You give me the kind of feelings, people write novels about...

I soon reached in front of a night club and parked my car in the parking area. Whenever my mood is off its the only place which can calm down my nerves. I entered inside the club loud, music was blasting in the speakers and i looked around, people were drinking, dancing and couples were making out. I made my way near the bar and sat on the chair. I ordered a glass of whiskey. The bartender made my order and gave me the drink. I gulped down the whole glass in one go. I looked around and saw the people dancing , laughing and enjoying. Suddenly a girl came to me and sat in front of me. I noticed and turned my face towards her. She was giving me a seductive look and I knew that she's one of those sluts here whom I fuck everyday. But today i wasn't in the mood for it . Soon she got up from her seat and came towards me. She bought her lips towards my neck and before she could kiss me I spilled my glass of drink on her dress. She immediately backed away and looked at me in disbelief. I signalled her to fuck off and she left murmuring under her breath.

After sometime I got up and paid the bill. I left the club and made my way towards my car. I entered inside the car and started the engine and drove away. Whenever I get into any club I always fuck those sluts but now I just can't .My mind always keeps revolving around Ryu. She's all what I keep thinking about all day and night. And I don't even want any other women touch me or be close to me except Ryu. I am going crazy about her. And I just have no control over my mind. Ughh.....Ryu what are you doing to me....?

My alarm buzzed waking me up from my deep sleep. I checked the time and sighed. I sat up on my bed. My eyes were heavy because of crying all night. I picked my phone and checked it and my eyes widened seeing the notifications.

I checked my messenger and got shocked

hey Ryu what happened

y did you left the cafe like that

- if anything's wrong you can aleast talk to me

Ryu can you just reply me once....where are you now?

And so many other messages. I was really shocked about his behaviour . Why is he worrying about me like that. I know I shouldn't had left him in the cafe like that. It's nothing his fault. But I was so involved in my own sadness that I didn't even told him anything and left him there dumbfounded. Its okay I will apologize to him in the university. But what would I tell him....? Ahhhh... it's so frustrating. I got up from the bed and made my way towards bathroom. I looked in the mirror and my eyes were puffy and my face was dull. I sighed. Then I remembered the scene from yesterday in the cafeteria. Tears starting to form in my eyes again. But I blinked them away. I should not think about him. Why I'm even jealous. He is not mine anyways. But I know I just can't avoid my feelings no more. I think I have for him. But why?? I should have fell for someone who can love me back not someone who doesn't even care about my presence. But I can't control my feelings. I have fallen for him and I already know that

I reached the university and entered inside. I was going through the corridor to my class. Until I heard a familiar voice. I turned around and Jimin was coming towards me with a worried expression on his face. I smiled weakly at him and when he reached me, he suddenly wrapped his arms around my shoulders and hugged me tightly. I was so shocked by his sudden action. But after some seconds I also wrapped my arms around him and patted his back. Soon he pulled away and looked at me. He held my shoulders and said

"Ryu, are you ok?"

"What happened yesterday?"

"And why were you crying and moreover you didn't even answered to my calls...I was so worried about you" he bombard me with his sudden questions making me confuse.

"Jimin, Jimin stop, I m fine you don't need to worry about me....ok?"

"Are you sure?"he said with a worried expression.

"Yes... I'm really good" I said he nodded and then didn't asked any further questions about my sudden behaviour yesterday but I was grateful that he didn't asked.

After sometime we entered in the class and I sat on my desk. I looked behind me at Jimin and smiled at him, he smiled back and I turned my face towards the front. Soon after sometime, some boys entered in our class. They were handsome and I think they were the seniors but my eyes widened seeing Taehyung also with them entering in class. They stood in front of the class. Taehyung looked around and soon his eyes landed on me, our eyes met again and my heart skipped a beat, I felt tears building in my eyes again so I immediately averted my gaze and looked down while he was still staring at me with an expressionless face. Then one of those boys came forward. He smiled showing his cute dimples and spoke

"hey everyone, we hope that you all are doing great.....and we came here to inform you all that, we're going to organise a fresher's party for you all." The whole class filled with hooting and clapping. Students got really excited by this news. And I also felt good maybe by going to this party I can make some new friends and maybe I will find someone special there and then I will also be able to forget about Taehyung but maybe it's not that easy but I can aleast try.

"So, the party is at one of our friend yoongi's house we'll SMS you the address and timings and attending this party is a must ok?" He said and the whole class cheered loudly. Everyone was so excited. Then my eyes landed on Taehyung and my soul shivered seeing his piercing gaze on me and then he smirked at me. I just froze in my place. Soon they all started to leave the class and he just smirked and left the class with the boys.

All the lectures ended and I was on my way towards the uni gate, Jimin beside me.

"So, are you coming tomorrow at the party?" Jimin asked.

"Umm.....yeah I think I should go...I m having so much on my mind lately...and I should relax a bit" I said smiling at him. He smiled and said

"Okay then, be ready tomorrow by 9 and i'll pick you up"

"uh....you don't need to I ca-" he cut me off

"no excuses, I am going to pick you up tomorrow so be ready" he said and smiled showing his white teeth.

"Uhm...okay" I said and smiled.

Soon after I reached home and entered inside my room. And then started getting ready for my part time job at cafe. I got ready and left the house locking the door outside.

I entered inside the cafe and made my way to the counter.

"Oh ,hey Ryu how are you" Karen said. She is my colleague , we work together cause our shift is at the same time.

"Hi, I'm good" I said smiling and she returned the smile. She is really nice and good person. She also helps me if I don't understand something, she's really kind just like Jisoo

But jisoo has been really busy with the hospital stuff lately and I think she'll get a promotion really quick cause she really works hard , and I m happy about that.

After some time we were doing our work. Karen was arranging the tables and I was on the counter. After few seconds the cafe's door opened indicating that a customer came. I looked at the door to see the customer and soon after a tall and handsome man entered the cafe , he was so gorgeous, with sharp jawline and broad shoulders he reached the counter and I smiled at him and said

"yes sir,what would you like to have?" He smiled and said

"One cold coffee please"I smiled and nodded and soon after I made his coffee and reached the counter to give him his order, I gave him the coffee and he took it from my hand and our fingers brushed. I don't know why but I felt a little uncomfortable by his touch but shrugged away. I started making his bill and asked

"uhm...sir what's your name?" I said, he looked at me and spoke in his deep voice

"Seokjin, Kim Seokjin" he smiled a little and I made his bill and gave it to him.

"Thanks for visiting sir, please come again" I smiled and he suddenly asked

"what's your name?" I got a little confused by his question but then answered after few seconds

"uhm....Min Ryu" I smiled a little and he nodded.

"Then...see you soon Miss Ryu" he said and my body shivered hearing his words.

"Uh...sure sir" I said hesitantly.

"Just call me Jin" he said smiling a little. I got more confused but nodded eventually. He smiled and then turned around and left the cafe leaving me dumbfounded there.

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