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Before I could comprehend exactly what Kavos meant by beast and ask him, he disappeared leaving me alone on his bed feeling incredibly confused and flustered. Everything had happened so fast that I could barely piece together the change in attitude.

I expected a much different reaction to my harsh words and I could not help but feel relieved that he was not angry with me— although his reaction made it much more worthwhile.

I felt very bad for what I had said to him as I didn't hate him at all, and up until today I had never really felt anger before, which made me frown. I wasn't sure where all these emotions seemed to be coming from; I seemed much more hormonal than usual. It was very odd and something I would definitely look into but until then, I owed Kavos a huge apology; I knew that words were just as harmful as actions and I did not want him to think I was a horrible person.

Everything I had learnt from Margret and Ms. Reid seemed to become more and more foreign the longer I was away and it scared me: I didn't want to lose myself and get lost in this new exiting world or 'get lost in the sauce' as Aztec would say. Morals and personal attributes was what made you and it was often said that your reputation was the immortal part of your soul ; it was something that you would be remembered by after you had passed from the world.

I felt like I didn't know who I was anymore and I wanted to speak to Ms. Reid. Whenever I was confused or scared I could always rely on her to bring me comfort or advice, and as I wasn't sure if Aztec was my friend I didn't know who I could confide in.

Sighing, I slowly left the room and went into my own. I went into my drawer and pulled out some paper and one of my gel pens so I could write both Aztec and Kavos the apologies they deserve as I was too chicken to say it to their face. I decided I would start with Aztec as he should have been the easiest to say sorry too; I had a lot more to say to Kavos.

Dear Aztec,

I cannot express how sorry I am for betraying your trust and bringing you into an argument with Kavos and me. My actions were inexcusable and I hope you still want to be my friend; you're the big brother I never had and I'm younger and therefore still learning to be the better person I was raised to be.

Love,

Blue Xoxo

I decided to keep the letter short and sweet as I wasn't sure that Aztec was big on reading, so I didn't want it to be too wordy and overdo it. Just as I was about to start with Kavos's letter, a knock sounded on my door and quickly hiding the letter of apology, I let out a breathy "Come in".

"Blue."

My breath hitched, and I felt my throat close up. Tears began to pool in my eyes as I saw the smiling but wry looking face of Ms. Reid as she stood in the doorway.

"Oh, Ms. Reid!" I exclaimed, standing up and throwing my arms around her as tears poured down my cheeks.

She rubbed my back, mumbling soothing words in my ears as I took in her comforting scent that reminded me of home. The two weeks away really took its toll on me. I loved being with Kavos and getting to know him, but for 16 years of my life I hadn't ever been without Ms. Reid and I had never had any other contact with anyone else. It was still so odd and new to me and would take some time to get used too.

"Take a deep breath, Blue. Don't get too upset. Kavos invited me around for a few hours. He thinks you're finding it hard to adapt."

"Y- Yes" I admitted, feeling ashamed of myself.

"I suppose something has happened. Do you want to talk about it?"

Taking a deep breath, I explained all the events that had occurred in the last two weeks up 'till today. I couldn't help but feel a pang of self-loathing as I saw Ms. Reid's mouth widen in horror when told her about the whole 'I hate you' episode.

"What you did was incredibly reckless; he could have killed Aztec, Blue. Normal males are possessive enough, but to threaten a God with another male? Suicide! You put somebody else's life in danger and risked possibly being locked up in here forever! I hope you realise how lucky you are that Kavos is so understanding; you owe him and Aztec a huge apology. How would you feel if Kavos said he wanted to leave you for another girl?" gasped Ms. Reid, looking shocked at my behaviour.

Biting my lip, I lowered my head as I said, "I didn't realise, I acted on impulse but I am sorry. I've written Aztec a letter."

"Good, but don't get too down about it. You are still very young and I know it's very overwhelming but you must think before you speak. Now, I do have a theory as to why your emotions seem to be so all over the place lately: I believe you're coming into heat, which is a good thing as it means that you and Kavos have reached Stage One of your bond," explained Ms. Reid, patting me on the back.

"Stage One?"

"Yes. Stage One— This is when you've both reached a connection in your bond and feel mutual about each other. Your feelings will begin to develop and it will release your first heat that will come and go until you reach Stage Two. Stage Two is when Kavos will give you the mating mark. Two weeks' time after that you will go into your second heat, which is your sexual heat, and until you and Kavos have intercourse it will come for three days every two weeks. Your first heat is just your body's way of preparing itself for Kavos and small changes will happen such as mood swings, and your scent will smell slightly sweeter to Kavos, but nowhere near potent enough for him to want to take you."

"Woah," I breathed, trying to digest the information.

I was happy that Kavos and I had reached an agreement concerning our feelings but I wasn't sure how to feel about the Stage Two. I didn't want it to move too fast as I knew I wasn't ready for anything sexual at all yet. I had already had my first kiss today and that was enough to last me for a lifetime, although I wouldn't mind re-doing it.

Just the thought of kissing Kavos made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside, but I couldn't help but think that Kavos wouldn't want to come near me again, never mind kiss me. Especially after my behaviour today .

"I got your letter," came the gravelly voice of Aztec as he entered the kitchen.

Ms. Reid had left forty-five minutes ago, and to pass the time I decided to prepare a dinner of lasagne with a side of feta cheese and sundried tomato salad for Kavos as he hadn't gotten back to me yet with my apology letter. I was nervous to bring the food to him but I decided I'd put on my big girl pants and brave it out.

"Oh, do you forgive me?" I asked sheepishly, lowering my eyes in embarrassment.

"Of course I do, dumbass. I was never mad at you to start with, you're a good kid and you're going into heat so I get your moo—"

"How do you know I'm going through heat!?"

"Mood swings and your scent smells more potent than usual. As I'm not your mate, it doesn't smell all that appealing. Just like perfume: a lot of it, I guess," he replied with a shrug, sitting down at the breakfast bar.

"Fair enough. You hungry?"

"Yep, I'm starving. I had the workout of my life; I just went three and a half rounds with Esmeralda."

"Rounds?" I echoed, confused.

"You know: sexy time," he snorted, wiggling his eyebrows suggestively.

"Oh, ewwwwww!" I giggled, scrunching up my nose in disgust.

"Don't be so immature, Blue-Bear. We're having a grown folks' conversation. Come sit down and listen to me as your stupid mate doesn't want to, which sucks as he's one of my few friends," smirked, Aztec patting the chair next to me as I gave him his food.

"I'm not sure I want to know..." I said, rolling my eyes.

"Alright, so we went three and a half—"

"Half? How did you do half?"

"Oral sex."

"What's oral sex?" I frowned.

"Ask Kavos; he's coming now," Aztec replied with a wink before disappearing.

Shrugging, I turned around just in time for Kavos to walk in. He looked as breathtaking as usual with his lush, mother lode-gold hair that shaped his face like a crown of golden thread, and his olive-tone skin, with his basalt jaw, Roman nose and Spartan shoulders that spoke of the great strength he possessed, looking dapper in a black dress shirt and jeans. His large purple eyes shined curiously as I stared at him in awe as just how lucky I was dawned upon me.

"What is it?" he asked with a raised brow.

"Perfect," I said, before covering my mouth in embarrassment.

"What?" he snorted, his eyes lighting up with mirth.

Saying the first thing I could think of, I blurted out "What's oral sex?"