Chapter 64

Harry's POV

~~the next day~~

Well it's officially over...Louis and I broke up....it's over....

Last night I cried myself to sleep in Louis's arms, he held me so close...I actually felt safe for once...

I had to drag myself out of bed this morning, nothing could cheer me up...even though the sun shone brightly and the birds sang cheerfully outside, nothing could lighten my mood...Louis's is leaving, he's going away for a year.... I may not ever see him again...what if management makes him marry Eleanor? What if he is kicked out of the band?

Louis was almost in tears this morning when Simon called and yelled at him for about half an hour....he wanted to talk to me too...I broke down crying and begged he change his mind. He said he was very disappointed in both of us, me especially. He said I ruined a perfect relationship, he told me to 'man up' and quit acting like a child. He said I can't let my feelings ruin my career, he said Louis is only a stupid crush and I'd get over it soon enough.

I hung up on him and laid on the couch and cried, Louis rubbed my back and told me he loved me.

A while later he had his stuff packed (he was forced to move out of our flat) and left for the air port to meet Eleanor. I went with him.

~~at the airport~~

We waited for what seemed like hours, Eleanor's plane was late, thankfully...

Which means I got to spend more time with Louis. Even though I was crying Louis tried to cheer me up.

"Hazz....it's only a year, I'll be back in no time. We can still text each other...I hope"

"Only a year?! That's like an eternity....and texting isn't the same...I can't see you or touch you...I can't hear the sound of your voice...I can't be with you"

"I know..but we'll make it....stay strong for me, ok? Promise me?"

"I-I'll try....but what if I can't?! I don't have anyone to support me now..."

"You have the boys..."

"It's not the same! I don't love them the way I love you...I want you. You're all I need.."

"I know, Hazz. I don't want anything in this world but you..."

I would've answered Louis, but I was I cut off by Eleanor running up and snapping her fingers in my face.

"Get away from my boyfriend, please. Let's go Louis"

She grabbed his arm and tugged on him. Ha, it's funny because I thought she hated him with a burning passion. She's the same girl who mumbled 'I hate you' to Louis when he was drunk that one night. She doesn't deserve him...she doesn't love him like I do...

Louis glared at her and yanked his arm out of her reach

"One second! All right?! Thanks."

She crossed her arms and rolled her eyes "fine. But hurry up, we have a hotel booked for the night then we're leaving first thing in the morning for Paris."

They're going to Paris? I always dreamed of going there with Louis...just the two of us....that'll never happen...not now, not ever...

Louis gave Eleanor an 'I don't really care' look and turned to me, he placed both hands on my shoulders and gazed into my eyes. I began tearing up again. (Ahhh I hate crying)

I bit my lip and sighed "so...I guess this is goodbye..?"

"Only for a little while...I'll see you soon, I'll text you everyday, we can Skype if you like"

I nodded and wiped my cheeks "yes, I'd like that..."

"LOUISSSS we have to leave" Eleanor huffed, pulling out her IPhone and giving him the evil eye.

Eleanor is alot more demanding now...I wonder why. Oh I don't know.. Maybe because Louis was forced to take her back and they were forced to date, whether they like or not. She can basically do anything to him, and he has to go along with it. It's all for the public now, they don't want to be together. She just likes the idea of dating Louis Tomlinson from One Direction. Will he ever be anything more than just a famous person to her? I think she just likes the attention and fame. I don't think she really likes Louis...

"I KNOW. One minute" Louis, spat, glaring in her direction.

Louis stroked my cheek and ran his fingers through my hair. Then he did something I wasn't expecting, he slowly leaned in, cupping my face in his hands, he closed his eyes and pressed his lips to mine. A tear slid down my cheek as kissed him back, I hugged him tight and whispered "I love you" in between kisses.

Eleanor glanced up from her phone and shrieked in disgust

"OMG WHAT THE HELL LOUIS?! WHY- WHAT ARE YOU DOING?! Stop it!"

Louis gave her the finger and kept kissing me. I'll admit it, I was shocked, but I'm not going to stop it.

She grabbed him by the arm and yanked him away from me. "OH.MY.GOSH! I've never been so embarrassed in all my life! How could you?! JUST..WHY?!"

She drug Louis out the door along with her suitcase. He yelled "I love you" and disappeared outside. I was left standing there alone, crying my eyes out. A few people were laughing and these guys videotaped our kiss...

They started yelling "hommo" at me told me to burn in hell. I turned and ran out the door, hot tears streaming down my face. I raced out into the parking lot and got in my car, I pulled the door open and flopped in my seat. I broke down crying again, I pulled at my hair and laid my head on the steering wheel. I give up. I don't have Louis, therefore, I have nothing. I have to nothing to live for anymore. He was my everything, he was all I ever needed...I don't need money or this job, I would've been content with what I had...Louis.

I loved him more than anything in the world. More than life itself, without him I'm nothing...he was the one who made me laugh, who brought a smile to my face when I thought I'd never be happy again. He put up with all my problems, he was there when no one else wanted to put up with me. He sat with me all night every time I cried myself to sleep over the hate or simply not feeling good enough for anyone...he was the one who stayed with me at the hospital, he stood up for me when even though Edward could've killed him. He helped me relies there is so much more to life than just surviving. He seemed to be the only one who cared that I was cutting myself....worst of all...he loved me. And I hate him for it, but love him unconditionally. He is amazing....maybe someday we'll be together....

When I finally pulled myself together, and got somewhat use to my eyes being clouded with tears, I was able to drive back home. All I could think about was Louis, how much I needed him, I want to end it all....maybe I will...and this time, I'm serious...