I never fell asleep. I stopped crying though.

But I know I would never be the same. Mentally.

"Jaxon?" I whispered while I snuggled up against his chest.

"Mhm?"

"I-I want to go home." I said holding my breath.

His hold tighten."No."

I closed my eyes and released my breath because I knew he would say that.

"You are home, and anyway there is no where for you to go remember? And why not just stay here with me." He stated.

I look up and see him staring me down. "Why do you care so much if I leave or not?"

I see his Adam apple move up and down and I see his jaw clench.

"Because."

I creased my eyebrows and push my self up and I straddle his hips and stared at him.

He was laying down and watched every move I made.

"Because?"

"Just because."

I rolled my eyes and laid back down on his chest.

We soon got quiet and I decided to break it.

"What does your tattoos mean."

I felt him tense under me and I freaked out.

"Nothing." He said in a stern voice then he picked me up and got up and walked out of the living room.

"Jaxon."

He ignored me and made his way in the kitchen. I scrambled up and followed him. He looked in the fridge and pulled out a beer.

"Jaxon." I said making my way behind him.

"Leave it Jordan." He then walked past me and up to his office.

"Jaxon! Stop. I just asked a question! You don't have to get all butt hurt. If you didn't want to answ-"

"I said leave it Jordan!" He said while slamming the door in my face. I stood there shocked then I twisted the knob open. He's on his chair with his head back with his eyes closed and his beer in his left hand.

"Jax-"

"What don't you fûckin get Jordan! I said fûckin leave it alone!" He said not looking at me but his voice hard. I almost flinched at how he's yelling at me.

"I JUST WANT TO KNOW WHY YOU FÛCKIN FLIPPED ON ME FOR ASKING FOR YOUR TATTOOS!" I said walking in clenching my fist while I made my way infront of his desk.

He ran a hand over his face and placed the beer bottle down.

"You're starting to piss me off right now," he said while his eyes open.

"Good. Now tell me why you flipped." I said crossing my arms on my chest.

"JORDAN!" He said while slamming his hands on his desk. I flinched. He stood up and leaned on his hand.

"Fûckin leave it! I don't care if I hurt your feelings for telling you no. Just stop. I don't want to talk about it and you keep bugging me."

"I was just ask-"

He grabbed the bottle and then threw it right next to my ear and it shattered on the door behind me.

I didn't flinched I was glaring at him while he breathe heavily.

"FÛCK!" He yelled while he threw everything off his desk. He punched the walls and threw his chair. He went back to punching the walls and screamed and yelled profanities.

I ran towards him and placed a hand on his arm but he turned around faster than I can blink and he pulled me in his chest and placed his lips on mine.

I stayed frozen with wide eyes while his hand went to the back of my neck and one wrapped around my waist.

I pushed at his chest but he pulled me closer. His lips moved against mine but mine stayed frozen.

He grew frustrated and he pulled away.

I pushed at his chest and he sighs. "What the fûck was that for!?"

"Forget it."

"Fûckin Jaxon! What the hell is wrong with you!? You have these mood swings faster then me! What the hell is wrong with you!?"

"Leave." He said while walking to a corner of the room.

"No Jax-"

"I SAID FÛCKIN LEAVE!" He screamed.

I flinched and back away while he punched the wall.

"Ja-"

"LEAVE!" He said turning to me. His face was red with a vein popping out of his neck.

"Ok." I whispered and walked out. I closed the door softly behind me, but right when I did something was thrown to the door. I heard him yell and I heard things crash inside but I left him alone.

I hurried off to his room and made my way under the blankets. The lights were turned off with the curtains closed. I sighed and a few tears fell.

Why am I crying?

I was the one who pissed him off.

I always mess things up.

Now I know to not ask him about his tattoos again.

But why?

Why was he so sensitive about them?

What did they mean to him?

Where they covering something?

Or was it just for fun?

Nah. Clearly it was hiding something or it meant something really close to him that would cause him to flip.

I just wanted to know.

I sighed and got out of the bed. I made my way towards the bathroom and filled the tube with hot water.

Maybe, if I shower again, it can calm me down and make me sleep.

I stripped out of my clothes and I closed my eyes tight and walked in. The water burned my skin but I sat down with my teeth clenched and my fist closed which my finger nails are digging into. I laid down and still held my eyes tight.

I slowly open my eyes and saw that my skin was turning red and I drew some blood from my hands.

Slowly my skin started to get use to the water and I slowly felt my muscles untighten from the warmth.

I laid my head back and let my eyes close. I moved my hand around the water and I slowly went down till my head was underneath the water but my face was out. I moved my hand and I heard the weird sound it made and I felt my lips curl. I moved my hands around and all I can hear was the weird sound my hands would make underneath the water.

I slowly got up and sat against the wall and watched my toes move around the water and make tiny waves.

I closed my eyes but then quickly open them when I felt the water move.

Jaxon.

He sat down.

Naked.

The opposite of me, and watched me closely.

I tucked my knees up and tried to cover myself, but he grabbed my legs and placed them on either side of him.

He watched me to see if I was going to move, but I didn't so he slower let go of my legs.

I saw his eyes close slowly and see him relaxing in the water.

The water was still clear, and let me tell you something.

Jr... is not jr. He's like a HUGE jr.