"Is that all?"

"Mhm. Yes."

"That will be an exhausting day."

Mina and Jeongyeon in her restaurant, talked about the preparations for the wedding. Thankfully, there was no problem with their conversation. No stuttering, no disagreement, the flow was smooth. It looks just fine on the outside however on the inside, are they?

Yes?

That's how they feel. At least that's what their mind says.

'It's fine'.

'I'm fine'.

'Everything is fine'.

But what does their heart says? Maybe this time, they no longer follow their hearts, the two don't listen to it anymore. Is it because they don’t want to be victimized by their hearts again? They are no longer children, so 'mind over heart'. They prefer smooth flow of life than a satisfying and pleasing life. Adulthood is a tough stage of life. You need to be careful with things or say hello to regrets. So I think it's fine, right?

A waitress approached the two. It made the ballerina confuse because she didn't order anything. She gave Jeongyeon a confusing look and she just smiled at Mina. It's a burger with lots of peanut butter. Mina's eyes widen and sparkle while Jeongyeon is watching her amusingly. The burger is different than before. It has more peanut butter than before and the burger is bigger. It's a very special menu, maybe it's just for her only. Just by the look of it makes Mina drool. She started to eat it.

"I missed this so much, I haven't eaten this in a long time." Mina said making Jeongyeon's laughed at her. "Well, you can go here anytime you want." Jeongyeon stated.

"Really?" the chef nodded. "But it's not on your menu."

"Not anymore. Actually, for you I will put it on the menu."

"But I don't think anyone will buy this." Mina said munching the food.

"You're wrong." the ballerina looks at the chef confusingly. "You are the only one who'll eat that. And you forgot what I said, 'for you'. I'll cook that for you only."

"You don't have to do it—"

"But I want to."

"..."

Silence, they only stare at each other.

Mina's POV

I was flustered by what the girl in front of me said. Maybe Jeongyeon hasn't been able to move on yet or is it just because of her pure heart. What if she still loves me. What if she's hurting inside. What if she's not okay.

Too many 'what ifs'.

But I think it is not.

Not when Jeongyeon's gaze changed.

When the girl I loved used to stare at me like I am her whole damn world.

There is still warmth in Jeongyeon's eyes but it is different than before. I don't know if I'll be happy knowing that Jeongyeon stares at me differently or be sad because it changed. I hate to admit it but I miss it, those things that made me fall for her. I miss those eyes that makes me daze. I miss her smile that makes me feel better. I miss her voice that I can listen to all day and I'm not complaining if she's noisy.

Noisy?

I don't think noisy is the right term, rather it's music. Yes, music. She is an eargasm, at least for me.

So I think Jeongyeon is okay. So am I, right?

Third Person POV

Mina choked on her food. Jeongyeon panics and quickly give her water. Then the ballerina drunk it and breathed deeply.

"Are you ok?"

...

Mina driving home, playing the radio in her car. Listening to songs, pondering. 'Are you ok?' What Jeongyeon said keeps running into her mind and she don't know why.

Two girls running inside the campus. "Jeongyeon!" Mina is chasing the blonde girl. "Wait! Why are you running away from me?!" she yelled, struggling to catch her breath. Moments later, Jeongyeon bumped into someone and as a result she stopped. "I'm sorry." she apologized. "It's ok." the person she bumped to said and left. With that, Mina has already caught up with her. "Jeongyeon." she said still catching her breath. She holds the blonde girl's wrist tightly yet her hands feel weak. She stares at the taller with blazing eyes yet it's still soft.

"Jeongyeon."

Once more. Mina said her name. And it always makes the taller girl hypnotize. She sighed. "Why are you avoiding me?"

"H-Huh? Avoiding you?" Jeongyeon said not making an eye contact. "What do you mean?"

They have been friends for months. They hang out with their classmates and nine of them became a group of friends. Especially Jeongyeon and Mina, they are the closest with each other. Mina will come to Jeongyeon's work to eat sometimes, or Jeongyeon will always wait for her after her ballet lesson, or they'll just roam around wherever their feet take them.

"Did I do something wrong?"

"No, Mina. It's just..."

Rubbing her nape while Mina still waits for an answer still holding the taller girl's wrist. Jeongyeon looks so nervous, Mina can tell right away. First, the ballerina pulled her to a place where they are just the two of them. Lastly, she made sure that Jeongyeon is ok.

"Now, tell me what's wrong. Tell me what did I do. Tell me everything what is in your mind." the ballerina is really worried for her.

"Relax... Relax, Mina. You have done nothing wrong." Jeongyeon stated patting her shoulder. "I really don't know. I don't know why I'm being like this." Mina furrowed her eyebrows, could not understand what Jeongyeon's said.

"I can not explain why you're the one I'm always looking for. When I wake up you are on my mind. And I can't explain why do I always dream of you."

Jeongyeon expressed while Mina can't hide her smile. But now that Jeongyeon voiced what she's feeling, she was able to realize what she couldn't explain. She likes Mina. She darts her eyes at the surroundings because she can't look at Mina, feeling embarrassed, feeling unsettled, feeling awkward, while Mina is falling.

The ballerina cleared her throat. Thumping hearts, adrenaline rush, feet tapping the ground, clouded minds, not making an eye contact. When their eyes met, they laughed thinking they look funny.

°°°

Chilly atmosphere, the vanilla scent spreading the room, light footsteps, an elegant girl reflecting to every mirror. Mina practicing ballet alone. She stopped to drink water. Actually, she can't focus on dancing because of what Jeongyeon said to her the other day keeps running in her mind.

Knock... Knock...

She heard a knock on the door and opened it. There, she saw Jeongyeon. Mina was surprised seeing the taller. Before she could say something, Jeongyeon raised her hand and said "Take my hand."

She's blushing, her cheeks heat up. Even though she didn't know why Jeongyeon said that, she still took the latter's hand. Nothing changed. Her hands is still warm just like their first meeting. Truthfully, everytime she's with Jeongyeon feels like a first time. Like today, it's not her first time holding the taller's hand but it seems so. And she's looking forward what another 'first time' will she feel.

"I thought you had free time but why are you still here?" Jeongyeon said pouting. "So... Why don't we run away?" she suggested.

"What?"

"Let's run away." the taller pulled Mina still can fathom what's happening and they run. "Wait. I'm still wearing my ballet uniform." they halted. "Oh." Jeongyeon said. "Here." she handed her hoodie to Mina then she wore it. The two girls continue to run. Smile on their faces, heavy thud from their footsteps, giggles, and a cloudy day. Quiet and calm weather but a loud heartbeats.

First time experiencing this thing, thanks to Jeongyeon. Mina didn't expect that what she was looking forward which is the another 'first time' with Jeongyeon would happen immediately.

They stopped. Catching their breath, they look at each other and laughed. Mina looked up at the sky. Sun hiding in the clouds, flock of sparrows, and the calming breeze. She delights all of it. A lovely scene. Still looking up, closing her eyes.

'What a sight.'

Jeongyeon thought admiring the girl in front of her. She don't know what is the cause of her fast heartbeat, is it because they run or it's because of Mina.

Mina.

Just by the thought of it makes Jeongyeon smile. "Why are you smiling?" Mina asked. "I don't know. Maybe because of the view." the taller answered. "What view? The sky? The children playing there? Or the colorful streets there? Or the tall buildings?" Mina asked again pointing her finger on what she said. She received no response from the latter so she darts her eyes to Jeongyeon. And with that, she already knew what Jeongyeon's answer was.

She herself is the answer.

Because Jeongyeon is only staring at her. Such a gaze only from Jeongyeon she always sees and she will never get tired of it. "So I'm the view you were talking about that made you smile?"

"I guess you already know the answer... Yes, it's you."

Mina felt her cheeks hot because of what Jeongyeon said. She looked down and bit her lips. Then she saw a hand. A hand from Jeongyeon signaling to take it and she did. Walking, Mina intertwined her fingers to Jeongyeon making her surprised. They sat on a bench.

To be honest, Jeongyeon didn't smile just only because of the view, Mina, but she smile because of the word 'Mina'.

"Mina."

The ballerina hummed as response.

"Mina."

"Why?"

"Mina."

"What is it?"

"Mina."

She glares at Jeongyeon while smiling mischievously.

"Mina."

"Jeongyeonnn..." she pouts and the latter laughed at her.

"Mina..."

They stare at each other. Mina is looking at Jeongyeon like she is very annoyed.

Annoyed?

I don't think so. Honestly, Mina loves it. She loves hearing her name from Jeongyeon. She loves it on how the taller's voice is pleasing to her ear. On how her name becomes sweet, calming, and lovely if it's from Jeongyeon's mouth. Like how can Mina's name sounds so marvelous just by her voice?

"Nothing. I just love to say your name."

'Just like how I love hearing my name from you.' Mina said in her mind.

~~

Mina arrived at her home from Jeongyeon's restaurant. It looks like her fiancé is still at his work. She lay down on her bed immediately. Staring at the ceiling, deep in thoughts.

'Are you ok?' , Jeongyeon

"Yes, I am. I'm fine." she whispered to herself.

Ever wonder what is the most always said lie? 'I am fine'. We always say that we are fine even though it's not. Even though we are hurting physically, emotionally, or mentally. We say 'that' so that others will not worry. We say 'that' because we are afraid. We say 'that' because we want to keep our feelings to ourselves. But I can't blame them, for me, the word 'okay' or 'fine' is euphonious. Like when you heard it, it's so relieving. Like 'Oh, there's nothing to worry about'.

A word you would be glad to hear but we don't know if the speaker of that word is torturing inside.