"CRIZIA, WHAT ARE YOU-" I tried my best to smile and to stop him from talking. I don't need his words. He doesn't need to explain. Fuck him.

"I-I didn't mean to see that. I never wanted to see you kissing or doing something. I'm sorry if I entered your office without your words. I was just desperate to give this to you because it seems like this one is urgent," Winagayway ko ang folder. "Here." I secretly bit my lower lip as I handed him the folder.

"Crizia, let me-"

"I-I'll go now. I'm sorry if I disturb both of you. It wasn't my-" The girl named Abigael rolled her eyes.

"Girl, you are being so talkative. It's okay. You may now go." Pinigilan kong magtaas ng kilay kahit na gusto ko siyang bigwasan. "Hey?! Are you deaf or something? Can't you hear me-"

"Shut up, Abigael. You know what? You need to go. I'm busy and I don't have time-"

"Diego! You can't do this to me. I am your girlfriend-" Diego massages his temple.

"I can easily cut the tie between us if you don't go." Hindi nakaimik ang babae at walang pasabing umalis ng opisina.

I sarcastically laughed a little. Napakadali talaga sakanyang makipaghiwalay sa taong karelasyon niya. Parang walang iniisip kung hindi ang sarili lang niya. Gross.

"Crizia-"

"I'll go now too. I have so many works to do and-" Hinablot niya ang braso ko. "Boss!"

"Let me talk, please. It wasn't my intention to kiss her-" I laughed sarcastically again. Bahagyang kinurot ang dibdib ko.

"Before your eyes met mine, she kissed you again and your eyes were still closed. Sinong niloko mo? Ginawa mo pa akong bulag." I tried to calm myself.

Naiinis ako. Hindi lang sakanya kung hindi pati na rin sa sarili ko. Why am I feeling this way? It has been 5 years since we got annulled, so why am I feeling this way?

No. No, Zia. You must be kidding yourself.

"I was just tempted! I'm a man and I have needs so-"

"I don't need your explanation. We're not husband and wife now. You don't have to explain." Nag-init ang gilid ng mata ko kaya mabilis akong tumalikod. "I'll go now."

While walking, I was hitting my chest. My tears were falling and I hate it. Pagpasok ko sa opisina ko ay nando'n pa rin si Paula. I pursed my lips as I hugged her while crying.

"Zia, what happened?"

"I saw him kissing his girlfriend, Paula. I'm scared. Nararamdaman ko na naman yung sakit na naramdaman ko noong maghiwalay kami. Why?! I don't want to feel this. I moved on already, but when I saw him kissing his girlfriend, parang bibigay ang binti ko. N-natatakot akong aminin sa sarili ko 'to, Paula." I said while hugging her. Para akong batang nagsusumbong sakanya.

"Hush, Zia. You have moved on already. You were shocked because that was the first time you saw him kissing someone else. Calm down." I sniffed.

"I should have waited for him to let me in." I regretted. "Working here is not good for me. Umpisa pa lang ay alam kong mali ang pakikipag-trabaho sakanya pero ginawa ko pa rin dahil kailangan na kailangan ko ang trabahong 'to." She stilled.

"What do you mean, Zia? You are going to resign? That fast? Ni hindi ka pa nakaka-sweldo. Anong iisipin niya? Na talagang affected ka? My God, Zia. Use your brain." She sounded irritated. "Wala akong kaibigang tanga kaya umayos ka d'yan." Sumimangot ako at naupo sa swivel chair.

Tulala ako habang iniisip ang halikang nangyari sakanila. Bakit pakiramdam ko nagtataksil pa rin siya sakin kahit hindi? Bakit nanikip ang dibdib ko kahit na sinasabi kong moved on na ako? Seriously?

Kinuhanan ko si Paula ng taong makakapag-assist sakanya para makapag simula na siya ng trabaho. I slapped myself a little dahil nakatunganga lang ako imbes na nagtatrabaho.

Tamad kong kinausap ang mga secretary ng mga pina-cancel ni Diego na meeting kanina. Ano kayang meron do'n at biglang natamad? Baka vacation with his girlfriend? Gaano na kaya sila katagal? Baka may anak na si Diego?

The telephone beside me rang. He's calling.

"Yes?" I asked as I picked up the phone.

["Come here."] He said with his serious voice.

"Okay, Boss." I ended our call as I stood up. I was biting my lip while walking because of nervous.

I knocked first. Sinigurado kong sumagot muna siya bago ako pumasok. I saw him sitting in his swivel chair while typing on his computer.

"Boss," Tawag ko sakanya. He looked at me atsaka pinasadahan ng tingin ang kabuoan ko. Bakit ganyan siya makatingin?

"I want you to book me a flight to the Philippines." Tumango lang ako. "I want to go tomorrow."

"Okay. Is that it all?" Hindi nawala ang tingin niya sakin habang nagiisip ng kung ano ano.

"I want you to come with me." My eyes widened.

"What? Bakit naman ako sasama sayo? Hindi naman ako aso para laging sumunod sayo at kung saan ka pumupunta." Umangat ang kilay niya kaya kinagat ko ang ibabang labi ko. Bakit ba kasi sumsagot pa ako? Nakita ko ring sumunod ang tingin niya sa labi kong kagat kagat ko. What?

Nginuso niya ang computer niya. "You are my personal secretary. You can search your job description on Google para may idea ka tungkol sa trabaho mo." Sumimangot ako. Ginaya niya lang yung sinabi ko kanina!

"B-but I am busy..." Umangat muli ang kilay niya.

"What's making you busy?" Napaisip ako. Ang totoo nyan hindi naman talaga ako busy.

"F-fixing your schedule."

"Don't lie. I know it's already fixed." I rolled my eyes. "We're going to Cebu tomorrow. You can go home early so you will be able to pack your things for tomorrow." Hindi na ako umangal at pumayag na lang sa gusto niya.

"Okay."

"That's all." Tumango ako.

Katulad ng utos niya ay maaga akong umuwi. Sakin tutuloy si Paula dahil medyo malapit 'yon sa RHS pero hindi ko lang sure kung uuwi na ba siya mamaya sa condo ko.

Diego left me enough money 5 years ago and I don't know why. Sabi ng abogado niya ay bilin niya 'yon kaya hindi ko pwedeng tanggihan dahil nakapangalan na rin sakin.

While we were married, I don't have work since kakatapos ko lang sa college and he didn't let me to work because he's the man nga daw. Kahit labag sa loob ko ay pumayag ako.

He gave me 10 million. I bought my two-bedroom condo for 6 million. I sold our mansion for almost... 4 to 5 million. I spoiled myself to the point that I didn't get the chance to budget it.

The nine million remainings, I used for my daily life. I bought car pero nanakaw sakin kaya hindi na ako nagtangka na bumili ulit. Now, ubos na lahat ng 'yon at kailangan ko na magtrabaho.

While packing my things, naalala kong hindi ko pala alam kung ilang araw kami do'n so I have to call him since I have his personal number kasi nga I am his personal secretary. It took three rings bago niya sinagot ang tawag ko.

["Yeah?"]

"I just want to ask if how many days we're going to stay there?" Natagalan siya bago sumagot.

["Three, but I am not sure if we're going to extend. We will some clothes there."] I nodded kahit na hindi naman niya nakikita ang pag-tango ko.

"Okay. That's why I called. Thank you." I was about to hang up when he talks.

["Zia,"] Napasimangot ako. Bakit niya tinatawag ang pangalan kong 'yon?

"Hmm?"

["Are you with your boyfriend now?"] I bit my lower lip. Feeling nervous because of his question.

"No."

["Oh. That's good--- I mean, it's still not a good idea to live with him."]

"I'm not living with him."

["Yeah..."] Saglit kaming natahimik.

"I will... End this call. I'll update you if I already booked our flight."

["Thank you."]

"Yeah."

Padabog kong binaba ang phone. Badtrip! Badtrip 'yang boses niya! Panget!

I booked our flight through call. Sinend ko kay Diego ang info para bukas at ngayon, hindi makatulog! Iniisip ko pa lang na uuwi kami sa Pilipinas at siya pa ang kasama ko ay nakakakilabot.

Hindi umuwi si Paula kaya tumawag na lang ako para magpa-alam. She was so shocked at binalaan pa ako na buntis na ako pag-uwi namin! That girl!

I overslept a little kaya na-late ako sa airport. Diego said na nasa waiting area siya kaya doon ako dumiretsyo. I saw him crossing his arms at mukhang naiinip na. He is also wearing a shades.

"You are 20 minutes late, Miss Secretary." Napakamot ako sa medyo basa kong buhok. Hila hila ko ang maleta ko at may dala pa akong shoulder bag.

"I overslept," Hinila ko ang konting hibla ng buhok kong medyo basa pa at pinakita sakanya. "As you can see, hindi ko napatuyo ng maayos ang buhok ko dahil umaga ang gusto mong kunin kong flight for us. Alam mo namang tanghali na ako nagigising." Reklamo ko na nagpataas ng sulok ng labi niya.

"Yeah. I know that." Umiwas ako ng tingin. "I remembered the day we need to go to your OB eight in the morning and you doesn't want to go because you are tired. I have to tickles you." I secretly bit my lower lip. I was tired because he doesn't want to stop to make love!

"Stop." Umirap ako at umupo na lang sa tabi niya. Kulay pink ang dala kong maleta at grey naman ang kanya. "Inaantok pa ako bwiset naman." Sinuklay ko ang buhok gamit ang mga daliri ko. Almost 7am pa lang at usapan namin ay 6:30am nandito na dahil 7:30 ang lipad namin.

"Your parents lets you go with me?" Natigilan ako. Bakit kailangan niyang banggitin ang parents ko?

"Malaki na ako."

"Your boyfriend?" Nagulat ako bigla. Shit! Oo nga pala!

"Oo naman! Busy din kasi 'yon. Don't worry hindi naman seloso 'yon." I chuckled kaya natahimik siya. "Hala! Gutom pala ako, omg." Napatayo ako. Nakalimutan kong kumain!

"Hindi ka pa kumakain?" He asked at napatayo rin.

"Hindi pa. I told you, I overslept." I rolled my eyes at pinatong ang shoulder bag ko sa maleta. "Bili muna ako."

"I'll go with you." I pouted. Tinignan ko ang oras sa wrist watch ko at saktong 30 minutes na lang ay tatawagin na kami.

"Bilisan na natin."

Para siyang asong nakasunod sakin nang bumili ako ng dalawang sandwich at dalawang bote rin ng tubig. Inabot ko ang isa sakanya.

"Thanks." He smirked, I nodded.

"Saan pala tayo tutuloy sa Cebu? Anong meron din pala do'n? Business?" I asked while eating. Natahimik siya saglit bago tumango.

"Yeah."

"Yeah? Anong 'yeah'? tinatanong ko rin kung saan tayo tutuloy do'n tapos 'yeah'? Gutom ka ba? Binigyan naman kita, ah?" Uminom muna ako bago siya hinarap ulit.

"Tss. I was preoccupied. Hotel, of course." I nodded. Boring. Sana sa maliit na bahay na lang para makapagluto ako.

"Eh, yung girlfriend mo? Bakit hindi sumama?" Tumingin siya sakin.

"I don't want her to go with me." Ngumuso ako at tumingin sa paligid.

"Bakit naman? Mukhang mahal niyo ang isa't isa kaya bakit? Mukhang matagal na rin kayo." Umiling siya at saglit na natulala.

"We're almost one month." Tumango lang ako. Maya maya ay nagsalita siya mag-isa. Oh, shit. Don't tell me he's crazy?! "Ah, I miss that kid."

Kid? Who? Anak niya?!

"Who?" I asked out of curiosity.

"Spiro."

"Who's Spiro?" Bumaling na naman ang tingin niya sakin. "Y-your child?" Biglang kumabog ang dibdib ko.

"No, but I wished that he's mine. He's such a cute and perfect kid for me." Mukhang mahal na mahal niya nga ang batang tinutukoy niya.

"Oh, pamangkin?"

"Yeah." Tumango lang ako. That's natural. "I want to see him, but I don't think that his father will let me see his son." Ngumiwi siya at umiling.

"Why not?"

He just smiled at me before he shook his head. I was about to ask again nang tinawag na kami para pumunta na sa eroplanong para samin. Nauna siyang maglakad kaya sumunod ako.

Bakit kaya? What's with Spiro and his father? Bakit hindi sinagot ni Diego?