't know I was going to get the surgeries because I was unconscious when they took the bullets out. When I actually plan it, it gives me anxiety.

"I don't like planning surgeries.. it scares me... and it's way to expensive anyway.. I don't think I want another surgery anytime soon anyway" I chuckle.

He nods. For once. I felt safe and at home.

This feels right...

The Next Day

I felt better than the day before. My wounds weren't as sore. We all decided to go to a local gay club. Well, more like everyone voted on it and I was dragged along. All well. I was kinda just trailing behind everyone with Peggy.

"Maria is just so sweet!" Peggy gushes, talking about her new girlfriend. I chuckle at her.

"I'm glad you have someone sis." I tell her. I was still limping slightly, but it didn't hurt as much. Numb pain. The only people who didn't come was Mae and Jules, they had a project to work on.

"Here we are!" Herc exclaims. I roll my eyes and sigh. We all walk in, loud music is on. A DJ in the corner with a dance floor in front of him. Big speakers at his sides. Anxiety comes into my body. I follow behind everyone who was having a seat at the bar. I sit next to Thomas and Peggy. Everyone starts to talk but I just stay silent for most of the time. Suddenly, a calmer song comes on. My eyes widen at the familiar. My sisters squeal.

"Guys! This is our song! Come on!" I laugh and shake my head, Angelica and Eliza jump from their seats.

"Come on JJ!" Peggy pulls me down from my seat.. I laugh and shake my head again.

"What's going on?" Thomas asked me worried. I chuckle.

(Dance terms!)

"Just.. watch.." I tell him. Everyone turns their chairs towards us. The DJ sees us come towards the dance floor and replays the song, turning it up louder. 'Perfect' from Ed Sheeran. I hold Peggy's hand, my foot pointing out. Angelica does the same with Eliza. People back away from us, watching.

'I found a love..'

Angelica spins Eliza and I spin Peggy who giggles. We do the same thing. I slide my hand down Peggy and pick her up bridal style.

'For me'

I spin Peggy as she's bridal style. She giggles and everyone stays silent watching us.

"Oh god hold on!" I say over the music. I let Peggy down and do the next move. I turn and do a back walkover into Angelica and Eliza's arms. My back cracking in the process.

'Darlin' just dive right in

Follow my lead'

Angelica and Eliza bench press me up. Everyone watched, making cheer sound effects. Eliza and Angelica set me down gently

'I found a girl, beautiful and sweet'

We all kick our legs out and do a jump.

'I never knew you were the someone waiting for me'

We do shanae turns and I grab Eliza's hand, and pull her close to me. She was against me, looking at me.

'We were just kids when we fell, in, love'

(Too lazy to write the rest of my dannnceee)

After the song ended, we were back out beginning position. People cheered as we all laughed. I hugged them all and we walked back to the group. Peggy went to Maria and kissed her. I giggle and sit back in my spot.

"When did you dance?" Thomas asks me.

"Couple years back we did that together." I tell him, leaning on his shoulder. He nods his head and another slow song goes on. Alex gets up and grabs John's hand, leading him to the dance floor. Maria and Peggy follow. Thomas chuckles and gets up. I give him a confused look. He holds his hand out for me to take it. I feel my face heat up as I grabbed his hand. I jump down from my seat and he leads me to the floor, where couples were slow dancing.

"Don't judge me, I really don't know how to slow dance." He admits to me quietly. I giggle.

"Here.." I grab his hands and place them on my hips, feeling myself blush even more. I see his face darken a bit. I wrap my arms around his shoulder/neck.

"Keep your eyes on me... and just rock back and forth..." I tell him. He nods but looks down at his feet. I giggle and make him look at me. He rolls his eyes and looks at me. We rock back and forth to the slow song. I smile at him and lean my head on his chest. He rests his chin on my head.

"I'm sorry.." I whisper to him.

"For what..?"

"Not telling you I'm a girl..." I whisper, guilty of my past actions.

"It's okay. I understand... I should be apologizing for hurting you so much..."

"You didn't hurt me.." I tell him. John and Alex slow dance over to us. John whispers.

"Laf and Herc are kissing.." Thomas snapped his head to the two as did I. They were indeed kissing. I laugh when Thomas gasped. Thomas wolf whistled their way. They look over at us and see us all smirking at them. Laf's face darkens as he looks at Hercules. Herc smiles.

"We've been in a relationship for 3 month now!" He tells us. Thomas gasped and broke away from me.

"LAF??!" He screams at his brother. Laf scratches the back of his neck nervously. Hollers come from the bar. I laugh. Thomas rolled us eyes and groaned his eyes in annoyance. I pull Thomas' hand softly.

"C'mon." I whisper to him. He follows me out the door.

"DONT FORGET PROTECTION MES AMIES!" Laf yells after us. Thomas groans as he walks out the door in front of me. I open the door and flip my middle finger up at him before leaving. It was getting pretty dark out. Thomas laughs as we walk to our garden... the garden we always go to. We actually haven't been there in awhile... we walk to our usual spot. The grass was taller. I sit down next to some white flowers that had a bit of a glow to them. Magic flowers.. so pretty. Thomas sits next to me and sleeps watch the rest of the sunset. I lean on Thomas' shoulder. He holds my hand in his. Thomas set something behind my ear. I look towards him and he takes a picture of me. I giggle and he takes another picture.

"Stop.." I tell him, outing a hand in front of his camera.

"I always fall for that!" He laughs. I fake pout.

"Don't laugh at me!" I tell him, getting out my phone.

"You're too cute and pretty NOT to be photographed!" I roll my eyes and smirk.

"I am not." I stop him before he can say anything. I pin him down and kiss him. He laughs at first but kisses me back. I take out my phone and snap a photo. Thomas pulls away from me and sees I took a photo.

"Damn you!" He says while laughing. I laugh at him too, still laying on top of him. His laughter stops and I let out a few giggles before opening my eyes. I see him staring at me. I blush and look him in the eyes. We both lean in and smash our lips together. I set my phone down next to me. My hands helping me keep myself up above him. His hands on my sides. I move my legs so I'm straddling him while above him. He traces his hands up and down my back. He sits up, not breaking the kiss. I sit on his lap straddling him as we make out. I feel his warm hands slide up my shirt to touch my bare cold sides. I shiver at the touch. He pulled away from me and trailed kisses down my jaw to my neck. I pant slightly. He pulls away from me and looks me in the eye.

"You want to continue?" He asks with a smirk. A pink tinting his cheeks. Intense heat rises to my face as I look away from him.

"You dork.." I mumble. He chuckles and picks me up bridal style. I squeal in surprise and wrap my legs around his waist. Who would've thought it? Everything can be perfect... sure, nothing absolutely perfect stays. But I should enjoy the parts that are. This is enough for me.