Chapter 24

Harry's POV

~~a few days later~~

I was sitting at the kitchen table, reading and finishing my cereal from breakfast, soggy cornflakes don't taste very good though.

I was in me and Louis's flat, we had the week off, number 1: Liam was sick with the flu. 2: it had been rainy the entire week, and all our concerts that were scheduled were suppose to be outdoors, so they got cancelled. The fans weren't to happy, but we promised we'd make up for it.

Zayn is taking care of Liam at his flat, I'm not really sure where Niall is. I'm bored out of my mind, Louis and I were watching a movie, but now he's taking a shower.

I sighed and got up, taking my bowl and dumping the cereal into the sink, I tossed my bowl down and then grabbed my book. I flopped on the couch and switched the tv on.

Suddenly, Niall burst through the front door, "Um I need to tell you something!" He shouted.

"Ok, tell me"

He ran over and stood in front of the tv blocking my view, "Niall what are doing? Move"

"No man, I need to tell you" he switched off the tv and stuffed his hands in his pockets shyly.

"What do you want?" I sighed, putting my hands over my face.

"So um...you know how you cut yourself.." He whispered, biting his lip.

"Yeah. I know" I replied, coldly, glaring at him.

"Well...I kinda sorta maybe told Ashton and maybe Calum and Michael.."

"NIALL! Don't tell me you told Luke...please no"

"And maybe I told Luke...." He winced. "I'm sorry, I had to! He kept asking when I told the other guys"

"NIALL HOW COULD YOU! WHY THE HELL WOULD TELL LUKE?! You know he can't keep his mouth shut"

Niall teared up bit, he probably wouldn't care if the whole world knows, he just hates getting yelled at.

"I'm sorry! It just kind of came out, I told Ashton cause he knows what it's like...and then Michael and Calum wanted to know"

I sat up and covered my face, hot tears filled my eyes, I was so angry with Niall, but this wasn't just like he pulled a prank or something it was different. How could he do this?! Why..? I shouldn't have told the boys, maybe Zayn and Liam would've been ok......but Niall?! He can't keep secrets, like I said before.

"At least the fans don't know"I sighed.

Niall looked down at his feet. "Um...well yeah...about that...check twitter"

I glared at him, and pulled out my phone. I unlocked it, then went on my twitter account. Tears filled my eyes as I scrolled through my newsfeed, thousands of pictures with the hashtag dontcutharry appeared on the screen. I threw my phone down and buried my face in a pillow.

"H-Harry...I...a few girls asked and I just..."

I ignored Niall, I got up and ran into my room, I pounded on the bathroom door "Louis!" I sobbed "p-please, I need you"

I heard the water being shut off, "one minute" he called. I heard him rustling around some, then he threw the door open and stood there pulling at the zipper on his jeans. "What?" He groaned, bending down and rolling his pant legs up. He glanced at me and his face softened. "You ok?" He mumbled, standing up and wrapping his arm around me. I shook my head, I grabbed his hand and lead him out into the living room, I snatched up my phone and handed it to him. He scrolled through my twitter and made a face "Who's responsible for this?!" He growled, clenching his fist. Niall waved his hand and stood up from the couch. "I-I am...well and Luke, he was talking about it rather loudly while we were at store and a few fans heard us..." He mumbled, brushing the hair from his face and shifting his feet.

"Luke wouldn't have known if you hadn't told him!" I yelled. "I never should have said anything to you about it! You don't take me seriously, is this a joke to you?!" I screamed, rolling up my sleeve and shoving my arm in his face. He hung his head and whispered "no.."

I punched the wall angrily and gritted my teeth,

"how dare you!? Why would you do this?! If it was you I'd never tell anyone, you know that, but sense it's just me, you don't give a damn, WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS?! YOU FREAKING LIED TO ME WHEN YOU SAID YOU'D NEVER TELL ANYONE" I began sobbing and turned to leave, Niall grabbed me by the wrist, "I'm sorry, please forgive me" he pleaded, yanking on my arm and sobbing.

"DON'T FREAKING TOUCH ME! GET OUT! LEAVE ME ALONE!" I shouted, pulling my arm out of his reach and running down the hallway, I went in my room and slammed the door.

I could hear Niall crying while Louis scolded him, but do I care? No way. How could he do this?! I don't know if I can forgive him...why should I? He'll go and do this again, anytime I tell him secret or something personal, he tells anyone he can, the guy couldn't keep his mouth shut to save his life.

I went on my phone again, I logged onto my Instagram account and searched #dontcutharry. Millions of photos popped up, I clicked on one and read the caption.

"Omg I heard Harry self-harms, is it true?!"

Tears streamed down my face as I clicked on another picture.

"OK GUYS, I HEARD HARRY CUTS HIMSELF, IS IT TRUE?!"

I wiped my eyes, and swallowed the huge lump in my throat, I sat on the floor, my back against the end of my bed. I kicked off my shoes and pulled my knees up to my chest, I rested my chin on my knees and bit my lip. I got off Instagram and went on goggle, I searched "Harry Styles" and just as I suspected, the first thing that came up was "Does Harry Styles Selfharm?" I clicked on the article and began reading.

"A few 1D fans were said to have talked to Niall Horan and Luke Hemmings on Wednesday morning, at the convenient store. They later said on Twitter that Luke and Niall were talking about Harry and how he was harming himself. The girls asked if it was true, the boys didn't deny anything. "Luke told us Harry was having some problems and was cutting himself" Grace Smith stated. We haven't spoken to the boys-" I threw my phone down in disgust before I could finish the article. Everything was bad before, but this makes 10000 times worse...I didn't want anyone to know, I wasn't even going to tell Louis at first, now the whole fandom knows...