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I'm 12, My name is Emma. Back in December My best friend let's call her K, I developed a crush on her, at first I thought it was just cause we were really good friends, I was raised in a Christian home, if extremely strict Catholic grandparents, my mom and dad split when I was 3 and my little sister was 1. But anyways one day I took K with me to the washrooms and kissed her, she was shocked and I told her that I think I'm into girls, she said she wasn't but it was okay and she was still my friend, I was sad but whatever, but when I went back to school after Christmas holidays I got bullied, really bad I lost all my friend and the ones I told I think I liked girls used it against me, making me do stuff I really didn't wanna do. I blocked them out, but while doing that I became depressed, and Now I have other issues too. During this time I starting hating K, she hated me and I didn't understand why. But I also developed a few crushes, one of a girl that every time she would touch my hair or grab my hand to pull me somewhere of get butterfly's, but no one compared to Jules, I met Jules in my swim class around 1 months ago in May and I instantly fell in love with he way she looks, the way she talks and her personality, I got closer to her and we became good friends, I told her I was bisexual, because at this point I had done research and learned through Wattpad I'm not alone and people are just like me and its normal and decided I was bisexual I I'm attracted to both genders. Surprisingly she said she thinks she could like girls or she could be bisexual, but she has a boyfriend, I never told her I liked her but now we talk a lot through text and she calls me beautiful sometimes when she says goodbye. Now I'm happy knowing that I can talk to her even if I'll never be her girlfriend(I'll still hope) I haven't got over my depression and now I self harm and I'm seeing a therapist to find out other issues I may be suffering with, but things can only get better from here, wish me luck.