Very Early Update!

I wrote it just now

Sia's pov

Is this a nightmare?

Am I dreaming?

I pinched myself to get up from my sleep but it didn't happened and thats when I realised that I'm awake

All this is real.

My face was drenched with tears and I didn't knew what to do.

Xander was there looking at me, I can't just give up right? All this might be a joke. This happens in movies all the time

Wiping my tears, I tried to smile and said "nice- nice joke, but please stop this. I-I'm not liking this"

" See Kyle she also thinks its nice joke. Baby don't cry" he said mocking me

" Xander please, I'm not liking this joke. Please stop " I said hiccuping

"Aww my baby, but this isn't a joke" he said

"Xan-Xander please don-" I hicupped trying to form a sentence but he interrupted me with his loud growl

" SHUT UP, JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP, You bitch! He screamed and I flinched back with his tone

"Dont. Ever. Take. My. Name with. Your. Filthy. Mouth" he said each word slowly yet dangerously

"Huh" I looked up to him

" Don't you fucking know that no one calls me Xander, not even my best friends. And you bitch, you have this audacity to call me by my name" he screamed near my face

I got scared and took two steps back, I wasn't able to get what is happening, what did I do??

"Xan-Xander I-I'm -" I stuttered but he again cuts me off with his loud voice

" Are you for serious? I told you not to call me by my name but still you did, you dimwit low class girl" he screamed

" Sorry...I'm...X" I said jumbling up my sentence but this time I didn't call him Xander, instead I called him X

" What did you thought that X will like a girl like you?" Kyle spoked

I was numb and had no idea why all this is happening, so I turned towards my supposedly love and asked him "Why, why did you do this"

"Ahhh finally, the reason I've always wanted to say" he said with a smirk

" REVENGE Sia baby, revenge" he said with a venomous voice

" Revenge, for what" I mumbled but he heard and pushed me infront of the tv screen

"For what, you've ruined my life and you're asking for what?" He screamed on the top of his lungs while holding my arm

'what did I do' I thought

"Because of you, I've lost my happy family, because of you my mother died, because of you my baby sister died and you're asking me for what, For what?" he continued with his nails digging my skin but I felt nothing

The pain in my heart was way worse than the pain in my arms, I was numb and confused about all this thing happening

"Mus-must...be...mi-mistake...some" I again failed to form the sentence

"Shut up, didn't I told you that your voice gives me headache, and what is this m-must, huh?? You can't even form a sentence, Loser" he screamed and then chuckled at the end

I was shocked with his behaviour, all I did at the time was to stand there looking at him with pleading eyes to stop all this, but he didn't

" So, People wish this bitch Happy Birthday" he said out loud with a smirk and just then the tv screen got on and there was me with Xander, wrapped up in sheets. The pic was taken when the first time he made love to me

Love? Huh? I bite my lips to stop my tears

I looked at him and he was already looking at me with a smirk which says this is just the starting.

There were alot of pics and videos, when the bouncer at the club stopped me, when Kyle and Cole made fun of my clothes, when the porn video came during the presentation, when I puked again and again, when they left me alone during the trip, our physical intimacy, and what not

when I'm seeing the pics and videos I noticed the smirk on Xander's face which was present all the time but I was so deeply in love that I ignored.

Now, I get it, it was all his plan to ruin me and my self-esteem

Everything was infront of me, but I didn't see

People started calling me names, why wont they?

" B-but you l-love me?" I mumbled to myself but he heard

" Love you? Have you ever looked at yourself?? When did I ever said that I love you? Huh? When? You bitch assumed everything, you were nothing but just a great Fuck" he said

"I mean seriously, you are good at nothing, like nothing except for one thing that is you can be an amazing slut? Trust me" he smirked

"Umm...what I'm thinking is, now that I don't need to act, and obviously you're not going to get a job in this continent so, why don't we make a deal that I'm gonna fuck you in exchange of money seeing that you're a great fuck, and maybe Kyle and Cole will also take turn " he said laughing and making fun of me

For the first time I felt unsafe with him, I felt scared with him, I felt like thousands of needles are pierced in my heart and someone is crushing it again and again

" Xan-Xander, you're not in your sen-senses. Pl-please don't say th-these words" I said pleading him with my hands

" If one more time I'll hear you call me by my name, I'll kill you right now" he roared

" I-I'm sorry for yo-your mother and s-sister, b-but trust me I-I don't know any-anything, I have no i-idea about w-what you're sa-saying" I sobbed loudly

" Oh yes, how will you know? Your father was there to steal for his little princess, and my sister died just like that, infront of me. The heart transplantation could've been successful, but because of you, your father didn't let it happen, I lost my family that day" he sounded so low in the end

I was broken, confused, and shocked. I didn't understand a word he said

Father? Heart? Transplant? What is he talking about?

" I-I've never seen my fa-father, you know th-this?" I said somewhere still trying to make him understand but he didn't listen instead he smiled, not the actual smile, it was an evil smile

" Thats the fun part, you father also left you, or more like abandon you because you are a burden on every single person on this Earth" he said

I have never seen my father for crying out loud but he didn't listen, not once

" Do you know that I could have killed you long back, but then there won't be any fun and also I'm not a murderer like your father. So, I decided to crush your heart in a way that it can never be healed. Now, by seeing your face I guess I achieved my goal" he said chuckling

I was numb to react or to say, tears were continuously flowing from my eyes, my mind was blanked and my eyes looking at him, constantly

"You are a LOSER, You don't deserve anything, You are nothing, You were a BURDEN, You are a BURDEN, and You will always be a BURDEN" he said dangerously coming closer to me

"You're a burden on your Uncle Aunt, you're a burden to your mother, you're burden to your cousin, you were a burden on your father, that's why he get rid of you and finally you were a burden on me, but today I'm also getting rid of you" he smirked and said each word very slowly

"Have you ever thought that if you die then no one's gonna miss you? Not even your mum because then she can also move on with her life. No one needs you, No one like you and I'll make sure that no one's gonna love you" he smirked dangerously

This isn't the person whom I loved? Suddenly I felt cold and couldn't breathe, People started disappearing and before I realised, everything just blacked out.

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I opened my eyes to see myself in Xander's room,

'god, what a dreadful dream I had' thinking I was about to get up, but my eyes went at my clothes, and that's when all the memories started flashing back.

The door knob clicked and there was Xander with a doctor

He was looking at me like he will dig my grave right there

"Hey, you fine" the doctor asked

I nodded

"See, don't take stress. Its not good for either of your health" she said

I looked at her confused

"Oh I'm Sorry, I forgot. Congratulations, You are 6 weeks pregnant, take rest" she smiled and left

I became shocked and looked towards Xander, he was glaring at me like a predator and involuntarily I wrapped my hands on my stomach.

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