"Bro you coming to the party tonight?" Tyler asks me.

"Nah, busy." I shake me head blowing out the smoke of my cigarette. Now that the summer holidays are over I'm back at school and away from Nevah. It's Friday night so Harley is throwing a back to college party, all that jazz.

"What have you been doing all summer? You haven't been to any party and I doubt you've been drinking either or smoking weed." Dylan states.

"I've had a few beers." I nod. "I've been busy with something, and I've got to do it after college. So I can't come." I mean I have someone waiting for me when I get home, my abeja.

"Come on. Don't be a downer. Or are you fucking pussy whipped now over some chick that's probably cheating on you anyway." Harley rolls his eyes.

"She's not actually. And if it'll shut you up, I'll come." I shook my head annoyed. And these are my friends because? I guess Nevah really did pull my head from my arse.

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"W-where are going going?" Nevah looked up at me from my bed. She had been napping and I had just finished writing a note telling her where I'd be if she didn't wake up.

"My friends want me to go to a party tonight. Just a college get together and all that. I'll be back later, sober so we can cuddle up and watch a film if you want." I told her.

"O-oh. Ok, have fun I guess." She whispered.

"I don't have to go if you don't want me to. I can stay home with you. Just say the words and I'll stay." I put my hand on her cheek and rubbed my thumb a little.

"W-what time will you be back?"

"One, maybe two in the morning. Or I can go for an hour then come back. It's up to you."

"I j-just don't want to hold you back." Nevah whispered. "I-I don't want to be that girl."

"What if I offer? Nevah Leigh do you want me to stay home. Just say yes or no and I'll do it." I chuckled lightly.

"I want you to stay. But you can go. Go have fun, I'll stay with Bella and Hope for a while." She smiled and kissed the palm of my hand.

"Are you sure?" I asked, returning that smile. She's too damn cute.

"Y-yes. Go have fun and be with friends like I will be." She moved on the bed closer to me.

"Ok abeja. I'll see you later. Then we can cuddle up and do something." I leaned down and kissed her. She nodded and kissed me again before I left.

"I love you, I hope you know that." I looked at the small girl on my bed.

"I know, I love you to." Nevah smiled at me. I jumped on the bed and kissed her again not wanting to leave but I know I'll get it in the ear Monday.

After five minutes of kissing and giggling, I said a final love you and left. Now being two months into our relationship, Nevah and I have grown closer. I think she's the one, she knows how to make me laugh, smile and get hard with simple things. She's so innocent that I'm almost scared to do anything, or say anything around her because she won't understand.

She makes me so sexually frustrated it's unbelievable. But then I eat her out and she gives me a blow job and that sedates the hunger to fuck her. She's a natural it's almost hard to believe that I am the first person she's ever done it to. Don't get me wrong, I've had plenty of head before Nevah and all aren't as close as good as what my abeja can do.

It's like I'm jerking off myself it's that good. Nevah is the only to get me to cum as hard as I do when I'm doing to myself. I love everything about her, her eyes, her hair, her cute button nose. But what pulls me in the most is her personality. That beautiful personality who puts others before herself, who wants to let me go be with friends so I can have a night with them while she's at my house with my sisters.

I have a gut feeling tonight will end badly, and I shouldn't have come out. I should have stayed with my abeja in bed to hold her. Yet my dumb arse is still driving to Harley's house.

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I'm sat in a circle with a bunch of other people playing spin the bottle. My head feels fuzzy and the buzz of being drunk, smashed out of my face is there. Yet I've only had one beer.

"Ok, let's do this." One of the people smirked.

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The sun beamed on my face waking me up from my slumber. I heard the door open thinking my abeja came in. Yet I didn't hear the door close or the bed dip like I usually do.

"Xavier?" I sound of Nevah's voice made me open my eyes. Tears streamed down her cheeks as she sobbed and looked at me.

I turned to the side and saw something that made my heart sink.

What the fuck have I done?