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Hi, my name is Kendra, or you can call me Ken for short. I am interested in females; I live in a home with people who expect you to be a perfect child. It's hard being a girl who likes girls because somewhere along the line, someone will make you feel bad. I realized I looked at girls differently in sixth grade, but I chose to ignore it because I thought everyone had a gay moment. I then noticed how strong my feelings towards girls were in seventh grade. It was the middle of the year and I was still trying to figure out if my feelings were true. I was scared of everyone's opinions on a girl liking a girl; I was raised in a family who do not accept those with feelings for another gender. Not only did I think everyone would leave me and think I was a freak, but I thought about the trouble I could be in. My family would disown me if I ever told them my love for females, but I try to stay positive. I told my closest friends because I knew I could trust them with this information; at that time I labeled myself as bisexual because I was still able to like a guy. I didn't look at guys the same way as I do with girls. Towards the end of seventh grade I realized I did love girls, and only in my school I was open about my preference. In eighth grade I did have a crush on my friend and it was awkward because I knew she wasn't into girls, and I just thought it would be best to ignore my liking for her. And I eventually liked another girl and she was just my middle school sweetheart. I did learn that she was bisexual, but I didn't want to tell her I was into her, or into girls in general. There were some guys in my class that made me feel like I was weird for liking the same gender. A lot of them would look at me weird and ask me why I "chose" to like girls. You don't choose to like people, you just develop this feeling for them; you don't choose to like a girl or guy, or neither. I learned that liking the same gender is nothing to be ashamed of because it's who you are and who you'll always be.