Saiid

I was caring Nancy as I was walking with Rasha side by side towards my car. It was a quiet moment, no one said something. Expect Nancy, she sang a song that I've never heard before. As soon as I wanted to start a conversation Rasha already said something. '' So, you never told me you knew my sister and cousin... '' She said nervously. I looked at her looking down at the ground. '' I recently found out actually. '' I replied, she nod and sighs. '' Are you feeling better after yesterday? '' I asked her. She looks at me with a weak smile, '' Yes, I am. I only had a huge fight with my father today but nothing more. '' She answers.

'' I'm sorry. '' I say without thinking, she looks up at me confused. '' It's not your fault. '' She chuckles as she shakes her head. '' No, I'm sorry for what I did. '' I say with a serious tone this time. This time she looks down again at the ground, I wonder what was going through her head. '' It's fine, I already forgot about it. '' She lets out a humorless chuckle, I tried to explain myself but unfortunately, Nancy interrupted our conversation. '' Uncle Saiid, what did you do to Rasha? '' She asks with confusing eyes. I look at Rasha who looks at me, the next second Rasha laughs.

'' Nothing we should worry about. '' She winks at Nancy as Nancy nods. I put Nancy in the backseat, I see Rasha getting into the passenger seat as I'm fixing Nancy's seatbelt. I walk over to the driver seat and get into the car. '' Let's go! '' Nancy shouts excitedly. Rasha laughs loudly, '' Are you this excited for some candy? '' She asks Nancy. '' Of course! '' She says clapping her hands. I start the car, '' Let's go then! ''

Rasha

As Saiid was driving we were listing to Nancy's singing. She's been singing the song I taught her, sometimes when I'm bored I just write my own songs. So a few weeks ago I was babysitting her and I taught her the lyrics to a song I wrote while we were baking some cookies. '' there's a teddy bear and I don't quite know what to. '' She sang as I smiled, she, of course, changed the lyrics. '' Nancy, what song have you been singing all this time? '' Saiid asks her with a confused tone. '' Oh, that's Rasha's song. '' I see her pointing at me. Saiid turns his gaze at me, '' Rasha, continue it! '' Nancy shouts. I look back at her, '' No, we should not disturb Mr.Bashar while he's driving. '' I wink at her.

'' No, It won't be a problem. You should continue it. '' He says, I give him a glare as he chuckles. '' Good things come to those who wait, but patience ain't my thing. '' Nancy sings with excitement so I could I finish the rest. I take a deep breath, I feel how nervous I am. It's because I don't like singing in front of people, not even my parents or my sister Aliah. I only sing for my friends and Nancy. '' The way he holds me, shows me, he's the one, for sure the one '' I sing with a light voice, it actually sounded really good. Mr.Bashar looks with a smile on his face, '' Wow, I didn't know you could sing. '' He said, why is he acting dumb? I already told him.

'' Why are you lying? Didn't I tell you the day when we ate together? '' I looked at him with raised eyebrows as I smile appeared on my face. His mouth turned to an 'O' as he nods, '' Ohh, yes I remember! That day you told me you wanted to be like Christin Alugeria? '' I laughed loudly at how he said Christina's name. '' What? '' He chuckled, not knowing what was going on. I laughed as I buried my face on my hands. '' Whatever. '' I looked up at him as I shook my head.

Saiid

Seeing her laugh made my whole mood light up, I loved seeing her happy. I want to see her smile and laugh, she's just so damn beautiful. We finally arrive at Walmart and I park the car. I see Rasha taking off her seatbelt and see her get out of the car to help Nancy get out of the car. I get off the car and see them standing next to the car excited. Nancy reached for my hand to hold it as she reached for Rasha's too. We were walking towards the entrance while Nancy was talking about what we should buy to make her happy again. '' Chocolate, chips, coco-cola and candy. '' She looks up at us. '' But Nancy too many sweets aren't good for your stomach, and your teeth. Plus what about our money? We're not supposed to spend all our money on sweets, am I wrong? '' Rasha says with a sweet tone.

I laugh at her response, she looks up at me with a confused expression. '' Don't worry Nancy, I'll buy you anything you ask for. '' I tell Nancy with a smile on my face. Nancy jumps of excitement, '' Uncle Saiid is the best! '' She shouts as I laugh loudly. I look at Rasha who shakes her head, '' If she gets sick, then It's your fault Mr.Bashar. '' She says with a serious tone. I wink at her as she rolls her eyes.

We arrive at the where the sweets where placed, as soon Nancy saw the candy she points at what she wants. '' I want this one, this one, this one and this. Oh, wait, this one too. '' She smiles at us. Rasha looks at me with a shocked expression, then she looks down at Nancy. '' Habibti, we can't buy the whole Walmart- '' I interrupt her by grabbing her arm. '' Of course, no worries. '' I say as I look at Rasha. Nancy chuckles as she starts grabbing all the stuff she wants. Rasha furrows her eyebrows at me, I can see that she's frustrated. '' Rasha, don't worry I got this. '' I tell her but she shakes her head. '' Mr.Bashar, It's not about that. What if she gets sick? '' She asks me, damn she going to become a beautiful mother one day. What the heck am I thinking?

'' Rash, she won't. She won't eat everything today, Sarah and Yasin won't let her. '' I tell her and she nods carefully. '' So do you want these chips or not. '' I say pointing at our favorite chips, she looks at the chips and back at me. '' What do you think? '' She winks at me playfully as she grabs two, one for her and one for me. '' I'm done! '' Nancy looks at us with a big smile on her face with the things she carries, and It was a lot. I take the things from her and put them on the shopping cart.

We buy the things and get out of Walmart, we walk towards the car as we answer Nancy's questions. '' Do trees pray? '' She asks Rasha, Rasha looks at me confused as I laugh loudly. '' Yes, they do... '' Rasha answer her question. Nancy nods, '' Cool. '' She replies. As soon as we arrive at my car Nancy denied getting in. '' No, I don't want to go home! I want to play in the park. '' She says pointing at a park not far away. I look at Rasha who looks at Nancy, '' I mean... '' Rasha raises her eyebrows at me.

Rasha

I looked at Saiid with raised eyebrows, I didn't want to get back too. I wanted to spend more time alone with Nancy and Mr.Bashar. Mr.Bashar smiled at me, '' Sure, why not. '' He said and started running towards the park. '' Wait for us, Nancy! '' I yelled but she continued to run. '' Let's go. '' Mr.Bashar said and started to walk towards the park. We walked side by side silently, until he decided to break the silence. '' So, about your test. '' He folded his arms, I turned my face around to look at him. '' Did I fail? '' In some way, I hoped that he'd say Yes. I wanted to fail, because I want him to tutor me. I want him to keep tutor me, I changed my mind. I want him to tutor me, I want to spend two hours alone with him joking and laughing. '' You passed. '' He sighed, fuck.

I felt my mood turn upside down, why did I have to study to that test? '' So that means no tutoring anymore? '' I asked, when I completely knew the answer. He nods, '' No more tutoring anymore. '' He stated. I sigh of disappointment as he looks at me, '' You should be happy, you passed your test! '' He pushes me playfully. '' Don't you see the smile on my face, look look! I'm so happy, I won't have to deal with you anymore. '' I said, he looked at me for a second and laughed loudly. '' I know you want me to keep tutoring you, but you know I have too much business these days. '' He winks at me and I roll my eyes.

'' Surreeeee, business. I wonder what kind of business. '' I folded my arms as I looked away. '' You wanna know? '' He chuckled as I shrug my shoulders. '' The girls in the strip club. '' He laughs as I look at him with disgust. '' Rasha, Uncle Saiid! We should play hide and seek! '' Nancy run towards us, '' Why not? '' Saiid says looking at me. I smile at them as I nod, '' Okey who counts? '' I ask. They look at me, then Nancy points at me. '' You! '' She says as she takes Mr.Bashar by the hand and runs with him to hide. '' Okay, I'll be counting to 10, be ready. '' I say covering my eyes. Then I started counting slowly, '' 8... 9... and 10! I'm coming! '' I shout. I look around at the park and see no sign.

I started walking around silently. After a few minutes of searching I hear some giggling behind some trees, and of course, who would it be if It's not Nancy. I sneaked silently towards the trees, '' I found you! '' I shouted as I jumped towards the trees, but there was no sign of them? What the hell? Where would they be, suddenly I felt someone carrying me from the back. '' Ahh! '' I burst out. I turned around and saw Mr.Bashar and Nancy laughing. I pushed Mr.Bashar as I glared at him. '' Did you see her reaction! '' Nancy pointed at me as she looked at Mr.Bashar. '' I clearly did! '' He replied with a smirk on his face

'' What's wrong with you guys, I was supposed to find you! Not you find me! '' I almost shout. They laughed yet again, '' Okay sorry, sorry. We won't cheat anymore. '' Mr.Bashar tries to hold in his laughter. '' It's your turn time count now! '' I said as I walked away to hide. And that's what we did the whole hour, we played hide and seek. I never had so much fun in so long, we were laughing so much that we lost our breaths. Sometimes we fell and our clothes got dirty, sometimes we scared each other, sometimes it took ten minutes to find each other, sometimes we scared the shit out of each other. I forgot about everything as we were playing. My focus was only on having fun.

We took a break for a few minutes, I look at the clock on my watch. It was about to get really late, but the sun was still out. '' We have to head home now. '' I say, they look at me with a sad expression. '' No! Rasha! Pleaseeee nooo!!! '' Nancy begged me. I carried her as I kissed her cheek. '' Habibti we have to, your mom is probably waiting for us. '' I tell her. She shakes her head, '' No, let's play one more time! '' She gives me the puppy eyes. I bit my lower lip as I looked over to Mr.Bashar. '' Come on Rash, let's play one more time. '' He begs me too. What the freak, he's supposed to have my back!

'' Fine! But only one more time. '' I said with a serious tone. They high fived each other as they laughed. I put Nancy down as she was clapping her hands of excitement. '' This time I will count alone and you two have to hide somewhere! '' She said. Is this rabbit serious, does she really think I will let her alone in this park trying to search for us? As soon as I wanted to stop her I felt Mr.Bashar grabbing my hand, he started to walk towards a place we could hide. '' Don't worry about her, she won't get lost. You worry too much. '' Mr.Bashar says as he looks around.

'' Ugh, I already have an image of you being a father. '' I rolled my eyes. He smiled at me, '' I will be the best dad ever. '' He says with excitedly. Sike, he really thought. '' There! '' He pointed at some trees. He started running towards them as I did the same. He sat down, I did the same but on my knees. '' Is she coming? '' I asked him, he shook his head. '' Not yet. '' He said. Suddenly I felt how I lost control of my body, I fell and landed on the hard grass. Wait that's not the grass, I looked up and saw Mr.Bashar looking at me confused. Fuck, my heart.

Right now, I was on top of him as he was laying on the grass. His eyes were still on me as mine was on him. I immediately stood up again, he did the same as he had a weak smile placed on his face. '' I'm sorry. '' I apologized, I felt so embarrassed. I MEAN I WAS FUCKING ON TOP OF MY TEACHER. '' No worries. '' He brushed off the dirt from his clothes. I felt my heart pound really fast, damn what the hell did I do. '' umm, let's go find Nancy then. '' I swallowed a gulp. I was about to walk when I felt his hand grab my wrist. He pulled me into him, I felt myself bumping into his chest. What he heck is going on. I slowly looked up at him. Damn my heart was exploding as the butterflies on my stomach going crazy, god I didn't know what the hell they did to me.

I looked deeply into his eyes, as he did the same with mine. Then I noticed that his eyes slowly traveled down to my lips, he was staring at them so deeply. I don't know what to do or what to say, I just froze. His hand traveled down to my waist slowly, I felt him leaning closer, closer and closer. At this moment our lips, noses, and foreheads were 1 centimeter away from each other. '' You're driving me crazy, Rasha. '' He whispers as he bites his lower lip. I didn't know what he meant. What did he mean? In a bad way, or a good way?

'' BOOH! I FOUND YOU! '' As soon as we heard Nancy we flinched and he let go of me. Omg, I think my heart is about to explode, I'm for real. I put my hand on my chest to calm my heart down, '' You are really bad at this game, I'm the best. Okay, let's go home. I'm getting sleepy. '' She says chuckling. She takes me by my hand and starts walking towards the car, but I'm still shocked. I'm still lost, I don't know what was going on...

We finally arrive at Yasin and Sarah's house, we silently got off the car as soon as he parked. I saw that Nancy slept. '' I'll carry her. '' Mr.Bashar said, I nod as I took out all the grocery bags we bought for Nancy. We walked into the house without a peep, we didn't even say a word in the car. It was so awkward, It felt so awkward. I didn't know what happened at the park, but It was so close to something that shouldn't have happened.

We walked into the house, we heard talking and laughter. We got into the kitchen where everyone sat, '' There you are! '' Aliah said. I looked at everyone as they looked at us. '' I see that she already slept. '' Yasin stated. Mr.Bashar nods, '' Yes, we were playing in a park after we bought some sweets. So she got sleepy after that. '' Mr.Bashar told him and he nodded. Yasin carried Nancy from Mr.Bashar, then it became really quiet. '' What's wrong with you two? '' Jaffar broke the silence. We looked over to him, '' Oh nothing we're just sleepy. '' I chuckle as I look back to Mr.Bashar. Mr.Bashar faked smiled as he nods.

'' Yeah, I feel sleepy too. Plus Baba called so we have to get back home. '' Aliah folded her arms. We said goodbye to everyone, and when It was my turn to say goodbye Mr.Bashar my stomach created a big lump. The heck is going on with me?! '' Ehm... goodbye Mr.Bashar. '' I said, he looked over to me as he smiled. '' Goodnight, Rasha. '' I looked at him so deeply as he said it. I didn't want to septate from him...

what is going on with me?

My longest chapter ever!