I have been planning all week on how to tell the boys I've got in to Juilliard.

But I also wanted to check over everything and make sure I had enough credits to graduate.

Which between my AP classes, and extra curricular from previous years, I do.

Thank fucking god.

But right now, it's Saturday night, Will, is on his way to pick up Abby and I for a party at his house, because they won their first Hockey Game today.

I have never heard my dad scream as loud as he did when Oaken scored for the first time.

The reason he is picking us up, is because Ryan and Sienna are currently on their way back from Syracuse from looking at apartments so she is not coming.

Oaken, is spending the night with Amber to celebrate his goal and their win.

And Mason and Connor, are having some much needed boyfriend time.

"So." I looked in the mirror behind me as I finished my make up. "Anything from Julien this week?"

"Every day." She nodded. "And, then he asked me if I'd like to do something with him when we go up for Valentines and our birthdays, to which I politely declined."

"Ab, why." I whined.

"Because Ol, It wouldn't be fair to him. I just, when everything happened I was so mad about the things he was saying that I didn't think anything through." She sighed. "But, I want Ryan." She shook her head. "He's my end game. If it takes time it takes time, and, if it doesn't happen, I know I tried."

I pursed my lips and nodded. "How about, you and I completely forget about boys tonight. Well, other than Will because it's his house. We haven't had a night with just us in a while, so, we'll go drink, we'll dance, we'll have fun, and we'll pass out in the guest room, and when Holden and Josh get home in the morning from his college visit, the 5 of us will go get breakfast."

"But, what if I get hungry tonight." She pouted.

"Then, we can call someone." I spun around and smiled. "Deal?"

She smiled. "Deal." She nodded. "Did you know, that the boys actually forgot about Josh going with us to New York?"

"What?" I gave her a look.

"Yeah, I guess they told Ryan it was just the 7 of us." She shrugged.

"I just don't think they're used to boyfriend Josh, of course he's coming. He always makes plans."

"Oh I know that, they just don't." She rolled her eyes. "Are we ready though?"

"Welp, I sure hope you are. I'm late for my own party." Will came busting in to my room.

"Well you be the judge Mr. Grayson." I stood up and did a spin.

"I think, I am about to be read a riot act on keeping an eye on you two from the big brother and boyfriend down stairs." He nodded. "You two look lovely but if you want to stop at Tim Hortons." He motioned out the door. "Lets go. I still have to go get Kallie and I need you two as back up so I don't rip her brother to shreds."

"He's still not over it." I rolled my eyes.

"Well, I'm currently half assed sleeping with his sister because we're taking it slow, and I just took her to New York for the weekend. So." He shrugged.

"Alright alright, William, lets go. I need a few beverages before I start dancing so I wont think about the boy who doesn't want me."

"Yeah, on that note lets go." He sighed and pushed her out of my room. "There's no way we can speed that along, right?" He whispered.

"Trust me, we're trying without either of them getting hurt." I whispered as we walked down the stairs.

Mason and Connor were sitting on the couch tying their shoes when we walked down.

"I'm serious Ol. If you guys decide you want to come home, just call, I will come get you." Connor stood up.

"No." I shook my head.

"Seriously Ol, just call." Mason rolled his eyes.

"No. You guys haven't had a night just you two, in a while. So I am not bothering either of you tonight. Just message me when you guys are safely in your beds. If we need something we will call Ben and Tory. K?" I smiled.

They both just glared at me.

"Love you." I walked over and kissed Connor's cheek.

"Yeah, I love you too sometimes." He shook his head.

"And you boyfriend." I walked over and wrapped my arms around Masons neck. "I love you." I kissed his cheek.

"Yeah, I love you too shit brick. Go have fun." He pulled me down to kiss me. "Will, since they don't listen, call if something happens, OK?"

"You've got it." He picked me up and threw me over his shoulder. "We're forgetting about boys tonight. Lets go."

"What about me." Abby pouted.

Will dipped down and threw her over his other shoulder.

"Bye, love you!" She yelled as he carried us out the door.

Let me tell you what, I thought the hatred between Cam and Mason was bad.

NOTHING compared to Cam and Will.

They argued for 20 minutes on whether or not Kallie was going to the party.

She is currently doing a keg stand in the middle of Wills living room as he cheers her on.

Pats on the back for me.

I did it.

Abby and I, we however, drank, and danced, and drank some more, then danced again.

Connor and Mason messaged me at 11:00 to tell say they were home tucked comfortably in their beds.

Sienna and Ryan messaged the group chat at 11:30 to tell us they made it back and that Sienna threw up 6 times, so she is down for the count.

But, it wasn't til around 2:30 where Abby and I decided that we did not want to stay, but wanted burritos and she told us that our ride was outside.

Her and I said bye to everyone, and literally stumbled out of Will's house.

To see Ryan standing outside of his car.

"That's who you called?" I laughed.

"I wanted to see him." She pouted.

And then she tripped down the steps pulling me with her.

"OK." Ryan sped walked over and caught us both as we tripped again. "Alright, come on. Abby, you're in the back so you don't throw up in my car." He lifted her up and set her in to the back. "And you, can sit up front." He lifted me up.

He buckled us both in, closed our doors, and climbed in.

"And how much did you two drink?" He looked at me and then to Abby.

"A lot." We both laughed.

He sighed and shook his head. "Well, at least you called."

"Oh no. I did not call you. Abby Lou Who called you." I smile.

"Ryan do you remember, when you used to call me Abby Lou Who?" Abby laughed.

"Yes, yes I do." He nodded. "You two, need something in your systems before I take you home, and before my dad finds out I took his truck."

"Were you sleeping?" I pouted.

"Yes, I was but it's alright." He shrugged.

"And how was your trip." Abby peaked forward.

"It was alright, we found a place, should be able to move in by fall."

"Yay!" She clapped.

"Can we get burritos." He looked over at him.

He groaned. "Where is your boyfriend when I need him?"

"Home." I smiled.

"You two are lucky I love you." He nodded.

Honestly, I miss night time rides with Ryan and Abby like this.

Riding around, eating food, listening to music.

"When was the last time you cleaned this damn car." Abby laughed.

"You know what, you leave my car alone. At least I have one Miss Colton." He shook his head.

"Oh shut up. Seriously. You have shoes back here." She held up a pair of Nike's. "3 sweatshirts." She started pushing things around. "Sweat pants. What the hell do you need 2 soccer balls for?"

"Because I play soccer." He laughed.

And then it got really quiet.

"What?" He looked in his rear view and his face sunk.

I turned around, and Abby was just holding and looking down at Havannah's Blue Nial Bracelet.

"It's just a bracelet." He shook his head.

She sniffled and wiped her face. "But it's not mine." She choked out.

And that, that was enough to break my heart and spin back around before I start crying.

Ryan just pursed his lips, and reach his hand back through the center consul.

He held it there for a minute, then slid it back up.

He slid the bracelet in to the cup holder, and looked over at me.

Ryan and I, we were quiet the rest of the way to Abby's, and she quietly cried the entire time.

He pulled in, and put the car in park, and Abby rushed out.

"Ab." He groaned. "Let me help you."

"I've got it." She sniffled and slid out of the car.

"Abby, you're gonna-"

She slammed his door, and well, attempted to run in to her house.

He took a deep breath. "Do you mind if we stop somewhere before I take you home?"

I shook my head and he sped out of her driveway.

We drove for 10 minutes until we got to the over look of the town.

He put his car in park, and just closed his eyes.

"Ryan?" I pursed my lips.

He took a deep breath and shook his head. "What the fuck Liv."

And this kid, he full on punched his steering wheel so hard it shook his car.

I jumped and moved over toward the door.

He opened his door and got out. "Why the fuck can't I get shit right!" He yelled and slammed his door.

Then proceeded to scream fuck while literally kicking the front of his car.

He went and sat on the edge, and I finally got out of the car.

I walked over and sat down next to him in the snow, and he was actually crying.

"No matter how fucking hard I'm trying to be a good guy, I'm never the good fucking guy!" He yelled and wiped his face.

I didn't know what to do, so I just reached down and grabbed his hand.

"I miss my fucking life Olivia." He shook his head. "I fucking hate Tate. I fucking hate me."

"Ryan." I shook my head.

"No Ol! I'm doing, everything right right now!" He yelled. "I'm not sleeping around, I'm devoted to Havannah, fuck, I'm even trying to be friends with Abby when I'm fucking in love with her! But then she gets drunk, and she gets mad at me because she finds my girlfriend bracelet as if she didn't tell me she was great! I'm doing things the way I'm supposed to be damn it!"

I just, I really have no clue what to do at all.

So we sat there in silence for 20 minutes as I held his hand.

He helped me back to his car, and drove me back to my house.

But, I did not go to my house.

I tip toed through Mason's and right up to his room.

I can't tell you how much Connor and I needed a night like tonight.

We went to Hardys for a while before we made our way to the trampoline park, which whooped both of our asses to the point where we actually went home early, and the minute I hit my bed, I passed out instantly.

But, I woke up, to someone crawling up my body.

I groaned and stretched. "Please." I moved my hands up her back as she sat on my waist. "Be alone and not with our re-occuring bed guest.

Then I heard her take a deep breath, and she kissed me.

I wasn't expecting it, and normally, she at least says hi.

"You OK?" I kissed her back harder.

She pulled my lip in to her bottom teeth and pulled back. "No talking." She shook her head and kissed me again.

I bit her bottom lip, and her hands went to my chest as she started rocking her hips against mine as she made her way to my neck and bit down.

"Fuck." My hands went from her thighs, up her waist, and under the edge of her shirt.

She moaned and started rocking her hips harder.

And just like that, I'm hard as a fucking rock as I squeeze her chest.

"Baby what has gotten in to you." I groaned as my hands roamed her body.

"You're always trying to take care of me, my heart, everything." She bit her lip grinding down on to me. "Let me take care of you."

One of my hands went straight to her ass, and the other to the back of her neck pulling her face down to mine. "OK." I whispered against her lips before I took hers in a deep kiss.

Her fingers dug in to my lower stomach before she pushed her hand down the waist band of my boxers.

I pulled it out, sat up against my head board, reached over and turned my night stand light on, and peeled her shirt and her bra off her in one smooth swoop.

She pulled her mouth away from mine and kissed her way down my chest to the edge boxers and pulls them down.

She licked up my length with one long stroke of her tongue, and I swear to god I almost came right then.

I reached down with a hand, pulled her hair out of her face and wrapped my hand in it. "Fuck Ol." I let out through gritted teeth and threw my head back.

And then I felt her moan around my dick and my head shot right down.

Her hand had disappeared between her thighs, she looked right up at me, pulled her mouth off, and simply swirled her tongue around the tip.

"Oh Jesus Christ." I swear to god my eyes rolled to the back of my head as she sucked me back in deep, held her breath, and then went in deeper about 3 more times until she choked.

After that there is no way in hell that I was going to last.

I pulled her head back, and drug her up my body.

Now, I have no clue when the hell she took her pants off, but the minute she was up my body, she sunk her self right down on me taking all of me in.

"Oh, my god Ol." I groaned as she started grinding back and forth.

One hand went to her ass, the other went to the back of her neck and pulled her in to kiss me.

We were a mess of tangling tongues and clattering teeth as she slowly rode me.

Her chest pressed against mine, her body rolling against mine.

Normally, I like faster paced sex.

Right now, this didn't actually feel like sex. It felt different. It felt like a claiming.

Something, is obviously wrong if she feels the need to do that.

But this is what she wants right now. So she's getting it. And I'm not complaining in the slightest.

I pulled away and kissed down her neck. "This feels so good baby." I bit down. "Just like that." I kissed down her chest and pulled one of her nipples in to my mouth.

Lightly biting down, running my tongue against the tender peak.

Her arms moved to the back of my neck and pulled me closer as my hands made their way up her back and dragged my nails lightly back down.

"Mason." She moaned as her pace picked up.

"Yes baby." I groaned.

"I want you." She threw her head back.

"You have me." I pulled her head in to kiss me.

I felt her start to tighten up, as she moved faster. Her nails dig straight in to my back, and she moans the words. "I'm coming." in to my mouth.

"Yes baby. Come." I moaned.

And then she started swiveling her hips and I came right when she did. "Oh my god Olivia."

She slowed her pace, but she didn't stop until she milked every last drop out of me.

Once she stopped her movements completely, I slowly pulled her head down to my neck.

And it wasn't until her body was laying on top of mine and I felt the warm sticky mess between us, that I realized that I am not wearing a condom, and I did not pull out.

I sighed. "Shit." I whispered, rolled her over, and pulled out. "I'll be right back. Don't move." I got out of bed and walked in to my bathroom.

I cleaned my self up really quick, grabbed a wash cloth out of my cupboard, and drenched it in soap and water.

I walked out and started cleaning her up.

I tossed the cloth in my laundry basket, laid back down, and pulled her in to me. "Ol are you OK?"

"Can you promise me something." She wrapped an arm around my shoulders.

I nodded, reached over, and turned my lamp off.

"Promise me that you'll never cheat on me. And that you'll always fight for me. And that you'll never, ever act like you don't love me because it's for the best." She choked out.

I tucked her hair behind her ears and kissed her. "I promise."

Something, is very very wrong.

What the hell happened tonight.