before I start this chapter I wanted you to know that I changed Hala's name to Sally. Because we already have a Hala in my other book, and It feels weird having two Halas. That was everything you needed to know, now keep reading.

Rasha

a week later - tuesday.

A boring week has gone by and nothing special has happened. Only random homework, exams and normal school days. I haven't seen Tariq for the whole week. He hasn't come to school for a week and I don't know. In some way it kills me, I feel guilty. I really wanna apologize for what I did, even though I didn't know I did something like that. And what about me and Mr.Bashar? Well, I think nothing has changed between us, we still joke and laugh together like normal. But there's a part of him that has changed, I don't know I feel like a part of him has changed. And this Friday I was visiting Sarah and Yasin, then Mr.Bashar's friends were there too. But he wasn't, they said that he had something to do. I don't know, maybe I'm just imagining things. But this Friday was really fun, Mr.Bashar's friends and I got closer and we had really fun. We joked and laughed, they weren't so similar too Mr.Bashar. I can say that Mr.Bashar is much mature, but that's not a good thing, people have to chill sometimes.

I walk into school with my friends talking about some party that's going to happen this Friday, on my birthday. Yep, my birthday is coming and I can't wait until I turn 18 years old. Hihi! '' But Rasha, can't we celebrate your birthday at that party? I mean the hottest guy in school is hosting that party! '' Medina crosses my arm with excitement. I shake head with a smile on my face, '' Nope, my dad would never, ever allow me. '' I say as she sighs. '' Come on bestie, just tell him you're sleeping over Donia's. '' She says, I look at Donia who shrugs her shoulders. '' Guys, no I can't lie to my parents. You know that I hate lying to my parents. '' I say as she sighs. '' Whatever. '' She rolls her eyes as she pushes me.

'' But we have to do something for your birthday, when do you want to celebrate it? '' Tamara asks me. I open my locker before I speak, '' Whenever you want. '' I say as I take out my math binder. '' Great, that means we don't have to do it on Friday? Because I really want to go to that party. '' Medina groans. Tamara and Donia glare at her to make her shut up. '' We could celebrate my birthday on Saturday? What do you think? '' I ask them as I lock my locker. '' Great, Saturday It will be! '' Medina shouts, we all laugh as we slap her arm playfully. We walk to Math class together, yes the best thing is that we at least have one class we share.

'' So does Mr.Bashar know that it's your birthday in a few days? '' Donia asks me. I glance at her with furrowed eyebrows, ''Why would he?'' I laugh. Donia clears her throat before she speaks, '' Because you like each other?! Duh! '' She says as Tamara and Medina laughs. I stood still as I looked at them frustrated. '' Stop saying that, he doesn't like me okay? Read my mouth, He. Doesn't. Like. Me. I. Like. Him. Only. '' I said in slow motion. Suddenly I saw their eyes widen and Instead of looking at my mouth they looked at something behind me. I furrowed my eyebrows at them, what were they looking at?

'' Who do you like? '' Fuck, no, no, no, no! What am I going to do? Should I just kill myself right here and now? Donia gives me a look that tells me to turn around. I took a deep breath before I turned around. When I turned and faced him I saw that he looked at me with no expression. He only looks at me, ugh but he's still so handsome. Shut up! You have no time to describe how he looks like! '' Mr.Bashar, good morning! '' I said with a fake smile. He licked his lips before he smiled at me, oh my heart. '' Good morning girls. '' He laid his eyes at my friends. They giggled and greeted him back. I itched my headscarf and looked down at the ground, freak I was so nervous!

'' So Rasha, tell him who you like! '' I felt Medina put her hand on my shoulder. This whore! I don't look at Mr.Bashar, Instead, I look at his chest to not face him. What should I do? What should I do? What should I do? Okay, I know. Breathe first! '' Gotta go to the bathroom! '' I shout before I run away leaving them looking at me cluelessly.

Saiid

My eyes are still on her as she's running to where she's going. When I look at her my heart sinks, what am I doing with myself? Why am I hurting myself, I'm dating other people to lose these feelings for her. But I'm only hurting myself... '' Sorry Mr.Bashar, Rasha, she's turning 18 so she's going all crazy. '' Tamara says laughing. I look down at them with furrowed eyebrows. '' She's turning 18? '' I ask them. Medina nods with a bright smile on her face, '' This Friday. '' Medina explains. I nod slowly as I try to get the fact in my head. Her birthday. '' Then we'll see you later Mr.Bashar. '' They giggle and walk off.

I sigh loudly. What am I doing? And why am I acting so fucking childish? I should stop whatever I'm doing now, I should stop meeting Sally. I like her, as I friend. She's fun to hang out with, but I shouldn't use her to lose my feelings. I'm only hurting her as I'm hurting myself. As I was walking I checked my phone, I saw that Sally sent me a few messages.

I sighed before I answered.

Goddamit, I shouldn't ask that! I'm not supposed to meet her anymore, what's wrong with me?

- Whenever you like. :) - Sally

I should tell her, I should tell her that I'm not meeting her anymore. It's going to be hard, but I have to do it.

a few hours later

'' Thank you for today Mr.Bashar! '' I hear Allison and Maddie say cheerfully. I look up at them with a smile on my face. '' You're welcome, have a great day. '' I nod at them. They chuckle as they walk out of my classroom. I get ready to pack my things and leave my classroom. Before I leave I turn off all the lights and make sure that every window is closed.

When I walk out of my classroom after my last class I see Rasha taking out her things from her locker. Why does she have to be everywhere I am? But who cares, I can't even get enough of her. I slowly walk towards her without sound. As I'm close to her I hear her singing a song, a song I've never heard before but her voice makes me want to know which song it is. I tickle her on her waist as she immediately flinches. '' Ahh! '' She lets out a small scream. I laugh loudly at her actions as I run a hand through my hair. She slowly turns around as she has that annoyed look in her face. '' Mr.Bashar! You scared me! '' She frowns. I pinch her cheek, '' Ohhh, did the baby boss get scared? Do you need a hug? '' I tease her.

She gives me the I'm going to kill you look before she punches my chest. I groan as I lean closer to her, '' Ouch, my heart. It's broken now... '' I say as I put my hand on my chest. She chuckles as she shakes her head. Fuck her voice when she laughs. She's touring me with her beauty. Her beauty that no one can have, and no one has. I would do anything for that beauty, as a matter of fact, I would do anything for that woman standing in front of me. I stared at her without even knowing, I didn't realize that I lost my focus looking at her. I was glancing at her brown soft beautiful eyes, her perfectly created plumped lips and her beautiful shaped nose.

'' Who cares, It's not like anyone wants your stupid heart. '' She locks her locker. I fold my arms before I speak. '' You're very wrong, every woman wants my heart. '' She laughs at my responses. She looks at me with her left eyebrow raised and her eyes narrowed. '' Every woman? Pfft Mr.Bashar why are you making up stuff? If women wanted you, you wouldn't be single. '' She said laughing. I sigh loudly as a fake smile appears on my face. I wanted to say it, I wanted to tell her that I was waiting for her. And I am, I'm waiting for her. Even though I know clearly that it will never happen. '' Do you need a ride home? ''

'' No Mr.Bashar, I'll just take the bus. '' She replies. I look around to see if someone is around, but I don't see anyone. I look at her before I speak, '' As if I'm going to let you. '' I take her by the wrist and we run out of the school and towards my car. '' Mr.Bashar?! What are you doing? '' She yells. I laugh, '' I'm taking you home. ''

A few minutes later after arguing with Rasha about driving her home we finally got into the car and I immediately drove off. She could be so freaking stubborn sometimes. She turns on the radio and looks out of the window. A few minutes later I hear her quietly sing along a song. I look at her looking out of the window. I clear my throat to get her attention and it works, she looks back at me with a confused expression. '' So, your birthday is coming up... '' I started as I looked back at the driveway.

''Yup, it is. '' I hear her say with a fruity tone. I nod, '' What do you want as a gift? '' I ask her. Suddenly I hear her laugh, '' You don't have to get me anything. '' She adds.

'' Shut up Rasha, what do you want? '' I said this time with a serious tone. She folded her arms and let out a mutter, '' I said you don't have to get me anything. '' Then the whole way towards her home we argue about the same thing, a gift. I hate when she has to talk back about everything. When I arrive at her neighborhood I pull over a few meters away from her house, I didn't want her parents to see her with me or Aliah, what is she saw my car? I looked at her as she looked over to me.

We were quiet for a few seconds as we just looked at each other with silly smiles on our faces. We don't say anything but enjoy the moment looking at each other. As she looked at me I felt every bone inside of my weaken, she's too precious and gorgeous. I couldn't handle it, and I couldn't handle her. I'm too in love with her, she's taking over me. Taking over everything that I never thought anyone could even do. I love her, too much. '' Thank you. '' She said softly. I sighed loudly, '' Rasha, I told you It's nothing. Whenever you want me to drive you home- '' She interrupts me with the shake of her head.

'' No, that's not what I mean, Saiid. '' Her smile turns into a soft expression. I don't know why, but every time she says my name it makes my heart beat faster. '' What do you mean then? '' I asked with a confused tone. She looked down at first like she was thinking. Then she looks up at me, '' Thank you for everything you've done for me. You've been so kind and sweet to me, I can't describe what you do. But I'm so thankful, thank you for being there for me at any times. '' What she says makes my eyes widen. When did she ever turn so thoughtful? I always saw her as stubborn, I guess that's why I fell for her.

'' You don't even have to thank me, I care about you Rasha. I really care about you more than anyone else, you really mean much too me. '' I said. And I meant it, I really care about her more than anyone else in my life. She chuckled, I don't know if it was of embarrassment because I've noticed that she always get embarrassed by the little things. She looks at me one more time before she steps off the car, '' Thank you, again. ''

Rasha

I walked into the house with my heart pounding like crazy. I couldn't even breath, I was so shocked and I was sweating so much. He cares about you Rasha, he freaking cares about you more than anyone else. I have to celebrate this, this is the time! I need to call the girls and tell them about everything that happened, woohoo! I can't believe this. '' Rasha? Is that you? '' I heard my mother ask from the kitchen. I take a deep breath before I reply to her. '' Yes, Mama! I'm back! '' I shout.

''Great, come here for a minute. '' I heard my father say. I walked in and saw Aliah smiling at me, I smile back as I sit on a chair next to my father. My father kissed my forehead before he even said anything. I looked at him confused, what was going on? '' Habibti, on your birthday this Friday we were planning to visit your grandparents in Canada the whole weekend with Sarah and her family, but unfortunately we can not take you with us... So you have to stay home alone.'' He said with a soft tone. I felt a big smile appear on my face, yes! Finally some alone time with the girls, I'm going to invite them in and have a girl's night. Finally after all these years!

'' Oh that's fine I don't mind. '' I said like I was hurt, but only because I wanted him to give me attention. '' Shut up, I know you want this. '' He laughs loudly. '' Yes, I do. But don't worry, I'm not going to destroy the house or something trust me. '' I say. He nods, '' I know, I trust you. And you can invite your friends over, even if I don't like Tamara and Medina. But don't do anything stupid, remember, I trust you. '' He points at me. I kiss his cheek of excitement. '' Yes, baba! ''

'' Okay, if we're done here I'll go to the mall. Rasha, are you coming with me. '' Aliah asks, I shake my head as an answer. She nods and walks out of the house.

a few hours later

I was talking to the girls on the phone and telling them about the good news, and their reaction was hilarious. They were so happy and excited.

'' So what about a sleepover this Saturday to celebrate your birthday? That would be fun! '' Tamara says.

'' Yes, that's what I was thinking. I wanted to ask you, but since you already mentioned it let's do it! '' I said and they laughed.

'' Great, but you know what would be greater? If Rasha will go to the party with us. '' Medina laughs. I roll my eyes, what can't she get? I'm not going. Before I tried to change the subject and tell them about Mr.Bashar and me today I hear my sister storm into my room. '' Bitch, you don't know what I saw! '' She shouts. '' Gosh, you scared me! '' I shouted at her but she laughed. '' Ask me what I saw! '' She jumps. I sigh, It's not like care but okay. '' I don't care, but what did you see? ''

She laughs really hard, then she sits down at my bed. '' You just don't understand what I witnessed. '' She repeats again. I slap her head, '' Tell me then? '' I say irritated. She tried to calm down, she takes a few breaths before she speaks again. '' I saw... I saw... '' I looked at her as I was waiting for her to open her mouth.

'' I saw Saiid kiss another girl outside a really fancy restaurant! I can't believe it, I didn't know he was dating! ''

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