This is the moment that I've been dreading. I knew it would be painful, and I knew that I'd cry, but what I didn't expect was to physically feel like I would be breaking into two.

Cam is my other half. He is my best friend. Going three months without him after we just got married makes me feel like I genuinely am going to get sick.

"Mads, it's going to be okay." Cam tilts my chin up to face him as everyone scurries around us to find their gates, creating a blur from all of my tears. I'm holding Izzy against my hip, my hands clenched tightly around the strap of my backpack. We're at my gate now, and we don't have much time because Cam's gate is all the way at the other end of the airport. "I'm going to go check Izzy's stroller and car seat in for you, okay?"

I nod and watch him go over to the counter with his hands full, biting harder onto my lip as Izzy tries to reach out for him when he passes by.

Leaving for the trip of a lifetime should be a good thing. I should be excited and jittery, but instead I feel devastated. Like this is completely the wrong thing to do.

"Alright." He breathes out when he reaches both of us again, extending his arms out for Iz. I pass her over and watch him let out another deep breath, the pit that's been sitting in my stomach only seeming to grow larger.

He just got to know Izzy, and now I'm taking her away from him.

"I love you so much baby girl." He brushes a thumb against her cheek, smiling widely down at her. "I'm going to miss you, you know that?"

I'm trying so hard to be strong, but when Iz lets out a whimper I completely lose it. I cover my face with my hands, weeping and breaking down like a child.

"Mads." Cam's voice cracks as he pulls me into his chest. The smell of his sweatshirt is so familiar, and I make sure to inhale deeply, never wanting to forget it. "Please stop crying baby. It's only going to make me cry too."

"I-I can't help it." I sob. "I love you s-so much, and what you said during our fight the other night was right. We've never been able to make it work long distance, and what if-"

"Maddie, fuck what I said." He says, and then he tilts my chin up to catch my eyes with his. "I was being an idiot, alright?"

"B-but what makes this any different?" I ask, and my chest is heaving up and down as the words spill out of my mouth. I'm so worked up that I'm starting to go into a full-blown anxiety attack.

Cam grabs onto my hand with his free one, bringing the ring up to his mouth to kiss it. "This is what makes it different. We're married now. I meant it when I said that I will always be by your side, even if that means you have to go away for a few months. This is going to give you so many learning opportunities, and I'm proud as hell of you for having the guts to do it."

"Do you promise to FaceTime everyday?" I sniffle. "God I'm going to miss you."

Leaning in to hug him once more, I clutch onto his back so tightly that he eventually starts to laugh. "You know I will. I'll never miss an opportunity to see my girls. Oh, and before I forget..." he unzips his backpack and passes me over a photo album that I've never seen before. "It's just some old photos of us and a couple recent ones from the wedding. I didn't want you to forget me or anything."

"Cam..." I warn, gripping onto the book with so much force that I fear it might break. "That could never happen. You know that."

He gives Izzy another kiss and wipes away a tear that slips onto his cheek. "Be good for mommy and have so much fun for me, okay? I expect to see a lot of pictures."

Passing her over to me again, she lets out another whimper and tries to get back into his arms. This only makes Cam swipe away more tears before he pulls us back in for a final hug, all of us seeming to never let go. "I have to get to my gate." He mutters into my hair.

"I'm so scared." I whisper. "I don't want to lose you again."

"I'd be lying if I said I wasn't scared too, Maddie, but if life has taught us anything it's that we're meant for each other, right? This trip isn't going to change anything. It's only going to make us stronger."

"Yeah?" I laugh, and he bends down to give me another quick kiss.

"Yeah. Now I don't want to go, but I have to. My flight leaves in twenty minutes. Call me as soon as you guys land though, alright? Your driver will meet you at the gate to take you to where you'll be staying."

"Okay." I sniffle, wiping away snot from my nose with the back of my sweater. "Bye, Cam."

"Goodbye, Mads." And with a swift kiss to both of our foreheads, he heads in the opposite direction, stopping a few feet ahead of me before he shouts, "I love you both!"

"We love you too." I grin like an idiot and watch his body fade out of sight, and as soon as he's gone it's like the weight of the entire world just landed on my chest.

I'm going to a foreign country without him.

By myself.

All while raising a human in the process.

It's going to be fun though, right? I'm going to learn new things, experience different cultures, and I'll be doing the whole thing with my daughter, so why the hell isn't the thought of that making me happy?

I mean, this feeling will pass, won't it? It's just because I said goodbye to him. I'm not going to feel like this the whole time. At least I hope not.

"Well, Izzy...looks like it's just you and me now kid." I let out another sigh and take a seat down into one of the chairs to wait, pulling her tightly to my chest. She looks up at me, and I find myself finally smiling because even though I'll be across the entire world, I realize that all I have to do is look into her emerald eyes if I ever miss his.

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