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I identify my self as a female and a male also both. I am gender fluid. Gender fluid is when you feel masculine one day and then another day you feel feminine or both or none at all. I prefer the pronouns She/Her He/Him and They/Them.

I told my mother first and foremost and she said "What?" I had explained it and she said "Andie you're only in high school! You don't know who you are yet! Who are you?!"

I had cried as she spoke. She wasn't judging me , but telling me that I haven't found out who I am. I do realise that coming out as both genders is tough and it broke my heart when she hit me with that question. She had blamed social media because I watched Joey Graceffa and Tyler Oakley.

She had said also "Playing with trucks doesn't make an excuse for this." But I knew what I was and how I am who I am.

It started when I was little, though I didn't realise it. I always played with the guys. I was rough and yet I could be feminine. I would dress masculine and such, yet then I would also dress girly .

In ninth grade it was winter and I had gotten this really cool snowflake tie that played music. I wore it with a black dress shirt, under were about a tank top and two shirts to try to flatten my chest, and pants and went to school. This was me coming out to my school. I had my hair in a low ponytail , which I hid from my mother, and when I went to my locker a boy had said.

"She dresses like she has a d**k when she doesn't got one." This hurt me. I felt the real world on my chest.

I didn't let it phase me too much and went on to my friends. I told them and now a days they always ask "Are you a girl or boy today?"

Anyways, I feel feminine a lot of the times, but sometimes when you don't have a very good wardrobe and you feel masculine you have to make it work with wearing a masculine looking shirt or just feel masculine and walk masculine.