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Anya

A few days later.

Spring break had come to an end and everyone was dreading coming back to classes including myself. I was sleepy all the time and couldn't really focus on my studies. I was currently sitting in the library with Draya and Makayla since they had some free time.

I'm currently in the second trimester of my pregnancy and I still get shitty morning sickness, I'm just excited to become a mother although Milo is still scared. I told him that to be nervous about it but he's still a little apprehensive. I think it's because he still thinks he going to pass down his disorders to our baby. I try to reassure him everything's going to be alright and even if that happened that doesn't stop us from being amazing parents.

Draya nudged me breaking the train of thought I had going.

"You should come over for girls night Anya." Draya said as she scrolled through her phone on social media.

"When? Tonight?"

Today was Friday and I was honestly needed to get some homework done.

"Oh no tomorrow night maybe.. The guys are suppose to be going to play ball so I thought it would b a good idea to have girls night while their gone."

"Hmm ok, that sounds like a pretty good idea." I smiled a little.

"And you know of course we'll feed you and they munchkin." Makayla said rubbing my little bump.

"Ok, Ok fine. Just text me in the group chat. Is Mya coming too?" I asked as they both nodded their heads.

Now that I think about it, maybe girls night would be too bad.

"We can watch movies, eat pizza, and of course talk about how we're gonna spoil the baby." Draya said as we shared a laugh before gathering our things to leave out of the library.

As we made our way over to the café we ran into Dre, Marcus, Trey, and Mya.

"Where's Milo?" I asked as the shrugged their shoulders. "He was behind us a minute ago." Marcus said as I looked at Dre.

"You guys go ahead. We'll go look for him." Dre said as he and I left everyone else in the café. Makayla stayed with the girls because she was hungry.

Walking over to where most of the study halls were held, Dre and I opened the door and walked through the hallway, I furrowed my eyebrows at the person who was sitting on the floor, Dre and I looked at each other before stepping closer.

"Milo?" I said as he lifted his head up."Oh what's up baby!" He smiled before standing up.

"Hey." I chuckled already knowing it was Zane."You ok?"

"Yeah I'm fine. I was just tired...What's up Dre." He said giving him a head nod.

"Baby guess what." He said a he grabbed my hand.

"What?" I asked.

"I'm not nervous about being a father anymore I mean.. I was in the beginning but now I'm

just like it's suppose to be this way." He said with a smile.

"It is bro." Dre said as Zane looked over at him. "You're right." He said walking ahead of us.

I sighed only because I knew that happiness and bubbly personality would probably be gone in a few minutes. He's been taking his medication but I keep getting this weird feeling.. I can't really explain it..

Once we were inside of the café we met us with everyone else. Sitting next to Zane we laughed at his goofy jokes before the girls and I talked about what else we were going do at girls night.

He leaned over and whispered into my ear. "I love you." before kissing my cheek.

"Stop you guys are so cute!" Mya cooed.

"Right!" Draya and Makayla chimed in.

"She's my baby, I love her thissss much." He said holding out his arms before his kissed my lips causing me to blush.

"Aight y'all we out." Trey said as he motioned for Mya to follow him.

"Ok boo text us." Draya said as she stood up walking toward Amir.

"I will boo." She said before waving at Zane I before leaving.

"Guess we'll head out too." Dre said as Makayla gave me and Zane each a hug before leaving the café.

"I guess we have to leave too huh?" He asked looking a little sad that everyone left so soon.

"Well the café is close Zane. Did you feel like driving?" I asked grabbing the car keys as he shook his head no.

As we drove him his phone rang. Picking it up his raised his eyebrows before answering it.

"Hello?"

"Hey nephew. I'm just checking on you two."

"We're ok aunt Leslie, just headed home." He said as he glanced over at me.

"Ok good I'm just checking.. I also wanted to apologize for leaving so abruptly a few weeks ago. I'm just calling to reassure you.. I didn't want you to think I just left for no reason."

I was pulling into the driveway as he slouched in the passenger seat before looking at me.

"You're good auntie but I gotta go I'll call you tomorrow."

"Ok I love you."

"Love you too." He said disconnecting the call before tossing his phone into the cup holder and running a hand down his face.

"Are you ok?... You seem upset."

"I'm cool bae..You know I don't like showing emotions.."

"Showing emotions isn't a weakness Jaxon."

"It is to me... I can't show emotions I'm suppose to be protecting the system.."

"You are Jax but it's ok to express how you're feeling-"

He got out the car and closed the passenger door before going inside, I took a deep breath before going in after him.

"Why do you always do that?"

He furrowed his eyebrows as stared at me. "Do what?" He said running his hands down his low cut hair.

"You shut me out.. I'm trying to communicate so you can feel like you're being heard by someone and you end up shutting down.."

He glanced down as his trembling hands before looking up as me, he turned around and walked toward the bathroom. He opened the medicine cabinet and shook out two pills before looking at me.

"I'm sorry ok.. I'm trying..." He said popping the two pills into his mouth and cutting off the light.

"We done talking about this?"

I opened my mouth to say something but it wouldn't come out. "Yeah..." I shrugged before going to the kitchen to make a sandwich and some lemonade.

He stood behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist, he face went to the crook of my neck before he left a soft kiss on it. "Ive got too many thoughts going at one time bae. I'm sorry for shutting you out ok."

I nodded my head not even wanting to continue the conversation, I loved all parts of Milo but sometimes it was hard to deal with..

He went into the bedroom and laid down while I ate. Once I was finished I texted the girls in the group chat.

The whores GC ✨🤪

Maybe he's just having a bad day...Amir gets like that sometimes but after giving him some 🐱and a good meal he's fine.-Draya 🤍

Lmaoo! Girl don't listen to her. Maybe he just needs a break mentally? I mean college is hard.-Makayla 🧿

I don't know, Hopefully he'll feel better in the morning. I'll just give him his space.-Anya 💕

I agree with D, if that doesn't work, give him some 🐱 I promise you lmao works every time.-Mya🦋

I almost jumped out of my skin hearing him screaming, the door was shut but I locked my phone and went inside the bedroom.

"Baby.. It's me. wake up." I said cupping his face with my hands, his eyes fluttered opened before they landed on me, he grabbed me into a hug and cried.

"Shhh, shh. It's ok it was just a nightmare." He hands were tight around my waist like he didn't want to let me go. I could hear his sniffle as his tears soaked my shirt, I was going to going to change into something comfortable anyway so I didn't mind.

"You wanna talk about it?" I said as he shook his head. "No I didn't mean to scare you."

"We gotta figure out why you keep having these dreams babe." I said as he rubbed his eyes. "I'm gonna make an appointment with Brianna tomorrow."

I kissed his nose before he leaned down and lifted my shirt, placing his hand on my stomach he looked up at me for a second before kissing my stomach. "Daddy's sorry.. I didn't mean to scare you either."

I smiled a little before grabbing my towel so that I could go shower, stepping into the shower after removing my clothes I wiped my tears, I just hated seeing him go through so much at once.

God please. Please watch over my baby. Shower him with all of your love and show him that no matter what you'll be by his side. I pray that whatever thoughts plague his mind that you remove them. I love him and I want him to be ok. In Jesus name,Amen.

After I was finished in the shower I put lotion on my body before laying beside him, his arm instantly draped around my waist as his thumb moved up and down my stomach.

Feeling my eyes getting heavy I whispered goodnight to him and that I loved him. I hoped my prayers would be heard.

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