They say that I'm a princess. My mom, my dad, all of them. 'Oh you look like Cinderella'. 'Hi, Snow White.' 'Belle!' Of course, I was glad to hear that when I was a kid but now I just laugh it off. As an adult, I understand what it means to be a princess. But there is someone who don't tell me such things. It's weird because I like it.

"Mom. Do I deserve this?"

"What do you mean?"

"Love. Do I deserve to be loved?"

"Of course, sweetie. As long as you're doing a great job."

How foolish of me. When I heard those words, I was very happy. I said to myself 'Yes I can do it!' 'I just need to win the competition.' With that, I worked hard. I trained myself until my feet bleed. Ballet has become my life since my childhood. Therefore, I had no friends in my childhood days. But it's fine as long as mom and dad will love me, right? And puberty hits me, that's when I started to understand things, they'll only love me if I make them proud. They don't love me for being me...

Except her.

One day, I decided to run away from my parents. Adolescence, you'll start rebelling against your family. Then, I found a restaurant where I can hide and that's when I found her. And that's the day when I started to feel alive.

"Mina."

"Hmm?"

I hummed as response to Jeongyeon, my girlfriend. It was snowing that day. We went out for a walk and since we miss each other. The cold breeze hitting our face. It's strange, I should feel the coldness in my skin yet it was warm that day maybe because I'm with her. And it's also strange because that warmth still lingers to me to this day.

"When the snow melts, what does it become?" Jeongyeon asked me, raising her hand trying to catch the snows and the other is in her pocket.

"What? Uhm, it becomes water."

"Bzzzt." She laughed and I pouted.

"Then what is it?" I asked curiously.

"Spring comes." She answered smiling softly at me. I didn't understand it at first but I smiled back at her then gave her a kiss on cheeks.

What she said melts my heart. That's also the reason why I love spring so much.

Princess. I agree that this word is fluttering but every time they call me that I feel indifferent. Maybe I am a princess just like in Disney movies. Best example is Rapunzel. Locked up in a so-called 'safe place' not until a 'Eugene' came into my life and that is none other than Jeongyeon. She made me feel things. She made me understand things. She made the 'Mina' now.

"My queen."

'My queen'. Words that every time I hear it makes my face red and makes my heart pounds like a drum in my chest.

"Why?" I replied. She chuckled.

"I know you're nervous." Jeongyeon said.

"No, I'm not." She let out a chuckle again. She stares at my eyes. Oh how I wish she doesn't get tired of looking at me like that. "You can do it." She cheered me up and it did. I nodded. Jeongyeon held my hand. Her soft and warm hands with that heavenly eyes in mine, she really makes me always feel better even with that small gestures.

"Come on, you are the best ballerina I have ever met." She comforts me with that caring, cheery, and mellow voice of hers.

"But what if my parents won't like my performance." Eaten by my negativeness. "Don't say that." Jeongyeon said.

My parents don't know that I'm in a relationship and Jeongyeon is aware of that. We are in backstage waiting for my performance. Others are getting ready while me are just sitting with Jeongyeon who is comforting me. My eyes and my whole body is trembling, overthinking what if my parents won't love me anymore if I mess this up. I don't even know if I love ballet.

"I know you love ballet and I know that you're a passionate ballerina." The girl next to me stated. Is she reading my mind? I looked up at Jeongyeon and gives her a confusing look. "I can see it in you. Your sparkling eyes as you sway your hands, your smile every time you perfect your dance, your voice when you talk about ballet to me, and your gleaming face every time I compliment you about it." She paused and gave me an assuring smile. "Maybe you just don't see it but I do. It might be because you always see ballet because of your parents and because on how it will make them happy, and you don't see it because you are not aware that it makes you happy. In short, you don't see ballet that way because of yourself." Jeongyeon explained and it made me realize things.

"It's just like this; You are seeing yourself on how people see you or what they say about you but not on how you see your reflection in the mirror." She added. That hits home.

After the performance 'Giselle', people watching clapped their hands in amazement including my parents. That is indeed a very special day to me.

Jeongyeon is the very reason of the 'Mina' now. She help me be the best of the best version of myself.

One day, I was breaking down. Thinking what my life is for. Was I born to live? But luckily, I have Jeongyeon by my side.

"I don't think anyone is born to live. It's something you have to find yourself." She told me.

At first, I was very confused but then I figured it out.

Even though the world doesn't need us, we live for those who need us.

"Why?"

"What do you mean 'why'?" She asked me furrowing her eyebrows.

"Why are you doing this to me? Why do you always help me?"

"Isn't it that obvious? I love you."

"But still... It's u-unfair." I argued and tears started to fall down from my eyes. "I'm not that good enough for you to always help me. What can I give you back?"

She chuckled "Your love is enough." Jeongyeon stated. Oh please God, if there's only one Jeongyeon, then please don't make her and I separate. Jeongyeon is always like that, she loves helping others even the bully in our school. She's too green flag that sometimes it makes her red flag. Because if I were her, I'll only help the good ones. Like, I need to see the greatness in people and that's all it takes for me to give a hand.

"You see, Mina..." She started "It's not always to see the good in people... But if you can somehow, find a way to believe, sometimes that's all it takes to help someone."

Honestly, I learned from Jeongyeon more than my school. She's always the reason. Why I'm here. Why I pursue my passion in ballet. How I feel loved. On how I escaped my 'prison'. On how it feels to touch the ground, the water, and what air feels like just like when Flynn Rider let Rapunzel out of the tower. What it feels like to have a freedom even for a meantime. Jeongyeon, Jeongyeon, and Jeongyeon.

My first love and my first heartbreak.

I waited and waited for her. My parents forced me to go with them to states. And of course it's because it's for me, for my future. I understand them but I want it in my way. Jeongyeon didn't come. I expected her to run away with me from my parents but nothing happened. I set my foot on the plane and came back years after, getting married with someone else. Although, he's a sweet guy and I know someday I'll learn to love him. As if it's easy to do. But I'm always thankful to Jeongyeon, she taught me things and I learned from it. We all learn from our mistakes and now I just want to learn how to love easily.