Light is easy to love

Show me your darkness...

It's been almost 3 days since that incident in Taehyung's room. And I am still not over it yet. I always keep thinking about him no matter how much I try to control myself to avoid his thoughts in my mind but I just can't. So after so many unsuccessful attempts I just gave up. I think I can't get any control over my thoughts. In these three days Taehyung hasn't talked to me. Not even a single word. Sometimes I catch him staring at me but as I look at him he immediately avert his eyes from my face. I don't know what's going on in his mind but his this kind of behaviour is really disturbing.

Currently I m sitting in my class attending these boring lectures....huh. I haven't seen Taehyung in uni also from past 3 days nor I searched for him because I don't want to witness something hurtful again after that corridor scene. I still wonder that who that girl is ?But I can't get to know. I have also started working at a cafe because I don't want to be a burden on my parents ,they had already done so much for me so I just got this job so that I can do pay my regular expenses on my own. The lecture was so boring like I wanted to sleep so badly. I sighed and looked behind me, Jimin was literally sleeping in class, his head was on the desk and he was sound asleep unaware of his surroundings. I sighed and looked back at the board. Jimin is really sweet and kind whenever my mood is off he's always the one to make me laugh. Ughh.....why didn't I fell for Jimin instead of Taehyung. Wait what!!Did I just admit that I fell for Taehyung. Crapppp. No that's not possible or....is it? I haven't told Jimin about me and Taehyung that what is happening between us, he just knows that we are living in same house nothing more nothing less. Though he's Taehyung's Friend and my best friend but I still don't wanna tell him about this. Even if I wanted to...what could I tell him it's all so complicated that I can't even understand it myself.

The bell rang and I got up and started packing my stuff to leave until Jimin called me

"Hey Ryu,shall we go?"

"Uh, yeah lets go"I said and he smiled and we made our way to the cafeteria. We sat on our table and ordered the food.

"So, how's it's going on..here in Korea?" Jimin asked. I looked at him and said

"uhmm,it's good u know its really cool to be in a different environment it's feels so good"I smiled. He smiled at me and nodded

"oh, so did you find anyone special here like u know some crush or bf?"he asked and my smile faded and immediately he came into my mind, Taehyung! I just really can't get over him no matter what I always end up thinking or worrying about him.

"hey, you there?" Jimin asked and slightly nudged my arm taking me out of my thoughts.

"uh uhmm , actually not yet" I laughed a little and he smiled huge showing his white teeth.

"Really?"he asked in enthusiasm, I raised my left eyebrow at him and then he coughed a little and said

"uh,I was just curious.....uhm leave it .... actually uh ....yeah did you made the project?" He asked hesitantly I got little confused by his behaviour but shrugged away my thoughts and replied

"yeah I'm halfway" he nodded and than smiled we talked a little more about casual things but I found his behaviour little different which made me curious but I didn't asked him about it.

Soon after sometime when I was talking to Jimin. my gaze landed on someone and my heart stopped seeing the scenario in front of me. It was the same girl from corridor sitting on Taehyung's lap and kissing him hungrily on lips. My heart shattered into thousand pieces and without my knowing tears started coming out of my eyes. Suddenly someone nudged my arm I looked in the direction and it was Jimin with a concerned look on his face

"hey Ryu,what happened?.... wait are you crying, what's wrong?"he asked worriedly. I quickly turned my face and wiped my tears and got up from my seat picking up my stuff, Jimin also stood up and asked

"Ryu, will you please just tell me what's wrong?"

"I'm sorry Jimin,but I have to go... meet you tomorrow....bye" I smiled weakly at him and he furrowed his eyesbrows. I quickly left from there leaving Jimin in the cafe alone. I hope he'll understand.

I reached home and got into my room and locked the door I fell on the bed and started crying burying my face in pillow. I cried so hard.

"w-why does it hurts so much?" I sobbed quietly and again that scenario cafe scenario replayed in my mind how was she sitting in his lap and moreover kissing him like that.

I sobbed and cried hard and slowly my eyes started to get heavy and I closed them to relax myself a little and after sometime I drifted to sleep.

Some time ago (in the cafeteria)

I was sitting in the cafeteria with Jungkook and Yoongi. We were talking about last night party, that how good it was. I really like to go to parties. Its so much fun. I can enjoy with my friends and moreover I can fuck those sluts there also. I just do it to relieve my stress nothing else and after fucking them I don't even care. We were talking about these things when my eyes landed on someone. Her!! Ryu was entering the cafeteria with Jimin beside her and swear to god she was looking gorgeous....she always does but I just never get enough of her. Her long black hair and brown eyes...the way she walks and laughs. Ever since I saw her for the first time, I feel addicted to her, she just drives me insane, she's so fucking beautiful. She sat on the table with Jimin. They were talking and laughing with each other without knowing that I was there also. I just get really jealous whenever she's with him. Even though he's my friend but I can't trust him in Ryu's case. I have noticed how he looks at her and smiles by himself. And im damn sure that he likes her,which is not a good thing. Nobody can be this close to her cause she belongs to me... I will never let any other man get close to her because Don't ask me that how desperately I wanted to punch Jimin on his face and moreover punish my little slut so hard that she'll never be able to talk to any other men. But not yet. Its not the right time so I have to control myself. As I was in my thoughts suddenly my phone buzzed and I checked the notification and sighed annoyingly. Someone patted my shoulder from behind and I already knew who it was. I sighed quietly and said "just fucking go away, I don't wanna listen to any of your bullshit Mia"I said not even looking at her face suddenly she pushed me back on chair and sat in my lap she slowly bought her lips towards mine and whispered

"I'm sorry" and with that she slammed her lips against mine kissing me hungrily. My anger reached its peak and I fisted my palms and roughly pushed her and she fell on the ground. She groaned in pain and looked at me angrily as I got up from the chair. Jungkook and yoongi's eyes widened looking at the scene and they also stood up from their chairs.

"Tae wh-"she was about to say something until I spoke cutting her in mid way.

"don't you dare! you are nothing but just a gold digger who doesn't hesitate to spread her legs in front of any man for money, and let me tell you, we have no relation with each other now and stay away from me you fucking slut , otherwise the consequences won't be good" I yelled at her making her flinch in her place,I fixed my jacket and left the cafe angrily .

I reached my car and started driving don't know to where. How dare she? After betraying me like that she still have guts to show me her face. Yes,she was my girlfriend but some days ago I caught her cheating on me with some stupid guy. I was not really in love with her but still how could she do this to me. She don't deserve to be my girlfriend. There only one women who have every right over me and that is just