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Milo, Amir, and Trey in the mm. 😍

This chapter is a long one.

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Omniscient

Walking into the house Milo locked the door before seeing Anya stand up from the couch. She kissed him on the lips and greeted him before grabbing her car keys.

"The baby is sleeping but I shouldn't be out long. I just needed a break."

Milo became nervous about her leaving the baby with him. "You're not taking her with you?"

"No baby." She chuckled. "You'll be fine. I love you."

"I love you too." He said watching her leave out the door.

A few moments later the baby began to cry, Milo made his way into the bedroom and stared down at her. "Please don't cry. Do you wanna be held? Are you hungry?" He asked as she continued crying louder and louder.

You hate the sound of her cries. Don't you? Seven began taunting him but he tried his best to ignore it.

"I don't wanna hurt her...She's my daughter."

The cries now turned into screaming. Milo tried everything to get her to stop and was growing more and more aggravated. He brought his hands to his head hitting the sides with the palms trying to cease the voices.

"STOP CRYING!! I DON'T KNOW HOW TO HELP YOU!!" He yelled before Seven taunted him again.

I know how to shut her up for good. "How?"

Grabbing a pillow from the bedside he leaned over the baby bed and hovered it over her but before he could do anything.

"MILO!" Anya screamed pushing him away from the baby bed.

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!"

"She wouldn't stop crying. I'm sorry. I'm sorry."

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Jumping up from his nightmare Milo's chest heaved up and down before he looked over at Anya and began crying. Getting up from the bed he closed the bathroom door and locked it before sitting on the floor.

Rubbing his eyes he continued crying until he looked over at the clean razor blade that sat on the edge of the tub, grabbing it he quietly broke it before holding it between his fingers.

Lo chill.. This isn't how he handle things.

Let him do it nigga, the pain only lasts a few seconds...

Seven if you don't shut the fuck up dude.

"All of you shut the fuck up." He mumbled as he closed his eyes, placing the cool metal onto his forearm he pressed down as hard as he could before the first sting of the initial break of the skin.

"I just want the nightmares to stop.." He mumbled as a weight lifted off of his shoulders. He chuckled a little to himself at the fact that what he was doing made him feel better... but it was only for a moment.

Dropping the razor blade into the trash can he cleaned himself up and opened the door to see Anya rubbing her eyes. "You were in there for so long I got worried, plus I need to pee." She chuckled a little as he gave her a small smile hoping she wouldn't notice the bandages.

Getting back into bed he looked over at the time that read 3:33 am, looking up at the ceiling he heard the bathroom door open as Anya cut off the light, feeling her side of the bed being occupied he felt her head lay on his bare chest.

He draped his arm carefully across her body before hearing her yawn, not even a few minutes into listening to the rain they were both asleep.

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"Yo pass the ball!" Milo yelled to Dre as they played a quick game of basketball with a few guys from there school at a park near their apartment. The girls were sitting on the benches making small talk.

"No I always get short nails only because of clinical classes, you can't have them super long." One girl by the name of Mya who's boyfriend Trey was playing basketball with them said.

"Oh ok that's understandable."Makayla said as they continued their conversation about nothing really.

Anya furrowed her eyebrows as she noticed the bandage on Milo's arm. She made a mental note to ask him about it later.

"Anya?"

"Hm? I'm sorry I wasn't listening." She said as they shared a laugh.

"I asked how far along are you?" Another girl named Draya asked before taking a sip of her blue Gatorade.

"Oh I think I'm about 12 or 13 weeks maybe?" She said honestly unsure. "I don't count it because I want it to go by faster." She said as the girls cooed loudly causing the guys to look over at them briefly.

"I hope you have a girl!" Maya said. "Me too." Draya chimed in as she scrolled through her phone.

"Same but I think Milo is hoping for a boy he just won't tell me that." She chuckled as the guys made their way over the to them.

"Y'all wanna go grab some pizza?" Trey asked wrapping his arms around Maya's waist. "You smell." She said as they all shared a laugh.

"Pizza sounds good as hell though." Dre said looking over at Makayla. "You down shorty ?"She nodded her head before standing up and walking over to him.

Milo put his arm behind his back as Anya stood up.

"We can all meet there maybe in an hour?" Milo questioned.

"Cool." They all agreed before going their separate ways.

"Aight we'll see y'all in a few." Amir said holding Draya's hand as they walked out of the gym.

Getting into the passenger seat Anya put her seatbelt on before looking over at Milo.

"Did you have fun?"

"I did actually, you looked like you had a good time too with the girls." He said as she nodded. "I did, but I wanna ask you something."

"Go ahead baby." He said glancing between the road and the rear view mirror.

"What did you do to your arm?"

He tucked his bottom lip between his teeth and sighed. "I just wanted to pain to stop so I did it just one time."

"Milo.."

"Are you mad?" He muttered as she looked over at him. "No.. I just wish you would have told me earlier. We could have talked about it."

"Anya I can't always talk to you about it..." He said becoming frustrated. It wasn't that he couldn't talk to her, he just didn't want to scare her by telling her the thoughts he was having.

She sat back in the seat and looked out the window.

"So you're done talking?" He asked as she kept quiet.

"Baby."

"No..I guess you didn't want to tell me because you think it'll scare me but it won't. I could have thought of some ways you could cope instead of hurting yourself Lolo, I know sometimes it gets difficult but I'm here."

Pulling into the driveway Milo cut the engine and took off his seatbelt before looking over at her. "I'm tired of just coping ok... that shit isn't working for me anymore if you want me to be honest with you....Everyone just says find ways to cope with it.. I'm trying and it's getting more and more difficult. I'm just tired of fighting with myself and these voices." He said unlocking the door and getting out is the car.

Anya sighed before she followed behind him texting the girls in a group chat they made. She was already dressed in some jeans and a t-shirt so she sat on the couch waiting for Milo to shower and get dressed.

The Whores GC. ✨🤪

No bitch, don't be dumb. You're allergic to seafood. Face gone blow up like a balloon. 💀-Draya🤍

LMAO. yeah just don't do that.- Anya. ✨

Sooooo, when are we gonna plan Anya's shower?💕 I'll bring the meatballs.- Mya 🦋

Bitch it's not for 8 months. Pressed ass😂😂-Draya🤍

wait- who tf named this group chat. Lmfaooo-Makayla 🧿

DRAYA-3 new messages.

Anya giggled at the texts messages between them all. She was happy to finally have a good group of friends.

"You ready?" Milo asked walking toward to refrigerator the get a bottle of water.

"Yeah I'm ready, just texting the girls." She said as he walked over to her, wrapping his arms around her he held her for a minute before kissing her on the lips.

"I love you ok?" He mumbled before kissing her again.

"I love you too Lolo."

Letting her go he smacked her ass cheek causing her to push him playfully. "Move you horndog." She laughed out loud as his stale facial expression, he was trying to hide his laughter.

He sucked his teeth and tilted his head to the side a little. "I can't touch you?"

"Nope." She laughed as they walked to the door.

"Come on before we're late." He said opening the door allowing her to go out first. As he drove he played with the ends of his hoodie.

Anya noticed being was nervous and held his hand while he drove.

"Relax ok. It's gonna be fun." She smiled as he licked his lips and nodded. "I'm trying to.." He mumbled as she felt his hand shake a little. It's not that he didn't want new friends.. He was just nervous about possibly switching which happened when he was nervous anyway.

Pulling up to Vinnie's everyone was waiting outside for them, getting out of the car Dre dapped Milo up before giving Anya a side hug. They all greeted each other before going inside and grabbing a table.

After putting their orders in they made small talk amongst themselves, the girls talked about typical girl stuff like shopping and who was the best R&B singer out right now. Mya couldn't decided between Bryson Tiller and Chris Brown so she choose both.

The guys talked about sports and Meg The Stallion.. but Milo wasn't really into the conversation.

"Lo you straight?" Dre asked nudging him a little.

"Yeah I'm cool." He said slouching in the chair with his arms folded across his chest.

Anya looked over at him and they made eye contact causing him to wink at her, she knew exactly what happened but she didn't make it a big deal.

"Bae." He said as they girls turned their heads in his direction. He motioned for her to follow him outside.

"Is he good?" Amir asked as the waitress was bringing their food out which ranged from pizza and burgers with fries.

"Yeah he straight bro. It's just loud in here and he wanted to talk to her." Dre said coming to Milo's defense.

Outside Jaxon leaned against a random car before rubbing his hands together.

"Is there a reason why were outside Jax?"

"Yeah I mean for one it's loud as hell in there and two I just wanted to be near your pretty ass." He chuckled before licking his lips.

"Jaxon." She laughed before turning to go inside, he touched her wrist before grabbing by the waist. "I just don't wanna let you go." He said as his eyes were a soft brown.

"We can cuddle later. Let's go inside." She said as he opened the door for her.

"There you are. Thought I was gonna have to come outside." Maya said as they shared a laugh.

"It's ok. We just needed to talk." Anya smiled before grabbing a slice of pizza and putting a few jalapeños on it, craved spicy food all the time.

"The baby has you eating jalapeños Anya?" Makayla said taking a sip of her sprite.

"Girl yes, I crave spicy stuff all the time."

"It's a girl bro." Amir said looking over at Jax who raised his eyebrows. "How you know nigga?"

"When Ma dukes was pregnant with my little sister, she craved spicy stuff all the time. My pops said she put hot sauce on almost anything." He chuckled as he, Dre, and Jaxon continued their conversation.

"I was hoping for a boy but shit since you think you know so much I guess I'm having a girl." He shrugged.

"Woah." Trey said before raising his eyebrows as Jaxon's sudden attitude.

"I didn't-" Amir said as Jaxon cut him

off.

"It's cool bro I'm just playin." He laughed before tossing the napkin on the empty plate. He stood up and made his way to the restroom.

"What's up with Lo? He got an attitude for no reason." Amir said to Dre as he furrowed his eyebrows.

Dre felt as if it wasn't his place to really tell his personal business but he also didn't want to have things escalate, as they paid their tabs everyone made their wait outside, standing by their cars Jaxon was the last person to come out.

"Can I talk to you bro?" Amir asked as Jaxon moved to the side.

"What's up?"

"You straight I didn't mean to come off as a know it all.." He trailed off as Jaxon chuckled. "Your mood kinda changed too-"

"I'm cool man. Ever herd of DID?" He asked as everyone continued making small talk across from them.

"Nah what's that?"

"Aight so I have multiple personalities.. Right now I'm Jaxon.. nice to meet you." He chuckled before Amir dapped him up.

"Nice to meet too man, this is crazy." He said as they shared a laugh. "It's cool man. I'm good though." He said as they made their way back over to the group.

"Y'all good?" Dre asked draping his arm over Malaya's shoulder.

"Yeah we good man but aye, Anya and I are gonna head out." He said motioning for Anya to come toward him. Anya hugged the girls before telling them to text her later.

After saying their see you laters Anya and Jaxon headed home, once they arrived the took a shower together before sitting on the balcony listening to the crickets.

"Did you have fun after all?"

"Yeah I did bae..Amir and Trey are cool." He said before yawning. "I'm tired as fuck though, come on." He said as they went inside, tossing his t-shirt onto the dresser he got into bed in only his boxers.

"I just hope I didn't scare Amir and his girl off.."

"You didn't baby don't think like that."

Anya planted a kiss on his lips before snuggling close to him, he covered them both with a blanket but stayed up for a few minute while she slept.

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