Excuse any error. 🤍

Should I rewrite the last chapter ? I don't like how it turned out. 😔

Milo in the mm 🥰.

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Milo

Tapping my fingers against the steering wheel, I glanced over at a sleeping Anya in the passenger seat. Little bean was sleeping in her car seat in the back, we had gone grocery shopping and had been out longer and we expected. Walmart always seems to get crowded at the worse times of day.

Pulling up to the stop light I glanced down and smirked, ever since I proposed to her she would always touch the ring and play with it twisting it around her finger, it was like she couldn't believe it. I thought it was cute how she'd been acting though.

Running my hand against my forehead I winched a little because I suddenly had a pounding headache, deciding on making one last stop I pulled into the CVS parking lot and cut the engine.

"Baby... wake up." I sad tapping her arm a little.

"I'm tired." She mumbled as chuckled and shook my head.

"I know ma, just stay up while I go into the store, please?" I said poking my bottom lip out as she groaned a little, once she was awake I went inside to grab some Tylenol and made my way to the register.

"Find everything ok today sir?" The young cashier asked with a smile.

"I did, thank you." I said as she gave me my total and I paid before thanking her again and leaving.

"You ok Lolo?"

"Yeah baby, this headaches been bothering me for a while." I shrugged before starting to drive out of the parking lot.

"Aw, maybe take a nap with us when we get home." She smirked before grabbing my hand to hold

it.

"That's not a bad idea." I said turning the corner so that we were now down the street from our place. Once we were inside I changed little beans diaper, fed her, and changed into something comfortable while Anya was in the shower. Holding little bean in my arms I looked down to kiss her forehead before laying her in her crib. "Daddy loves you princess." I smiled before taking off my hoodie and sitting at the edge of the bed.

"Babe." I heard her call for me breaking me from my train of thought.

"Yeah?" I said before clearing my throat.

"Come get in with me." I heard her say as I stripped out of my clothes, opening the bathroom door I left he cracked so we could hear little bean if she scraped crying. Sliding the glass door open I stepped it to see her rinsing her hair out. I wrapped my arm around her waist as kissed her shoulder closing my eyes for a few seconds.

"I love you." I muttered laying my head on her shoulder.

You know she doesn't love you, she said yes as pitty Milo. When are you going to get that through your head nigga.

I groaned a little releasing her from my hold as she turned around to face me.

"What's wrong?" She said furrowing her eyebrows as she cupped my face with her hands.

"Nothing baby." I lied, only because I didn't want her to worry. It was like I was on a roller coaster, some days I was up and other days I was going down. Today's was one of those days.

"Are you sure Milo?" She asked giving me a once over of my face. I could feel my hands beginning to shake little signally I needed my next round of medication.

"Yeah babe. I'm good." I said kissing her nose as she smiled.

After washing our bodies Anya put on one of my t-shirts and grabbed the game controller, allowing the game to boot up she clicked on my username although she had her own account to watch Netflix she just insisted using mine. I looked over at little bean who was still sleep so I put my attention back on Anya.

Sitting on her knees she scrolled through the games until she pressed Call Of Duty and waited for the loading screen to pop up.

"Wanna watch me play Lo?"

I nodded and laid across the bed so that I could see the TV, as the game started she was already becoming frustrated because she died within the first 5 minutes and I couldn't help but laugh.

"It's not funny. Here." She pouted passing me the controller folding her arm causing me to chuckle again.

"Jax is better at this game than I am." I said closing the game to chose another one.

"Where's Jax anyway?"

"He's around. He just doesn't have a reason to come out right now. Sai's been wanting to front lately though."

"Oh I was just wondering because no ones fronted in a while." She said crawling over to her side of the bed before laying her head on my lap.

"Yeah, I think it's the new medicine. I mean they front but it's not rapid anymore...You wanna watch me play?"

"Sure." She looked up and smiled before yawning.

"I bet you, you'll be sleeping before I finish this game." I said waiting for the basketball game to load.

"Bet you $20" She laughed.

"Aight then, shake on it." I chuckled holding my hand out, she laughed and shook my hand. I already knew I was going to win this bet it never fails.

Not even 15 minutes into the game I heard her snoring lightly. "You owe me $20." I mumbled before getting up slowly and cutting the game off, feeling my stomach grumble I made my way to the kitchen and heated up some left over food we had in the refrigerator a little alfredo and garlic bread, I was actually planning on cooking tomorrow because I was tired of spending money on Vinnie's.

Pressing start on the microwave I sat at the island rubbing my eye I cleared my throat before putting my head in my hands and sighing.

Since their sleeping, how about we go have some fun.

"What's your idea of fun? If it's drugs I'm not doing it.. besides it's getting late. You're not even suppose to be talking." I mumbled responding to myself.

Well that's part of the fun and just because I don't front anymore doesn't mean I can't speak.

"Yeah whatever." I said hearing microwave go off, grabbing a fork I sat back down and started eating.

Maybe we should go for a drive?

"Why?"

You need to clear your mind.. Those thoughts are coming back aren't they? We were doing so good Milo., You just don't want to scare her.

"I know Jax. I know, I'm fine though."

You're not fine.

I stood up from the island and tossed the paper plan into the trash can and went back into the bedroom. Grabbing my car keys and hoodies I slipped it on before closing and locking the door behind me. Sitting in the driveway I ran a hand down my face, I didn't want to go anywhere in particular but the taunting thoughts were back, I tried myself to think about good things, think about the engagement, little bean, our friends but nothing was working. Becoming more irritated I punched the steering wheel.

"Shut up. Shut up please!" I screamed leaning against the steering wheel trying to regulate my breathing, breathing in through my nose and out my mouth I leaned back before staring down at my hands, I blinked a few times before noticing that I had switched.

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Sai

Unlocking the car door I went back into the house. Anya and little bean were still sleeping so I went to take my medicine before tossing my key on the dresser.

"Where's you go?" Anya asked sitting up in bed.

"No where.. I just went to sit in the car, I didn't want to bother you with my meaningless thoughts so I sat in the car for a little while."

She smiled and nodded. "Your problems aren't meaningless Milo-"

"Sai.."

What?"

"It's me..Sai."

"Sai! I haven't heard from you in a long time." She stood up and gave me a hug.

"I'm always around sweetheart, I just needed to front because...Well, it's not important, now that I'm here how are you?" I smiled a little taking off the sweat pants Milo previously wore a before slipping into a pair of pajama pants.

"I'm ok, Did you see the ring Milo got me?"

"Yeah, it's quiet a ring. Very beautiful. I actually helped him pick it out along with Jax"

"You guys have good taste."

"Why thank you, that's appreciated." I said as she smiled. I sat beside her on the bed, I looked her up and down only because it had been a while since I actually took a minute to take in her features.

"Anya?"

"Hm?" She said stretching and yawning.

"Did you know that our solar system is made up of a star, eight planets and countless smaller bodies such as dwarf planets, asteroids and comets?"

She made a face at me like she was confused.

"That's interesting Sai. You like planets?"

"I just love researching things." I said as she smiled.

"Well what else have you researched."

"Well.. Once I researched things about the human body like a person can survive without water for about 3 days....However, some factors such as how much water an individual body needs, and how it uses water can affect this such as factors that may change how much water a person needs include age, activity level, and sex...Oh! speaking of sex.." I said trying to slow down because I was rambling at this point.

"Did you know that intercourse may cut down your stress level?"

"No I didn't know that."

"Yeah maybe that's something you and Milo can f since he's stressed... Oops.. I didn't-"

"Stressed about what?" She said curiously.

"Nothing, he doesn't what me to tell you right now."

"Why not? I'm his fiancée.."

"We know but he said not to tell you right now. I'm sorry.. It's getting late let's get some sleep." I said getting into bed I closed my eyes before peaking on open and looking at Anya. She chuckled a little and shook her head.

"You guys are goofy. You and Zane and the funniest ones though."

"Yeah Zane is quiet the a comedian." I smiled before kissing her on the cheek.

"Goodnight Anya, maybe I'll still be here tomorrow and I can tell you more amazing facts about stuff."

"That would be fun. Goodnight Sai."

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Short I know 😔