One day, suddenly.. Everything has changed to worst.

I don't like my wife.

I hated seeing her.

Every time I see her, she looks like an animal, a monster.

I can't bear to see her, I feel like throwing up whenever I see her.

I turned into a mad man. I became a mad man.

Morelike, I became impatient, I turned crazy. Litrally crazy who has no heart.

I lacked patience and tolerance.

I was always angry at her.

I didn't mean to be angry but it was always what I felt.

I can't control my feelings.

Whatever I felt like doing I do it.

I could not control myself.

Until this news came to my parents.

They said I was bewitched* but I didn't believe them.

(T/N: In Islam, we believe in black magic, stuffs like some person casting a spell on you, sometimes they mess with your mind or sometimes with you health, it exists but whoever does it is considered non Muslim. They befriend Jinns so that they help them to bewitch someone. And may Allaah protect us all from the evil and harms and from such.)

I got angry with them too. I fought them.

That's how bad it was.

It wasn't me to talk back to my parents.

Even my parents-in-law, I don't really raise my voice but in those times, I couldn't control myself and even raised my voice against them.

La Ilaah Illa'llaah. May Allaah forgive me.

They wanted to take to me to a healer but whenever I hear them say that I get furious and I don't let them.

Note: Healer - someone who prays to Allaah (does Roqiyyah) and ask Allaah to help the sick through him reading verses from the Qur'ân to the sick.

They weren't able to force me.

I became a very bad person.

I always go outside, leaving Hana alone at home always. I've become careless about her.

Until her parents took her away from our home, I was so crazy I was even happy that they took her away from my sight.

Hana was badly hurt because of my state.

My wife that I've really loved and cared for.

My wife that I don't raise my voice at.

My wife that I can't bear to hurt..

During those times, I really didn't care about her.

All my affection for her were gone and wiped out.

[It was so heartbreaking, Yassin said while confessing]

Hana's parents stop her from going to me but she was stubborn, she didn't wanna lose hope.

She went to me and tried to talk to me, convincing me but I didn't really care about her.

I became that monster of a man.

She always cooked for me but it wasn't a big deal for me, I didn't care about it at all.

I stayed like that for months.

May be Hana was still so young, she wasn't able to carry the burden of living with someone she loves and that only hurt her as an exchange, so she went to back her parents and never came back.

They also kept on bugging me to take me to someone who can remove the curse by the Will of Allaah but I was always angry, I didn't believe them.

Until I was so sick of them about them telling me always about that "curse" matter 'til I left home.

They always call me telling me to come back home after I left or else they will cut off our marriage.

They even said that Hana collapsed out of worry, that what I was doing and that our situation was too much for her that she can't take it anymore.

But unfortunately I really didn't care about it. No slight of worry that I felt about it.

They even threatened me that if I don't go home in a month, they will really cut off our marriage but I became such a heartless person.

So they had no choice but to really cut off our marriage.

And they cut off our marriage.

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