I tried to make this chapter a long one because y'all honestly deserve it. ❤️

Also, would you guys like this book to be a long one?

Excuse any errors. Milo in the mm 😍😍

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4 weeks later.

It was finally Friday and I was glad about it, after graduation it was like neither of us really had much to do other than search for work which wasn't going as good as I had hoped on my end. Although I had graduated top honors in my degree no one was looking for a Psychologist at the moment, so I was home taking care of my two babies which I honestly had no problem with because I loved spending as much time as I could with Milo and M'lani. Also because of Milo's DID although he was kind of able function normally in the workplace, Brianna recommended that he not stress himself out and mentioned that he should be able to get sighed up for Social Security benefits due to his mental state. He didn't want them at first but after I explained it to him he was all in and said that most of the money would go toward bills, myself, and little bean before he used any on himself. After I told him that the money would belong to him he still wanted to help out which was just fine. That was on Tuesday he was already getting the benifits since he was processed quickly.

We were currently headed to the carnival with little bean, Dre, and Makayla. Milo had taken his medication prior to us leaving.

"I'm excited to go baby." He said touching my thigh as I drove on the highway. He was very eager all of a sudden so I knew Zane was probably going to end up fronting.

"I am too, this is our first time together at a carnival as a family." I said as he smiled turning around to see what she was doing because she was quiet.

"What's she doing?" I asked as he chuckled a little.

"Just watching Cocomelon."

"As usual, I tried to get her to watch other baby shows but she's stuck on that." I laughed a little before hearing her whining.

"What's wrong princess?" He poked out his bottom lip and grabbed the can of puffs from the diaper bag.

Before I could get into the left lane someone sped up and almost hit my car on M'lani's side, I went into angry mom mode and rolled down my window to yelled at them.

"WHAT THE FUCK! MY KID IS IN HERE, YOU STUPID BITCH!"

Milo's furrowed his eyebrows and glared at the driver who sped off. I knew Zane had already fronted by the look of his face. Little bean was now crying in the back seat which made me feel back because I never yell when she's around it was rare that I she got angry but that set me off.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to yell. Mommy's sorry."

"Don't cry little bean. Anya didn't mean to scare you."

He took off his seatbelt and climbed in the back before I could stop him. He sat back there and held her little hand and made faces until she stopped crying. It was adorable how he always wanted to protect her.

"She's quiet now." He said before putting on his seatbelt and feeding her another strawberry puff, next thing I hear crunching, glancing in the rear view mirror I see Zane popping a puff into his mouth. I couldn't help but burst into laughter when he looked up to me and realized he was caught, he stopped mid chew before laughing with me.

"I'm sorry. I'm hungry."

"It's ok." I said still laughing as I put the car in park and cut the engine.

Getting out of the car we greeted Dre and Makayla as I helped Zane get little bean in her stroller.

"Girl why did some asshole almost hit us." I said as Makayla's mouth dropped.

"I saw that! I was like what the hell."

"Yeah, they would have gotten their ass beat deadass." Dre said as he New York accent came out thick.

"I'm glad they didn't because I gave them a mean look."

"Good job bro. Show em who's runnin' shit."

Makayla and I both shook out heads at how goofy the guys were already acting. After paying for our wristbands we needed over to the Chaos ride.

"Oh no that looks scary." I said shaking my as Zane looked at me.

"Come on Anya it'll be fun."

Watching the ride go upside down while spinning freaked me out but he assured me I'd be fine. Dre ended up letting Makayla get on with us since someone had to watch little bean.

I held on tight to my restraint before I knew I'd be screaming in a few seconds. The loud techno music played around us as the guys checked out seat belts to make sure none of us fell out. Dre was holding little bean but she was just looking around at everyone else before laying her head on his shoulder.

"Don't be scared Anya." Makayla said as I let out a shaking breath. I was scared as hell.

When the ride stared it was fine but once we went upside down it was over with. Makayla and Zane were laughing so hard when we got off all I could be was fold my arms.

"I'm not riding anymore of these." I said trying to keep my mad face but it failed.

"I'll get on the next one with y'all." Dre said as they went on a few more rides. My head was hurting so I stayed with my baby and we watched them have fun.

After a few more rides we ended up at the food court. I had gotten some chicken on a stick and funnel cake to share with Zane.

"You want some lemonade Anya?" Makayla asked grabbing a paper cup as we all shared the large cup. Little bean we asleep in her pink princess sunglasses and I couldn't help but to take a picture.

"Want some of this Zane?" I asked passing him the plate of funnel cake as he broke a piece off and ate it. Powered sugar was on his chin but he wiped it off. The food was good but my stomach was doing knots and I felt sick.

Today was fun although I only rode one right, that didn't matter as long as we had our friends and daughter that's all that mattered to me.

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Driving down the busy service street my girls slept. It had been a long day at the carnival and they were beat, so was I. I honestly loved Anya so much but everyday it killed me that I put her through so much at a time, from the attempts to basically cheating although it wasn't my doing I still held on to that stuff.

Glancing over at her I smirked to myself, she and M'lani looked so much alike it was crazy. I'd love to have another child with her now.. Maybe a son this time who knows.

"Don't leave me." I heard her mumble in her sleep before she started groaning and woke up.

"Hey, you ok?" I queried looking between her and the road.

"I had a bad dream that you left us."

"Where'd I go?" I said slowing the car down since traffic was backed up to a stand still, looked like an accident.

"I don't know. You just got mad and left." She said looking scared.

"You know that'll never happened baby, I love y'all too much to leave, speaking of I need to call my aunt so she can help us with the wedding planning."

She nodded her head and laid against the window. "I'll remind you tomorrow." She said as I leaned over and kissed her cheek before moving the car up a little bit since the traffic was picking up again.

"I love you baby."

"I love you too."

I looked in the rear view mirror to see my princess sleeping. I honestly thanked God for them every second I could because they changed my life in many different ways.

"Can I ask you something Lolo."

"What's up mama?"

"Umm.. How many times did you.. You know, a few weeks ago."

"Honestly I don't really know why?"

She tucked her bottom lip between her teeth and glanced up at me.

"Oh shit."

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