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Hi, I'm Aay, I'm 13 year old girl who's Pansexual. I've never felt sexual attraction or desire, so I figured I was asexual. I am starting to wonder if I'm actually demisexual. I've never had 'that' kind of bond with someone, but I recently discovered that I liked a girl in my school. I'm pretty sure she's straight but she's always sending me mixed signals. The more I get to more her, the more I like her, and the closer we get, the prettier she gets. But now for the story; a few weeks ago I tried to come out to my mom, I told her I was pan and ace, and had to explain that I was not into pans. She didn't believe me. She thinks that she knows me better then I know myself 'I spit you out, I know your heterosexual' she would claim. But the thing is, she never talks to me anymore; so what does she know? On top of that, the only 3 people I'm out to in person are fighting and I don't know what to do. My closets friends apart from those 3 are LGBT+ admins on a Instagram account I'm an admin on. So basically, all I know is about to go down the drain and the one person I'm actually romantically attracted to isn't into girls. I am supposedly too young to know if I like girls, yet I'm not too young to be in love with a boy... On top of it all, I've been dropping hints all over the place, I wear rainbows, do my school work in rainbows, and a lot of my schoolwork is on LGBT+ rights, yet no one suspects a thing. I wish someone knew who didn't live 20 minutes away at war with each other over a friendship. So yup, that's my story. I hope y'all had an easier time then I did.

~Aay