"fine." i said and got in the shower with her after the both of us had finally finished getting fully naked.

i looked down at her body after only fantasising about it for 10 months.

"you got bigger too." i laughed.

"no i shrunk." she said. "i used to be eight, now i'm 7 and a half."

"i can change that." i replied and went down on her.

*

her surprised face told me all I needed as I dropped down to my knees as I put her dick in my hands, I slowly rubbed her tip, the hot water running down my back soothes me as I let her focus on the moment.

As soon as she gave me the nod I went down as I kissed her tip and rubbed her shaft with my right hand, I slowly progressed as I took her dick in my mouth.

Billie moaned as I took my tongue and licked from the base of her shaft to the tip, wrapping my lips around her cock once again. i followed the rhythm of her moans as I swallow her whole. i began to play with her balls when she gripped onto my hair, pushing my head down.

"god. fuck." Billie moaned as her dick hits the back of my throat.

i grip onto her thighs as my head bobbed back and forth on her cock.

"fuck, Luna! ugh! are you gonna swallow all my fucking cum, my little slut?" Billie moaned as I nodded, feeling my head about to explode while i held my gags.

i could tell she was coming to her orgasm as her dick twitched in my mouth.

"god! Luna! swallow my fucking cum like a good girl!" Billie grunted as she shoots her whole load in my mouth.

i disconnect my mouth from her shaft as I show her the cum on my tongue. she grips my chin, pulling me upwards, and tells me to swallow as I do just that. i stuck my tongue out once again to show all of her cum gone.

"good girl." she says as she brings my face into a slow kiss.

Billie moaned tasting the remnants of herself on my tongue. I stand up rinsing my hands in the water.

"you didn't last very long this time. poor baby must've really needed me, huh?" i asked, caressing her face.

"shut up!" she said, booping my nose.

i loved it when she did that.

she hadn't done it in ages and it made me tear up a little.

"shall we actually shower now?" i said.

Billie laughs and nods her head as she grabs the shower gel.

after we showered i got dressed in some of Billie's clothes and we dried our hair together just like the last time. after we left the bathroom, Billie went to go make us some food and i followed after her.

"i'm gonna help you clean up, okay?" i said.

"nah. it's fine. i'll do it in the morning." Billie replied.

"you can't leave it until that late. where are you gonna sleep? and i don't want you to hurt yourself on the glass either." i asked her.

the entire place was a fucking mess.

"fine." she shrugged. "but let's eat first."

Billie made us both grilled cheese and after we ate we cleaned up all of the glass and paintings and shit.

"what happened to the table?" i asked her.

"oh. i got mad and flipped it over." she said.

"what where you mad about?" i replied, putting the glass pieces into a trash bag.

"i don't know. i was angry at myself." she answered.

"about what?" i asked.

"about walking away from you and not trying. i just gave up and didn't realise what i did until after." she admitted.

i stayed quiet and let her speak.

"i thought to myself, maybe i'm the problem." she whispered.

i dropped the trash bag and walked up to her.

i picked up her hand and held it in mine, "we both fucked up. i lashed out and i blamed you even though you weren't at fault. but you where never the problem. we both where. but it's all good now, right?"

"yeah. i guess so." she shrugged.

"then?" i asked.

"i don't know. i just blamed it all on me. i do that often. and i felt the need to punish myself for the shitty things i did." Billie explained.

"don't ever hurt yourself for anything. even if it is your fault. its okay to make mistakes, Bil. you're human, it's literally hardwired into you to not be perfect. it's okay." i said, kissing her hand.

"i really fucking love you." she said, pulling me into her arms and kissing the top of my head.

"i love you too." i whispered while getting crushed by her massive boobs.

she held me there for a while and rocked back and forth.

"Billie- Billie." i gasped.

"yes my love?" she answered.

"i can't breathe." i whispered.

"oh i'm sorry." she laughed, pulling away from me. "i didn't mean to squash you."

we cleaned up the rest of the stuff before the room was back to looking all clean again. apart from the table which she said she'd buy another one of. we sat down on the couch and cuddled while watching a scary movie.

we decided to watch saw 3, which was really good.

"i watched this with my brother when it came out and he couldn't stop closing his eyes." she laughed. "he literally couldn't get through the first scene and had to cover himself with this jacket."

"what! it wasn't even that bad!" i replied.

"nah he hates blood! that's why." she said.

we ended up falling asleep after the movie finished. Billie wanted to watch this documentary on horses but we both knocked out after that.

i'm glad Billie's in my life again. i hope we don't end up being far apart for a long ass amount of time again because it was really difficult trying to get over her and moving on.

i never really managed to do that because i always held on to that one chance that she would come back. and she did. and i'm happy for that.

it's so sweet.

Luna was still asleep when i had woken up. i couldn't stop myself from getting lost in her beautiful brown eyes and how long her eyelashes where. i kissed her on the forehead and needed to go pee but i she was lying right on top of me and i didn't want to wake her.

it was around 10am and i didn't know if she had work today. cupping cute face i kissed her on the nose before asking her if she had a shift today but all i got in response was an aggravated grunt.

i shifted off of the couch and placed a pillow under her head, trying my best not to wake her up. i went to go pee and showed before texting my brother to tell him i wasn't coming home for breakfast.

i do feel bad about not spending a lot of time with him, but i do get busy when it comes to being around Luna. i prioritise her over being home sometimes but it's better because shes like my home, if you get what i mean.

i don't spend a lot of time being busy unless i'm on tour or i have some sort of interview to do. other than that, i just stay home and make music with my brother. shooting music videos isn't something i do very often usually, but i do have an idea for 'everything i wanted.' so Finneas and i are planning to do than soon.

"Luna. Luna sake up, my love." i called her, tugging at her shoulder slowly.

she opened her eyes just a glimpse to see me and smiled.

"do you have a shift today?" i asked her.

she shook her head and kissed me on the lips softly before pulling me in with her arms.

"noo!" i said, laughing as she kissed all over my face.

"good morning." Luna rasped. "how long have you been awake?"

"since 10, so maybe 30 mins or so." i replied and kissed her on the cheek.

"okay." she got up and pat the couch, to make me sit next to her.

she cuddled up to me and pulled at the strings of my hoodie.

"your foreheads so big!" she laughed, tucking all of hair back.

"man shut the fuck up!" i said and slapped her on the ass before squeezing it.

"we should go shopping today." Luna suggested. "we can go and get your table."

"fuck no! i'd rather just go to the mall or something like that." i told her.

"that's boring. you need a bed. you can't seriously tell me you sleep on this couch just fine." she explained. "i know i slept fine because i was on you."

"yeah and you fucking suffocated me!" i laughed.

"i'm sorry. you can just sleep on the floor next time okay?" she said.

"you're gonna be sleeping on the floor if you keep acting like that!" i replied.

"no! but seriously though. just get a bed." she said.

"where would i put it?" i told her. "i don't have space."

"get a pullout, and shift that couch there and the other one over there." she pointed. "and then voilà! bed!"

i pictured what she said in my head before agreeing to go Ikea to get a fucking bed. when we arrived we ended up fucking around on most of the beds and fucking around instead of actually taking it seriously and looking at which one to get.

"how bout this one?" Luna asked, jumping on the bed.

i jumped next to her until she pulled me towards her and kissed me.

"is that a yes?" she asked.

"i didn't even get to reply." i laughed.

"fine then." she looked away from me, teasing me almost.

i pecked her on the lips, wrapping my arm around her hips.

"is that a yes?" Lu asked again.

"mhm." i nodded.

"we didn't even test half of them." she complained.

"doesn't matter. it's not your bed. is it?" i asked.

i don't know how we hadn't gotten kicked out already but oh well.

"well i'm fucking you in it." she teased, fiddling her fingers in my waistband.

"no you're not." i said, flipping her over so that she was underneath me.

i kissed her on the lips and got up as soon as i heard someone clear their throat behind me.

"ahem." they said.

i jumped off of the bed and so did Luna, acting all casual.

"are you going to purchase this, ma'am? if not, you can leave." the clerk said.

i looked at Luna and she nodded.

"yeah, we are actually." i replied and smiled at him.

we payed for the bed and ended up getting it fitted back at the cabin. where Luna and I just chilled for the rest of the day and caught up on everything that happened during that time gap. she went home at around 6pm because she couldn't leave Bax and Amber alone at home.

i drove her home before i drove myself back home to see Finneas and my parents. nobody really cared about me going for that long because they know i have a secret house at this point and i crash there sometimes.

i just wish after the whole suicide thing, they didn't alienate me because of it. it made me feel weak when they asked questions but i know they're just looking out for me in the end.

i texted Luna that night to tell her that i couldn't drive her to work and that i'd come over later in the night to visit. Amber and I hadn't got off on a good start and i wanted to redeem myself for that because i know that they're best friends now.

at least when it all comes to an end between us, she won't be alone this time.