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Connor has had full rights to bitch this week.

With a broken foot, yes.

But my god I have never heard him whine so much.

EVEN THROUGH THE MASON THING which is saying something.

But right now he, Sienna, Oaken, Bebe, Ben, Tory, Havannah, Ryan, Josh, Mason and I are walking in to the school because it is Friday night, which means, TALENT SHOW.

"So uh." We all sat down and Ben looked down the row. "Who are we supposed to cheer for?"

"Uh." Mason pursed his lips. "Both? I mean, we know Carter, Kalum and the guys are good. We know Nico and the guys are good plus the addition of Abby."

"Yeah, I'm fucking confused." Oaken nodded. "I'm just gonna yell."

"Same." Everyone nodded.

Now me, on the outside, I am going to yell for both.

But on the inside, I am going to be screaming at the top of my lungs for Abby, but not to win this thing.

Abby has finally decided she's done sitting around acting like she's peachy keen and happy.

And much to the thanks of Nico and the guys, she's finally gonna let it out.

Don't get me wrong, with as much as I love Abby, I would not be letting her do this if I didn't already know how Havannah and Ryan are feeling.

Shit, you all know how Havannah and Ryan are feeling.

Basically the only one who doesn't is Abby.

But we have been abiding by her wishes and not pushing.

So kudo's for Abby for stepping to the plate.

I'm not going to lie, the people performing in the show tonight are really good.

We've got dancers, singers, bands, musicians, a lot.

But the minute Carter, Kalum, Harvey and Dalton walked on the stage, everyone in our row perked up.

Carter cleared his throat. "Hey everyone. We're Chaos in Control, and this is a song we like to call Beauty In The Bad Things."

"Oh no." Mason pursed his lips.

"That, that didn't sound good." Connor shook his head.

Harvey started with some low acoustic and Carter started singing.

It's hard to wake up

I hate what I love

And 18 sucks, pretend.

I'm good but I'm not.

My friends have someone

I'll get stoned and watch lost, again

It gets worse before it gets better

Shit that might just take forever

So I wrote myself a letter and said

Then Carter and Dawson came in lightly.

There's beauty in the bad things, oh-oh

Promise me you won't let, go

Even at our best we'll still be a little bitter

Part of me is a saint but I'll always be a sinner

There's beauty in the bad things, oh-oh

Promise me you wont lose, hope

Even when we're low and there's nothing to believe

We'll never be alone and we'll always have our demons

And now Kalum came in a little on the drums.

If I met myself

When I was 12

I wonder what he, would say

I'd hide all my flaws

I'd give him a hug

And tell him he'll be, OK

"OK this is really fucking good. But it's slow for them." Josh nodded

"Right?" Sienna looked at him.

It gets worse before it gets better

Shit it feels like it's forever

So I wrote that kid a letter, it said

Yeah, there it is, there's the heavy punk rock sound.

There's beauty in the bad things, oh-oh

Promise me you won't let, go

Even at our best we'll still be a little bitter

Part of me is a saint but I'll always be a sinner

"Never mind." Josh shook his head.

"Maybe I'll date Carter instead of you." Mason looked at me.

"Excuse me." I raised my eyebrows.

"Bitch you mean." Ben smiled.

There's beauty in the bad things, oh-oh

Promise me you wont lose, hope

Even when we're low and there's nothing to believe

We'll never be alone and we'll always have our demons

It cut back to just Harvey playing

I don't know if I'll get better

Yeah forever feels like never

So I opened up my letter and read.

"Awe, Carter." Bebe pouted.

"He's so adorable it hurts." Tory nodded.

And then it picked back up.

There's beauty in the bad things, oh-oh

Promise me you won't let, go

Even at our best we'll still be a little bitter

Part of me is a saint but I'll always be a sinner

There's beauty in the bad things, oh-oh

Promise me you wont lose, hope

Even when we're low and there's nothing to believe

We'll never be alone and we'll always have our demons

There's beauty in the bad things, oh-oh

Whoah-Oh, oh-oh.

There's beauty in the bad things, oh-oh

Whoah-Oh, oh-oh.

Let me tell you, this applause was deafening.

They never cease to amaze me with their music, and I hear their raw uncut stuff.

They exited the stage, and a few minutes later, I felt a kiss on my cheek.

"Do you think this is gonna work?"

I turned and Carter was sitting behind me.

I raised my eyebrow.

"She told me." He nodded. "And, I told him." He pointed next to him at Kalum.

I sighed. "I hope so."

"She put her heart and soul in to this song. It better freaking work." Carter shook his head.

"Is she gonna be alright though?" Kalum nodded down the row toward Havannah.

I pursed my lips and nodded. "I think she'll be alright."

"So, are we going to act as if I can't hear every word you're saying?" Mason leaned over and whispered. "You need to tell me what's about to happen, right now." He nodded.

"Now please, welcome to the stage, Stereo Causes with Abbigail Colton."

"Too late." I scrunched my face.

"Oh, fuck me." He groaned and grabbed my hand.

Carter and the guys completely killed that.

But a few more acts went by, and Abby, was announced with Nico, Kevin, Grant and Cody.

Which, what the fuck.

I didn't even know she was participating.

They all walked on the stage, and Nico, actually stood off to the side.

"I have a feeling this gonna be good. Abby can siiiiiing." Havannah grabbed my hand and smiled.

He cleared his throat. "Hey." He smiled. "We're Stereo Causes, and this is Abby Colton." He motioned toward her.

She smiled and waved.

"Now for those of you who know us, this is something different than we're used to, and it's because this girl right here." He looked at Abby. "Threw her heart and soul in to this song, because if there's anything we've learned it's that music is a way to let things out, let things go, and communicate what you're feeling. Abby Lou, I hope we helped you do that." He gave her a nod. "Everyone, this is a song that Abby calls 'She's Mine.'

When they said it was a little different, I did not expect Grant to sit down at the piano.

Or for it to start off slow with him playing, or Kevin on some light bass.

Or for Nico to start off slowly either.

Shit is slow.

But then Abby started singing.

Her body

I hate that I think about it constantly

Sit and analyze every photo

If she's got a single flaw it don't show

She's perfect

I guess that's why it makes me nervous

That she's gonna get your happy ending

And I'm left with all of these questions

And then Nico joined Abby with with some light background.

Is her kiss one you could stop time with

Do her lips fit better than mine did

With that line right there, I literally felt my whole face change.

Do you have that star-aligned classic

That just know it's meant to be magic

Did she make you forget you ever missed me

In the dark does she keep your hands busy

I can't tell you how much my posture straightened up to look down the row at the 4 who were sinking back in to their chairs.

Guess we all got reasons we can't sleep at night

And she's Mine

I looked at Mason and Connor. And they both shook their heads.

I looked at Sienna and Olivia.

Sienna shook her head.

But Olivia, she just scrunched her face and looked down.

Do you let her

Sleep in your Alabama sweatshirt

I bet she gets to drive your old Jeep

And I heard that her Prada's got a spare key

There aint NO DAMN WAY, she just up and wrote a fucking song about me!

With the sweatshirt, and my jeep, and the fucking prada.

Only one of us

You brought home to meet your Nana cause

I guess she's the diamond, I'm the rhinestone

Tell me what she's doing that I don't

Is her kiss one you could stop time with

Do her lips fit better than mine did

Do you have that star aligned classic

That just know it's meant to be magic

Did she make you forget you ever missed me

In the dark does she keep your hands busy

Guess we all got reasons we can't sleep at night

And she's Mine

I looked behind us at Carter and Kalum.

And Carter was just giving me a slight smile and shrugged.

Now, it fucking makes sense.

Why her and Carter broke up.

She fucking misses me.

I just can't turn her off and

I guess we got that in common

She's yours but she's mine

The one I think about all the time

And then I felt Havannah let go of my hand.

I looked over and down at her and she was giving me the smallest smile.

"What're you doing?" I raised my eyebrows.

"You do it, or I will." She nodded.

"Havannah." I shook my head.

The chorus picked back up.

And I just stared at her the whole time.

Is her kiss one you could stop time with

Do her lips fit better than mine did

Do you have that star aligned classic

That just know it's meant to be magic

Did she make you forget you ever missed me

In the dark does she keep your hands busy

Guess we all got reasons we can't sleep at night

And she's Mine

She's Mine

Havannah signed, leaned over, and kissed my cheek. "Ryan, we shouldn't see each other anymore." She shook her head, got up, and literally just walked out of the Auditorium.

"Why." I shook my head and looked at Olivia. I stood up and started walking down our row. "Why the fuck couldn't you tell me that she was doing that!" I yelled and sprinted out after Havannah.

I got out to the hall just before she got to the door to leave the school.

"Havannah!" I yelled and caught up.

I grabbed her hand and pulled her back inside.

She sighed and turned around.

"Havannah I didn't know that was happening." I shook my head.

"I know Ryan. I could tell by the look on your face." She nodded.

"You're not being serious right now, are you?" I scrunched my face. "You're not really ending things, right?"

"Ryan." She shook her head. "You and I. We don't work the way we should. I may look like I am, but I'm not stupid. You, are such an amazing guy. But you can't sit here and tell me that feelings have been the same since we started having sex."

"They have been." I sighed.

"No, they haven't. At least mine haven't. But Ryan, we both know if she would've given you another chance when everything happened, that you and her would be together. "

"But we're not." I shook my head. "Its you. It's been you for the past few months."

"I know that." She nodded. "You would never make that mistake again. But Ry, that girl. That beautiful, fun, bubbly girl. The one who literally wrote a song about how much she actually misses you. That is YOUR Abby. Anyone around you two can see you two belong together, and you do. You and Abby Colton are made for each other." She gave me a small smile. "And you would not be hurting me if you admit that you are still so madly in love with her and miss her, because it's the truth."

"Havannah, I-"

"It's OK Ryan." She let go of my hands and rubbed my arms. "You and I, we're always going to be friends. You're always going to be my first, and I am 100% happy it was with you. Because you, you're the first person who has looked at me beyond the camera, and the clothes, and the hair and height. You saw me. But now, it's time for you to give that, all that to the girl who as always deserved it. You're not your mistake Ry. That doesn't define the person you are. The things you do to learn from them and grow from them does." She nodded.

Then we heard a door.

"You killed that Ab!" I heard Nico yell.

Havannah and I both looked down the hall, and Abby stopped dead in her tracks, spun around, and Nico literally grabbed her shoulders to stop her.

I looked down at Havannah.

"Go." She nodded.

I pursed my lips. "We're OK? We're still gonna be friends?" I sighed.

She got up on her tip toes and kissed my cheek. "Always." She nodded. "Now go!" She nudged me down the hall. "Go get your girl." Her smile grew. "And know that I'm rooting for you two."

I swear to god I hugged this girl so hard I thought I crushed her.

I went to walk down the hall, and Abby's eyes got so wide she tried running.

"Nope." Nico wrapped his arms around her and lifted her.

"No let me go right now." She shook her head.

"No. No Abby talk to him or you're gonna end up like me." Cody grabbed her shoulders.

"No! Cody I can't, really! Really just let me-"

I cleared my throat when I got over and crossed my arms.

She just looked up at me.

I pursed my lips and shook my head. "Guys I think I got it."

Nico set her down and brushed her shoulders off.

"Thank you." I nodded.

"Anytime my guy." He dapped me up, but I pulled him back.

"Have I hit you yet, for fucking around with Ol?" I raised my eyebrows.

"No." He pointed at me. "But I just kept her from leaving the school." He smiled and pointed at Abby.

"Yeah, you get the pass." I pat his shoulder. "And you." I looked at Cody. "Thank you. But my brother, he is now in hoe phase, if you don't want hurt, don't try."

He sighed. "OK." He nodded.

"Good kid. But, can I talk to her alone?"

They both nodded, kissed her cheek, and walked away.

"Hi." She pursed her lips.

I sighed. "Hey."

"We didn't mean to interrupt." She shook her head.

"Interrupt her, dumping me." I nodded.

Her face dropped. "Ryan I'm sorry. That wasn't my intention." She shook her head. And then she got the word vomit look on her face she gets when she gets nervous. "I just, I couldn't keep acting like I was OK when I wasn't and I had to get it out. And Carter told me the best way to do that is music so I gave it a shot and that's what I came up with and I feel really really fucking bad now because I love Havannah I do. And I never wanted to-"

Now, I know Abby. I know she would've kept going.

But instead of letting her, I grabbed both sides of her face, wrapped my fingers around the back of her neck, and for the first time in months, I kissed her.

The kind of Abby kiss I've been craving.

Long, and deep, lip achingly good kiss.

I pulled away and she took a deep breath.

"You done?" I raised my eyebrows.

She scrunched her face and nodded.

"She dumped me, because even though she knows I care about her, you're my Abby." I nodded. "Beautiful, fun, bubbly Abby Colten. She ended things, because apparently everyone around us can see that you and I, we were made for each other. And we are. And that her and I are always going to be friends, and that she will always be rooting for us. But Ab." I shook my head. "You said that you and I, we were never getting back together. So I would really love to know what that." I pointed to the Auditorium doors. "Was about."

She sighed and shook her head. "You hurt me."

"Trust me. I know I did. No one has let me forget it."

"So I jumped to the first person who made me comfortable. And that was Carter. And he knows I care about him. But Ryan, he wasn't you." She looked down. "And after a while, I started noticing everything you did for her, that you didn't for me. You know her favorites, and play with her in public, you take her to the driving range. And she's beautiful Ryan. She's so smart, and she's funny. But for the past month, all I have done is think about her. I think about her constantly. The thing I thought about most though, is that she's gonna get my charm. This was the first Christmas, and Thanksgiving that I didn't get a new one, and my wrist feels to light, and I miss you." She held her wrist up. "I fucking miss you Ryan. And I'm so sorry. But I couldn't keep it in anymore and you were so happy and I ruined it." She wiped her face.

I took a deep breath, pulled my wallet out of my back pocket, and pulled the two little baggies out that I've been keeping in there for months. "You mean these charms?" I held them up.

Her face grew soft and she just looked at them. "You got me new charms."

"Abby." I pulled each of them out and pulled her wrist up. "I get you a new charm for every major Holiday. Of course I got you new charms. I just." I sighed. "You were with Carter, and I didn't want to over step." I snapped them both on to her bracelet. "The maple leaf you've been wanting, and then the R with the stone the color for Syracuse." I nodded.

She sniffled and pursed her lips. "You love me?"

"You read the contract Ab. There's no possible way I would ever stop." I shook my head. "The question is, do you love me enough to be with me again, despite the mistake. Not the way Olivia and Mason did it. Throwing it in each others faces when they fought. I know how badly I hurt you. I know how much I fucked up. But baby, I promise you, if you give me one more chance, I will never fuck up like that again."

"You love me?" She nodded.

"I love you." I nodded.