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As a young kid I had extreme social anxiety and withdrew myself from society, at the age of four my doctor told my parents that if I carried on I would become an elective mute, and so I was forced to speak, turning me in to what I call the line between introvert and extrovert.

Because I did not speak I was morphed into the creative person I remain today I would read, draw and write on my own. As a child I always drew myself in 'future' pictures as a young woman will a little girl and a husband. This is how I was raised to think and I never thought much about it. I wore football shirts, skirts and pretty much clothes you'd associate wish both genders all through play school and had both male and female friends. Ever since then I have accepted my sense of style in more androgynous clothes whilst still occasionally being girly. It was only until I reached comprehensive school that I discovered the lgbtq+ community, it was never weird to me either, it was talked about so openly it just seemed natural and I was instantly a supporter. I never had the 'crushes' that girls had and made one up once in an attempt to fit in, it backfired horribly and since then I gave up of faking it. I looked into it questioning why I feel this way and discovered the 3 types of attractions:

Romantic

Sexual

Aesthetic

Romantic

I do not really feel romantic towards anyone and have only had one relationship that I felt pressured into (because of my fake crush) and that lasted a week before the stress made me bail out.

Sexual

I have never felt Sexual attractions towards anyone else before but am not grossed out by the idea, in my head I just imagine if I ever had set it would just be a very awkward affair.

Aesthetic

However when it comes to finding another person physically attractive I find both sexes attractive (more males(vaginas look gross af)) and am definitely one to say that I find a fair few people to be good looking .

But despite all of this I am not searching for a label