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Time jump..✨

Milo in the mm. 😞

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2 months later.

Omniscient

It was now May and everyone was finally on summer break, now almost 3 months along in her pregnancy Anya's baby bump was now showing. Currently laying in bed as Anya slept Milo was wide awake he had been doing fine for a while but the negative thoughts and rapid switching had come back full force.

Sitting up he made his way over to the bathroom to relieve his bladder, it was 4:42 in the morning.

You're becoming weak nigga. "No I'm not."He mumbled staring down at his hands as he stood at the. bathroom sink.

Yes you are...But that's all you've ever been anyway... "That's not true." He said taking a deep breath, he didn't want to have a breakdown but the voice that taunted him made him anxious.

It is and you know it.

"Please shut up." He muttered looked at himself in the mirror, he looked exhausted as if he hadn't slept in days, which was true he hadn't been sleeping much.

Look at you man. You used to not give a fuck. "I have a reason to care now." He mumbled referring to Anya and their unborn child.

You need something to make you forget...To make you numb..I can fix that. He sighed and ran a hand down his face.

Don't listen to him Lo..You got this. "Sai? Damn it's been a while since I heard speak." He chuckled as a small smile formed across his face.

Hearing shuffling coming from outside the bathroom door he hurried up and opened the door to see Anya rubbing her eyes.

"You need to use the bathroom baby?"

"Mhm." She mumbled before he moved aside to allow her to handle her business.

"How long have you been up Lolo?" She asked as he turned to face her as he leaned against the door frame.

"About 4 hours. Why?"

"You're not sleepy?"

"Nah...Can't sleep." He said as she twisted her lips to the side now becoming a little concerned with his nonexistent sleep schedule.

"I have something you can try." She said wiping herself and flushing the toilet. After washing her hands she grabbed a bottle of melatonin gummies.

"Here, eat 2 and lay down. These always helped me when I couldn't sleep."

"I don't think this is gonna help but thank you baby." He said before kissing her nose as she smiled a little.

Popping two gummies into his mouth they both got back into bed, all that could be heard was the ceiling fan whirling and Anya's soft snores.

Laying with one hand above his head the other one rested in his sweatpants as he continued watching the ceiling fan spin.

You really think she's going to stay? HA. Give up already Lo.. She's going to leave like everyone else, why can you not see that ?!

Becoming frustrated due to lack of sleep and his constant thoughts of negativity he got up and threw on a windbreaker with no shirt before grabbing his keys and leaving the house.

Pulling up to the gas station he went inside and purchased 2 tropical fusion swisher sweets and a sprite, once he got back to the house he opened the glove compartment and emptied on the contents before rolling up 2 blunts for himself.

"If I smoke these down maybe I can get some sleep." He mumbled lighting the blunt and smoking it down with the windows up. As the car got foggy he looked over and saw someone in the passenger seat.

He was hallucinating.

"It's not real, It's not real." He closed his eyes tightly before looking at the person again.

It's was a dark figure and it's face was covered by a hood on his head.

"Who are you?"

I'm you Milo... What you'll soon be anyway..

Unlocking the cars he got out quickly and stood back only to see no one in the car, grabbing the other blunt he got his drink and locked the doors before going inside.

Laying on the couch he put his hands over his face and let out a shaky breath.

"Lolo?"

Sitting up he saw Anya walking closer to him. "Baby it's 5 in the morning. The gummies didn't help?"

He licked his dry lips and shook his head. "Can I tell you something."

"Anything babe." She said sitting next to him, she patted her thigh so he could lay his head in her lap.

"It's getting worse...I...I'm getting worse.." He admitted.

Anya swallowed down her emotions as she listened to him vent. "Do you think you need to go away for a little while-"

"I do but I don't want you out here alone..If something happens to ya'll I-"

"Shh, nothing's going to happen to us..You're mental health is important so if you need to go away to better that, then that's what you'll have to do." She said scratching her nails softly on his scalp which was relaxing him.

"Should I make an appointment with Bri?" He asked closing his eyes as he became sleepy although he was high.

"Yes. Just to let her know what's going on in your head."

He sighed and rubbed his hand against her thigh in a matter of minutes he was falling asleep.

"Lolo?"

"Hm."

"Come on, come get in the bed." She said as he sat up and followed her into the bedroom.

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"It's getting worse..." He said staring down at the box of tissues that sat in front of him.

"Ok...What's going on? Is everyone speaking at once or is it just a single voice?"

"All at once." He mumbled looking up at her. "I'm hallucinating again.. and the suicidal thoughts-"

"Suicidal thoughts? Milo... how long has this been going on?"

He shook his head trying to blink away his tears, he needed to tell her the truth in order to get the help he needed.

"A few weeks.. I wasn't having them for a little while.. We were doing good, making progress, but now... I'm not so sure."

Brianna sighed a little. She was happy about the progress Milo had made over the last few months but now she was beginning to worry.

"I'm gonna ask you something and I want you to be honest with me."

"I always am." He muttered.

"Do you think you need to spend a few days in the hospital? or do you prefer RiverView." She questioned revering to mental hospital. "If I can be honest I think Riverview would be the best option and I'm not talking about an extended stay... maybe 3-6 weeks tops."

No! Don't let her send us away! We'll miss Anya and-. Milo stood up from the chair and walked toward the wall, sliding down he put his head in his hands.

"Milo?"

"When do I need to go?"

"I'm suggesting we start the process now.. Go home and get yourself together and I'll start the paperwork... There's something else I wanna ask."

He sniffled and wiped his face quickly before looking at her.

"What's that?"

"Are you using again? I'm not talking about weed because it's legal here now.. I'm talking about-"

"Only when Seven fronts, he likes how calm it makes us.." He said referring to cocaine which was Seven's choice of drug.

"Thank you for your honesty." She said holding her hand out to help him up.

"Go ahead and ho home. I'll give you until about 4pm.." She said seeing the time was now 2:15 in the afternoon. "Then I'll call the center to come pick you up."

He tucked his bottom lip between his teeth and nodded before walking toward the door.

"Milo?"

He turned around and gave Brianna eye contact. "This is going to help you in the long run." She said with a weak smile.

"Yeah." He mumbled leaving the office all together.

Now feeling irritated he gripped the steering wheel as he sat at a red light, for some reason this particular light took for a little bit longer to change.

"Fuck!" He said punching the steering wheel a few times before staring out the window. The light was still red so it gave whoever was fronting enough time get grounded.

"I don't wanna go to the fuckin mental hospital. Fuck!" Jaxon groaned pressing the gas as the light turned green.

It'll help us get better. "We don't need to get better Atlas.. we good nigga." He said out loud responding to himself.

Pulling up to the house Jaxon went inside and locked the door behind him.

"You're home. I called you and it went to voicemail."

"My bad bae. It was on silent but... I gotta talk to you about something aight?"

"What is

"C'mere" He said motioning for her to sit next to him on the couch, he put his head down and sniffled.

"Baby what is it? You're scaring me."

"I gotta go away for a little while bae. We talked to Brianna and she wants us to go for 6 weeks.."

"6 weeks? but-"

"I know.. I told her basically everything..." He said leaving out telling her the cocaine part. "but you know I'm gonna call you everyday ok?" He said as she stood up from the couch putting her face in her hands as she cried. She knew that it would help him if he went but she wasn't expecting Brianna to send him this soon.

"What time do you have to be ready?"

"By 4 pm that's what time their coming to get me...So we got a few hours to chill." He said wiping her tears with the pad of his thumb. "Stop crying aight. You know that shit freaks me out." He said as she chuckled before sniffling.

"Sorry." She said wiping her tears. "Can we just cuddle and watch movies?"

"We can do whatever you want ma." He said licking his dry lips.

Grabbing a few snacks from the cabinet Anya sat them on the coffee table before grabbing a blanket. Jaxon took of his hoodie and shirt only to be in a pair of sweatpants they snuggled close on the couch and watched a few Netflix movies.

"You know I love you right."

"Mhmm." She nodded popping a few skittles into her mouth.

"I just want you to know that I'm not leaving out of spite of anything-"

"I know Jax." She said as he kissed her forehead, letting his hand go into her shirt he rubbed her stomach as they watched to movie.

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4pm came quicker than they thought as there was a knock on the door. Looking at each other Jaxon got up and went to answer it, Brianna walked in with a tall muscular man.

"Hey Brianna." He said letting them into the house.

"Hey Jaxon. I can tell it's you.. Are you ready to go?"

He gave her a head nod went to grab the bag he packed up.

"Hi Anya. How are you? Congrats on the little one."

"Hey. I'm fine and thank you." She said watching Jaxon approach her.

He cupped her face with his hands before leaving a kiss on her lips. "I love you so much mamas. I'll be back soon."

She was beginning to cry and Brianna watched feeling the emotions in the room.

"Stop crying bae." He mumbled pressing his forehead against hers. "Don't be cooped up in this house while I'm gone either."

"I won't. I love you."

"I love you too bae." He said before kissing her stomach. "Be good for mommy while I'm gone."

Grabbing his bag he sniffled wiping his eyes with his hoodie sleeve before walking out the door. Anya watched them at they drove away until she couldn't see them anymore. Going back into the house she cut off the lights, closed the blinds, put her phone on silent, and locked herself in the bedroom and cried herself to sleep.

She knew that in order for him to get help he needed to go, so was going to cry for a minute and be strong until he came home.

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