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Well, hello everyone! I'm a 17 year old female and I'm really sorry for any following mistakes. Anyways...

I know this is the beginning of nearly every LGBTQ+ story but I always knew I was different. But I never really thought about it until like...six months ago. You may think that this is pretty late, and you're right. But I never had the courage to think about this part of myself, even though I always knew that it existed.

So I feel like I have more than just one milestone. The first one and probably the biggest one was that day when I suddenly felt enamored by this one girl in my soccer team. So... I finally decided to face this part of me and thought about all the crushes I had in my life.

I always loved boys, but I realized that I also liked girls. I admired two of my teachers, I couldn't get my eyes of a dancing girl party... The last person I admired was that girl from my soccer team. But she was my 1st milestone.

So I had that huge fear that I may could be a lesbian. Even though I was a big supporter of my three gay friends and the LGBTQ+ community, I hated it because it related to myself. Why couldn't I just be a normal person without any of these problems others had to deal with?

At first I thought I was gay. Then I discovered that bisexuality existed and I liked it as my rescue out of that „lesbian thing". But the longer I thought about it, the more I realized that it was myself. This label fitted for me and.. I wasn't comfortable with it, I was just kind of accepting it.

But now my 2nd and last milestone so far. I read it right here in this book.

Someone said that there are 3 types of sexuality: aesthetic, romantic, sexual. And you can feel different about each of them. That was new for me and I realized that this was the reason why I wasn't comfortable with just bisexual because I wasn't!

When I walk through the streets I look at boys and girls and think how attractive some of them are. So 1. is defenitely bisexual (pan was never really in my consideration). But when I thought about a relationship with a girl I just couldn't imagine it. So hetero. And 3rd was bisexual again.

Then I found „bi-curious" which is more for people who haven't experienced something with the same gender. So maybe I was that? Idk. But it was really important for me to find a label.

And then I found that label called „hetero-bisexual" and I knew that was it.

You may remember I said I could never tell my family or friends. Well that feeling disappeared within seconds. If they'd ask me, I'd tell them.

And the only reason was that I suddenly felt so incredibly secure about myself and accepted everything. Just because I found the right label that fits to me perfectly.