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✨Emilia POV

The next morning I hear a few shuffles outside the door, my head was pounding against my skull from crying last night and my throat was sore.

My shoulders were tensed and my jaw was tight while my face burned due to the soreness of it. I felt ill.

Opening it slightly I see more than red rage, I see a woman who is in her underwear which isn't exactly... appropriate.

Her entire butt was out in show in her underwear and she thinks she can walk around here in such lack of clothing thinking she can take my brother away from me?! I don't fûcking think so because I'm gonna slaughter this h0e.

I slam the door shut and I see her startle before it closes, picking up the nearest thing, a control pad for the Xbox, I launch it at the widow watching as it shatters into a million pieces, I'm in so much trouble.

Blade, who was sleeping, jolted awake scared out of his mind, he inspected what's happened and looks out of the window before looking at me. He leaned so far out I was worried he may fall.

"WHAT THE FÛCK!" He shouts throwing his arms around in the air.

"Emilia what did you do!! I'm gonna get into shît for this! They're gonna think it was me!" He shouts again forcing me back into the door.

"It was an accident...on purpose," I murmur the last part but he noticed his controller was missing and immediately charges back to the window looking outside.

"You realise you're gonna give me money for that and the window?!" He picks up a shard of glass throwing it to the ground shattering once again.

I don't answer him instead I open the door slamming it shut as the chandelier above me rattles and charge down the halls away from him.

I storm downstairs immediately regretting it, the stupid girl was still in her underwear kissing Alessandro passionately, his arms wrapped around the small of her back made me want to puke all over her.

"UGHHHH!!!" I run back upstairs away from them too, I had no where to run other than my safe space- the library.

I fall back into the bean bags, the same ones I left messy yesterday and scream I hardest into the bag. The room is too large so nothing could be heard.

I pinch my skin to remind myself of the real world since I wanted to fade into a different world, just imagine jumping into a book and living your entire life there, like a better version of your life.

"I know you're here, can you hear me?" I speak into the unknown.

"Fine, ignore me like you always do. I'll just stay here miserable while you're living away into the lights," I sigh feeling sorrow for myself and fiddle with my fingers scratching at the bean bag.

It made a disgusting sound but it was distracting enough for me, until I saw him.

"Moth? Oh how excited I am to see a kindred soul in my life!" I sit up quickly running around following it wherever it goes.

"Where have you been? You left me yesterday... you say you were hiding? From whom?"

I wait for his reply.

"From her? Oh I know, she an evil witch who thinks she can steal away my brother. I mean... he's MY family, not hers so she can go away."

I pick and bite my already sore nail beds from the previous time I did it, it's a way for me to distract myself from staying in the present.

"I can't have anything, I can't have my mum, I can't have my dad, I can't have a normal home and now I can't have my brothers?! Why does everything I have get taken away from me?!" I cry tears filling my coloured vision.

Moth stops flying and lands directly onto my knee, I gasp at first but then I cup Moth in my hand and look at him through one eye.

"I love you, I love you more than I love myself, Moth. Such a kind soul who can only relate to me. Please never leave again," I sniffle up my red nose.

"I love you, Moth." I kiss the palm of my hand that he lays on; it would be gross if I kissed him.

"Why thank you, I love you too," I reply to his heartfelt comment.

"Please don't apologise for leaving me, you're here now which is what matters, please don't leave again," I whimper opening my palms again but he doesn't move.

Instead he remains fluttering his sharp, auburn wings that looked splendid in the light. But it's morning so there wasn't much of that.

"Ew what're you doing!" Gert enters the library with a cruel smile on her face.

"Nothing! Leave me alone!"

"Who're you talking too, Freak?" She laughs patting her hair down straight.

"No one," I look back down to my palm to realise he's gone.

"GET OUT!! You messed it up!! He was here just a moment ago GET OUT!" I search frantically everywhere, every light and corner but he left me here again.

Alone.

Again.

After he promised.

And he still left.

Like everyone.

"Ew you're crazy!" She runs out of the library as I fall to my knees pulling my hands to my face.

"Please, come back," I cry out in pain of his disappearance. Where did he go?

I rush back to my bedroom for the first time since I've been back and slipped into another set of onesies. I hadn't showered yet but I didn't care, I just wanted to get away from here.

Tying my hair into a messy bun, I pull the backs to my Docs on and zip the onesie up ready for my travel. I pack a granola bar with me just incase and slide discreetly out of the back door after checking if it was clear.

Sneaking around the back of the house, I jump over the shattered glass on the concrete panels and make my escape, I've been through these gates enough times to memorise the passcode.

210807

Looking at the red light turn green, my smile widens so my adventure can begin today. Did I care that I was suited in a cat onesie that had a tail and cat ears on the hood? Haha, no.

It was nippy so this was my best option of outfits. I'd rather look ugly and want rather than fashionable and cold.

I stroll down the path until I reach the street that seemed familiar to me, the same street Blade left me at that time. That's only like ten minutes away from home, easily remembered. I stumble across a bench where I eat my breakfast bar before someone interrupts me. Swallowing my food, I pull my hood down to look at the human stood in front of me.

"Mini girl? What're you doing here, Mini girl?" A boy who looks to be a little older than me asks.

"I'm not mini girl, who the heck are you talking about?"

"Forgive me, mini girl, I'm Gauge. It's spelt g.a.u.g.e but pronounced 'Gage,'" he gives me a cheesy smile, I've never seen this man before, he reminds me of Brucy from Matilda almost. With the smile and freckles.

"Did Al let you out? You shouldn't be here..." he sounds concerned for a short moments.

"Who're you?"

"I told you, I'm-

"I don't give a crap about your name you've said it how many times? How do you know me?" I say sharply cutting him off.

"Definitely a Russo. You remind me of Blade, that's kinda funny because you look the total opposite of him."

"Blade and I are nothing alike, and also, stranger danger get away from me." I look at him up and down in disgust, he's too young to be a creeper.

"Relax mini girl. I'm a family friend," he rolls his eyes playfully before combing his hair with his hands. A boy's habit it seems like...

"Why're you here? Al is gonna be worried sick," his voice leaks with nervousness.

"As if he'd care," I scoff.

"Huh?"

"He's too busy banging my therapist to even care, don't tell him I said that he'll shout at me," my voice strains at the end.

"Okay I'm gonna pretend like a mini girl didn't just speak foul language from that innocent mouth of her's," he looks around shocked.

"You're not staying here, stand up," he pulls me up tugging on my tail as I try to run to other way.

"Nice outfit," he laughs hysterically.

"It's nice ain't it?" I growl out as he pulls me by the tail in the opposite direction-back home which is the last place I want to be right now.

"Sure, but you're going home. It's not safe, mini girl," he keeps a hold of my tail tugging me along like a dog. Bark, bark bîtch, eat my dog shît.

"It's not home when you're not wanted, take me somewhere else," I say to him, he stops and looks at me through squinted eyes.

"Where?"

"My brother's," I smile proudly.

"Home?"

"I said I don't want to go there. Take me to my brother Cassidy... now," I tell him sternly, he looks frightened for a moment but he huffs moaning an angry yes.

Quickly I yank my tail from his hand and skip ahead in front, I promised I wouldn't run off though- I should be screaming for help right now for a man trying to kidnap me but his name was familiar. I've heard it numerous times enough to trust him.

"What happened?" He asks me from behind, I pause twisting to face him.

"Nothing, I'm just angry," I decide not to tell him the entire truth, I don't exactly want my jealousy being broadcasted everywhere.

"About...?"

"Everything. Everyone is annoying me and I'm frustrated. I-I'm loosing them," I glower at myself.

"Expected, they're not gonna be there with you forever," he says breaking my heart.

"She's ruining everything for me, she's supposed to help me not my brother and his sexuał needs," rolling my eyes I kick the stone far ahead of us watching as it bounces on the road.

*************

"Aww hey, Em I missed you!" Cassidy opens the door pulling me into his grasp, I forgot to breath for a moment, it feels so strange yet so loving at the same time.

"I missed you more," I kiss his cheek returning a hug again.

"You got saliva in me," he chuckles rubbing my back and squeezing me side to side occasionally.

"Are you okay? You look sick? Luca told me what happened... I'm so sorry," he pulls away for a shirt second before pulling me back into his arms.

"Uhh..."

"Don't say anything, please never run away again," what was he talking about?

"What?" I express curiously.

"Luca and Diego told me you ran away, they said you've been away for like an hour they were worried sick," Cass' voice softens.

"AHEM!" Gauge coughs into his hand causing us to look at him like he had five heads.

"You need a drink?" Cassidy asks.

"No, her brothers will be here any moment, I suggest you say your goodbyes for now," he smiles awkwardly rocking on his feet.

"Ew. Anyways where have you been the last three weeks, I was banned from the house I thought I did something wrong," he dismisses Gauge by slamming the door in his face taking me inside.

"Oh I wasn't feeling great, I'm much better now. I had a... contagious flu," I lie covering up my tracks for the last few weeks.

"At least you're okay now, you want something to drink?" An outrageous and furious knock stops my reply.

Cassidy didn't even get a chance to open the door before it was forced open slamming it into the door.

"What's going-

"EMILIA RUSSO YOURE IN TROUBLE," Alessandro storms over to me placing a tight, blood cutting hand on my upper arms. I felt a strong pulse in my hand because he was gripping me too tight making me wince.

"In the car now," he grits his teeth together holding the door open for me, at first I refuse but he harshly shoved me in back hurting my arms even more than it already did.

To my surprise Corn was sat in the front while Blade remains in the back with me, did he have to come everywhere with us?!

"You're kidding me," my voice cracks and Corny looks at me through the mirror, Ally and Blade in the other hand weren't saying anything.

"WHATRE YOU LOOKING AT!" I hit my hand on Alessandro's head rest throwing his head forward, he roars mumbling my punishments. I couldn't hear them clearly enough but I was scared.

"Emilia I suggest you be quiet," his voice comes out flat and monotonous.

"Are you okay, did I do something?" Cordelia places a small cold hand on my arm and I immediately jerk away.

"Yes you did!"

"Emilia," he growls again, "she stopped by this morning to see you so I want you to respect her right this instant."

"Oh Alessandro don't lie! I saw her frolicking around the halls this morning in her underwear! You're gonna tell me 'she stopped by?'" I mock with a high pitched voice.

He and the rat looks at me in awe, shock even. Guilt wrenched at their faces as they turned away ashamed. Blade nudges me telling me to stop but I was so angry.

"Why does it matter?"

"You know what? It doesn't matter. I just find it crazy how you claim you set me up with private lessons because 'you care' when really you were just using me as an excuse to get this... this... her!" I cry out pulling hood over my head so it covers my eyes so I didn't have to see them.

"It's not that deep, Emilia," she whimpers in the front looking scared, Alessandro gives her a sympathetic looks stroking her hand.

"Hehe," Blade snickers besides me, he places a hand over his mouth holding in his laughs.

What's funny?

"Like I said that day, 'you wouldn't understand,'" I hit my forehead against the window making patterns with the steamed fog.

"Yeah of course I would understand, I hear the same thing in the daily so of course I would understand," she remarks sarcastically.

"I'm glad we can agree; you must really understand me after having no family except from an alcoholic, drug dealer for the past year after my mother tragically past from cancer. Oh and get this," I scoff tears brimming at my eyes, "I move across the country to my brothers who were anonymous my entire life, then I break my ribs and sprain my ankle from spending one month in the house, I get scolded by the supposedly family friends... TWICE and then I'm snatched away from them for almost a month just to return to my brother having a girlfriend who is supposed to be my so called therapist. You know I'm glad we're so alike, but the only difference between you and I is that I don't go around walking in the halls in my underwear giggling and kissing. He's my brother!"

I take deep but shallow breaths, my heart was racing and my artery was pounding against my neck. My arms were pulling at my scalp feeling a burning sensitivity against my skull.

We pause in solve for a while, I enjoy it mostly because I couldn't hear her breathing, just the low music was enough to space me out.

"Jealousy is never a good look on you, Em," she tells me like I'm supposed to care. I think for a long moment before replying.

"My brothers clothes aren't a good look on you either," I smile wickedly.

"Oh and it's 'Emilia' to you," I add onto my sentence.

"Remember what I said about you ruining things for me? Congratulations, Emilia Russo because you've done it again," he groans as his fists turn white against the steering wheel.

"Oh trust me Ally, she hasn't ruined a thing," she says sweetly reaching over her side of the car and onto his, she cups his jaw kissing him passionately.

"C'mon let's get out of here," Blade pushes the door open mid traffic dragging me along with him, I choke on my cries as try and catch my breaths from sobbing so hard.

He's supposed to be mine...now he's got someone else. I hated feeling like this, I sound like a spoiled brat wanting him all to myself. But it feels like I've gone so long without my brothers in my life that I don't want to lose them. I'd be heartbroken if they did.

But they're going to move on one day but I'm just scared of when... they're gonna leave me and never come back just like my mum.

Then some girl comes in and take him away from me ruining everything!!! He's my brother and my brother only, he's not going to be used by my 'therapist'. It's funny how she expects me to trust her when she lost every trace of that ever, they did this for themselves not be in needed help' because in theory I didn't need help, never have and never will.

Moth and I are going to grow old together in a cottage at the country side, that's better than living like this.

"I'm sorry," Blade puffs besides me, playing with my fingers in his hand.

"But Emilia don't let that get to you. Don't be jealous because you're only going to be hurt when things don't go your way. Seriously what're you gonna do when Axel gets a wife in the future?"

His mentioning of Axel makes me mad, what did he have to do with this, he's unproblematic and the kindest soul ever.

"What about Axel?"

"Oh please, we all know he'd give his own life for yours and you'd do the same for him. A fool would only be stupid enough to not see it."

"It doesn't change anything. I hate her with every ounce of blood in my body."

"I know, but can we drop it for today? I have a huge headache," he presses his forehead with his palm and runs it down the side of his cheek that was tinged with a light pink, it is moderately nippy out today, no amounts of Tetley tea can warm us up.

"Forgive me please," I hug his arm harder.

We arrived home and I disappeared immediately hiding away from everyone, I heard many voice and multiple female voices in the kitchen meaning Cordelia and Gert was in the kitchen. I felt so replaced at the moment. But then again I was also being selfish for not letting Ally move on with someone else. I can accept that but it doesn't mean I have to like her.

I knock in Axel's for trice but then entered when there was no answer, a nice place for me to sleep. Pulling the zip down just an inch so my neck had room, I crawl on top of his bed creasing the covers trying to get comfortable.

Today wasn't my best day, yesterday wasn't exactly great either. I'm just so furious with everyone. But every moment I was spending hiding away I could be spending with Ally but instead I was being a coward.

Exhausted was the wrong word to use, I was absolutely shattered, even more than the glass in Blade's room. But I want to take this time to change my attitude because I haven't been exactly the best sister ever. I have been super selfish.

I'm just trying to protect Ally and my brothers from her, she's replacing me in the family already and I'm scared I'm going to be kicked out. They can do that to me if they like which is what frightens me the most- just thinking about returning to my old house makes me shudder.

But while I was trying to protect my brothers I hadn't realised how nasty and disgusting I was being, I was hurting them in the process.

It's time to reflect on my greediness; discipline is what I need.

I'm sorry.

*************

Snapping a yawn from my throat, I uncurl my legs peeling them away from my body stretching them out wide.

"Oomph," I groan as I tip toe reaching up as high as I can like a cat stretching. The feeling of my ligaments and muscles pulling away from my body makes me feel refreshed despite not even showering today.

Gross, I know don't judge me. It's too cold to shower so deodorant will do me for the day.

Sliding on the balls of my feet, I enter the downstairs waiting for the shouts and disappointed screams of my behaviour.

I acted badly and I MUST apologise; to Ally not the corn on the cob.

"Ah she returns?" Diego sounds shocked, his legs were sprawled out on the floor as his back was leaning against the sofa.