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Call me A, I'm a 17 year old girl, turning 18 soon and soon to be 2017 graduate.

I don't understand how so many people find themselves at such a young age, I had only found out I was Demi back in September.

I need a little education about the differences of sexual, romantic, and atheistic.

Anyways, I actually had another draft for this, going on how I'd finally come across the meaning of being Demi, and how happy I was when I found out, but I decided to do this one instead.

I've come to a realization recently. I'm in a crisis. I'm pretty damn sure I have a crush of my friend.

Who is also a girl, no problem, she's pan and into girls...But, I'm scared.

I've never dated or kissed, and only had one or two crushes.

But this one is strong. I have a hard time deciphering my own feelings. I'm afraid if I admit I like her, it'll ruin what friendship I have with her. If we do end up dating, I'm super self conscious of my weight.

And I'm afraid that we'll only date for a short time, and, so many other fears.

I just admitted to my sister today that I liked her. And my first girl crush at that.

I can go on and on about what I like about her, how she makes me feel, and on and on about my self securities and worries.

I'm stuck on what to do, I need help. Advice.

I have 10 days till we get back from our break from school before I see her again.

Do I admit my feelings and hope for the best...or do I bury my feeling and deal with it and move on?