Chapter 58

Harry's POV

~~hours later~~

I made one last cut on my wrist, and then carefully pressed a piece toilet paper over it, to stop the blood from gushing out onto the floor.

Louis isn't back, yet. I'm worried...what if he leaves me? He said he was going Liam's and that he'd be back soon...did he lie to me? Actually, I wouldn't blame if he didn't come back...I just cause problems, he is amazing and deserves so much more than me...

I slowly stood up, setting my blade on the counter and then snatching my sweater off the floor. I ran my fingers over my cuts to see if they had stopped bleeding. I looked into the mirror, holding my shirt close to my chest, my eyes were red and puffy as well as my face, I'd been crying for hours...I don't know how much longer I can take this..

I sighed, wiping my eyes before changing into my sweater. I grabbed my blade and stuffed it deep into my pocket, I turned on the faucet and washed my hands, I dried them off on a small white towel and then tossed it on the counter. I cautiously opened the door, glancing around the room and stepped out.

I checked my phone, 5:04

Louis should have been back hours ago....did he leave me? He said he'd never leave, he said...he loved me.

I flopped on my bed and turned on my phone, it was then I noticed I had 17 unread messages and 5 missed calls and a voice mail. They were all from Louis, I immediately answered his message

To ~Louis~Tomlinson~

Hiiii where are you? I love you and I miss you...

Then, I read through his texts, the first few said "hi" and "hey, what's up"

After like the tenth text he seemed to be getting worried, I wasn't trying to scare him...

To {Harrrry}

Hazz, why haven't you answered my texts?

To {Harrrry}

Are you ok? Please answer as soon as possible

To {Harrry}

HARRY please. You're scaring me, are you ok?! I'm trying to come home as quickly as I can.

To {Harrrry}

Harry...I love you, remember that...

I bit my lip and read the last of his texts, I wasn't trying to get him all worked up...it is just me after all, there's nothing special about me... I just don't see how a guy so amazing, so wonderful, so perfect, could love a guy like me, I'm nothing...

My phone vibrated, it was Louis replying to my text

From ~Louis~Tomlinson~

Harry finally! What the hell have you been doing?! I've texted you like twenty times! I'm not mad, I was just worried about you. I love you very much and I'll be home soon, I promise. xxx

At least he'll be back soon, I get so lonely without him...he's my everything, I need him, he's the only person keeping me alive. I couldn't do this without him, I love him so much....I don't see how he loves me. I'm so upset with him for choosing me when he could have any other person in the world, but he wants me, no one else, he loves me, and I hate him for it...

Sorry this chapters weird, I've been kind of sick so I haven't written very much and this is, I don't even know xD sorry I'll try to write more when I'm feeling better xx