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Im a bisexual female that leans more towards girls and about eight-months ago a girl on wattpad messaged me asking to be friends and I said "Sure, why not" I thought we would talk about common intrest for a few days or a week and then we'd never talk again because that happens alot. Never in my whole life did I think that I would have fallen in love with her. It wasn't love at first message, it developed very slowly. It started out with thinking about her during the day occasionally but now it's overwhelming but I love it. And that saying where its like "they are the first thing i think about in the morning and the last thing i tink about at night" is 100% true and a few weeks ago I asked her to be my girlfriend, she said yes and that was the night before I went to camp for six weeks.

So you get the gist of it, im a love sick puppy for her but while I was at camp I got into some trouble and ended up in the hospital because it was the dumbest thing I'd ever done in my whole life. I looked down at my arms and it was like my life flashed before my eyes. I saw the scars on my thighs and arms and the word "Faggot" and "alone" carved into my left arm. I thought about how my mom didn't accept me and my brother hates fags so I looked up feeling the worse I have ever felt in my whole life beause I had hurt and disappointed lot of people when I got into that trouble. When I looked up I saw pink and blue scissors with some bumbe bee pen in a cute little jar on the desk. All I wanted to do right then and there was stab myself to death, I took the scissors but never did anything with them because the only person I thought of was my special girl.

She was just a thought and she saved me from ending my own life, she wasn't even in the room! Ive learned to accept myself more and that it's okay to make mistakes because you learn so much from them. And as cheesy as this sounds I know that's true love we have♡

I told her what I did and she in no way hates me for it

She says she doesnt value me any less. And I just want people to know that the people who truly love you won't care what you did they'll always love you. Sure they might be mad or pissed even. But just cut out the people who dont love you because you dont need that negativity in your life. It's extremely hard but it's your life! Dont sacrifice your happy life just to keep someone negative in it that might 'love' you. Life's too short for that bull shit.