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Here's my story! "You know those moments where you say something, then immediately regret it? Before I even knew what I was doing, the words "I'M GAY! I ALSO DON'T IDENTIFY AS A GIRL! DO YOU STILL SUPPORT ME?" slipped out of my mouth. The room that had once been filled with loud arguing had become silent. Why the did I do that? I questioned silently. Hot tears welled up in my eyes, but I refused to cry. My parents stared at me, as what I had just said seemed to register in their minds. My lower lip quivered as my dad opened his mouth.

"You're too young to know," He said, his voice shook, and was sharp. He didn't look at my face, but down at his hands. He looked anywhere but at me. I waited for him to say more, but nothing came. A sharp ringing had formed in my ears, and tears began rolling down my face.

"You're a girl, you can't make life changing decisions just yet." My mom said, agreeing with my dad. Their words stung. They each said a few more things, but I couldn't hear them. It was like I was in a bubble. I could see their mouths moving, but I couldn't hear what they said.

I opened my mouth to defend myself, but nothing but a choked sob came out. Why did I do that? Why? "This is...this is who I am." I sobbed. "I didn't ask to be like this.."

Sharp words and slurs flew through the air. "I HAVE A DAUGHTER! NOT SOME CONFUSED KID!" Spat my dad. His eyes flared with anger, and I felt my heart drop.

I don't remember much after that. I just remember it feeling like a dream, that I would wake up, and nothing would've happened. I would still be a closet case. That didn't happen though. Now, I just get odd looks, and the occasional question of "Are you still that...you know...thing?". People say that things get better. They say that it takes time for things like this to set in. I wish it would set in sooner. I wish it wouldn't take so long for them to realize how much it hurts to not be fully accepted. All I can do it sit there, and wonder "Why?".