Looking in the mirror I see nothing but a drained girl, I got zero sleep last night just thinking about what to say in my speech and I've never cried so much in my life

Taking one final look at my outfit I put on my leather jacket on top and a black clutch with my gun inside and walk out my room

"Morning mama" I said before sitting at the table to eat what she's cooked me

"Baby how are you feeling about today" she says concerned

"I'll be fine,can we go please?"

"Yeah come lets go" she says as we make our way to her car me sitting in the passengers seat

It was about a half an hour drive to the venue, my mother decided she wanted to have a proper ceremony for my father and it had to be how he wanted it so that's what she did,she made sure that the venue was in a huge hall and he wanted a closed casket with his favourite song and people being happy and not sad...weird I know but that's my father for you

As we reached the venue everyone was already here and had take Their seat, so walking to our seats at the front the priest says his ceremonial shit and then I get called up leaving my jackets on my seat I get up and stand in front of everybody to get a view at who came

A quick glance to my mother I saw the boys behind her giving me reassuring smiles all apart from one...Rico. Ignoring them I clear my throat and open my letter

Dear father,

Well your not here and I hope you can hear this because other wise I'm making a fool of myself

I got told that a daughters worst nightmare is losing their dad and that's what happened I lost you I'm in a pain that no one can feel and I do nothing but push people away gosh if you were here you would have laughed at me for being such a fool but I wouldn't sit there and cry no I would sit there and laugh with you

The day I lost you i felt a part of me died,I lost my father,my bestfriend,my hero

And If my tears could bring you back you would be here with me teaching me how to beat a bitch up

I will forever love you and you'll always be in my heart

Love Bella

xo

After my speech I fell to the floor and balled my eyes out not looking up I felt two strong arms pick me up and drag me into another room and sitting me on a chair they cupped my face and wiped away my tears with their thumbs opening my eyes I see Xavier

"Gone all soft on me?" I say sniffling

"Only for you princess only for you" he whispers leaning his forehead against mine making me lean forehead so my lips connect against his plump ones catching him by surprise he immediately pushes the kiss further

Wrapping my arms around his neck I stand up for him to put his hands on my lower thigh and my instinct made me jump up and wrap my legs around his waist,grinding into him he pushes me against a wall making me squeal taking this opportunity he forces his tongue into my mouth to explore every inch before I pull away to grab a breathe he keeps going and travels down my neck trailing kisses up and down my jaw and chest throwing my head back for him to have more access a small moan escapes my lips

"You like that princess" he whispers into my ear before biting on my earlobe making me bite my lip to make sure no other moan escape as I nod in response before he puts me down and walks out the room leaving me hot and bothered

What the fuck is his problem

For real.

What a bi-polar prick

Facts queen facts.

After thinking about What happened I realised what I just was so wrong I nearly had sex at my fathers funeral what the fuck is wrong with me and with no other than small dick Xavier

Fixing up my outfit and wiping my smudged lipstick and mascara I walk out the room and walk over to my mother.

"Are you okay now baby?" She says hugging me

"Yeah I might go to Lolas tho" I say which she nods in reply so grabbing my jacket I walk out the venue and call Lola to tell her I'm on my way to her house

Lola didn't come to the funeral because it would be awkward for her to be in the same room as Rico because turns out Rico didn't go see Lola that night we had a yell-athon he went to the club and got fucked up which made me even more pissed off at him for

The door opens and out runs Lola to come hug me

"I missed you soo much" she whispers whilst hugging me as I hug her back I smile and link arms with her as we walk into her house

"Hows my nephew doing?" I ask

"It's not going to be a boy it's going to be a girl!" She argues

"No it's going to be a boy trust meeee" I argue back

"Let's bet on it!" She says confidently

"Alright $100 it's a boy" I smile

"I can't believe I'm betting on my child,it just shows how much I know your going to be a girl" she says looking at her stomach before shaking my hand

"We shall see" I say before laughing "it's so good to have you back" I smile whilst she hugs me

"MOVIE MARATHON" she yells

"YES"

After they finished the movies...

"I need to tell you something" I said playing with my thumbs

"Shoot" she says curiously

And I told her about what happened the argument between me and Rico and the hot make out sesh with Xavier

"NO FUCKING WAY XAVIER AS IN XAVIER KNIGHT" she screams making me nod "YOU LUCKY BITCH" she says making us laugh

"I thought you wanted his best mate?" I asked

"That's what I thought but 1. He's never in school and 2. He's irrelevant 3. He never talks that much and 4. I met Rico" she whispers the last part

"I see you getting it on with ricoooo" I drag on before jumping on her making her laugh

After our talk we decided to call it a night because we had school the next day

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"MORNING SLAG"

"Oh you motherfucker,why are you so energetic in the morning?" I grumble before rubbing my eyes to make them used to the light

"I don't know but do you know that you look SEXY when you sleep!" She says cheerly

"Watching me sleep now?" I said before getting out of bed to go to the bathroom

"I'm using your shower by the way" I call out before shutting the bathroom door and walk into the shower

It was a day after my father funeral,a day after mine and Xaviers steamy make out god the things this boy does to me

Sis forget himmm!!!

I know I should but he's so soft and gentle with me and so fucking sexy he's on my mind all the time

Xavier this, Xavier that you need a break love

Oh shush.

Getting out the shower after having a slight argument with my inner voice I wrap a towel around me and head out back into Lola's room

"I've set some clothes out for you to pick from" she says before going into the bathroom to take a shower for herself

Looking on the bed at my options I go for the bad bitch look number 3 which was a pair of white washed black jeans with a spaghetti strapped black body suit and a pair of white Air Force 1's

Tying up my hair into a sleek ponytail I then apply lipgloss and mascara and head downstairs to wait for Lola

10 minutes later Lola came downstairs and we got into her car because I walked and she drove to the closest coffee shop which for her is Dukins

As we grabbed our coffees and make our way to school

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The bell for lunch went I still hasn't seen Xavier so not bothered by it I told Lola I would meet her at the cafeteria because I had to go toilet, after I finished in the toilet I washed my hands and left

Walking towards the cafeteria I hear a series of moaning and although I was disgusted I wanted to see who it was peeping my head round the corner I could see Brittany the slag

Why am I not surprised.

Fr!

But I couldn't tell who she was making out with because he had his back towards as they broke up the kiss I quickly walked back a few steps and then walked forward again to make it look like I wasn't just standing there and I don't know what shocked me more the fact that I didn't get caught or the fact that

The boy was Xavier