Hello everyone.

Since I'm still trying to figure out my permanent work schedule to figure out when I can post for you guys,

I'm going to post this today since I work tomorrow!

Enjoy.

With love

WhoooahKay

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Step one to moving on? Turn in to a bad bitch.

So this morning, I woke up extra early, straightened my hair, did my make-up, my good make-up, and threw on a pair of jeans, a black long sleeved body suit that tied up the sleeves with gold rings around the holes, my black belt with my golden buckle, my black combat boots, and my gold medium sized hoops.

I switched out my purse to my small over the shoulder black one.

Shit, I even used shimmer mist.

I looked in my mirror, took a deep breath, and smiled, then headed down stairs. Mom and Dad are also out to breakfast before he goes back to work tonight.

"Whoah!" Oaken yelled as I walked in the kitchen.

"What?" I laughed.

"Ol what are you wearing." Connor shook his head.

"Clothes." I looked down. "What's wrong with what I'm wearing?"

"I mean, nothing. Just, you've been wearing leggings and sweaters all fall unless we're going somewhere." He pursed his lips.

"I'm going to breakfast, then school." I nodded.

"You look uh-" Oaken scrunched his face. "Nice. Very put together. For school."

"Thank you." I smiled.

"So uh, you never did tell us what all you did this weekend." Connor leaned back.

"Just, got my nails done, shopped, ate all of State College and went to the concert." I shrugged.

"Do they have mac n cheese cups in State College?" Oaken gave me a look.

I knew exactly what he was asking.

"They do." I nodded.

His eyes got wide and he pursed his lips.

"What the fuck kind of question is that, they have them everywhere." Connor rolled his eyes.

"Hey Con." The back door slid open. "Do you have by black Nike hoodie?" Mason walked in staring down at his phone. But the minute he looked up, his eyes got wide and he looked me up and down.

Connor cleared his throat. "No, I don't."

"Uh." I pursed my lips. "I do, actually." I nodded. "But."

Then came the knock.

"But I'm actually leaving. I'll get it to you later."

"What's the special occasion." Mason cleared his throat.

"Nothing." I shook my head. "I'll just, bye." I walked out of the kitchen and basically sprinted to the door.

"Hi." I smiled.

"Whoah." Kalum smiled. "You look great, what got in to you." His smile grew.

"Shut up." I laughed through gritted teeth.

"Lelands? Pancakes?" He held his hand out for my bag.

"You read my mind." I nodded.

He helped me up in to his truck, and we headed to Lelands.

Breakfast, I spent all of it laughing at his embarrassing band stories. Specifically the time Harvey literally fell off the stage on to a bubble maker, and the soap covered his pants to the point where it looked like he peed.

I snuck the bill while he was in the bathroom, and I swear he may have literally whooped my ass if I wouldn't have agreed to let him pay for dinner tonight.

We headed to the school and found Abby at her locker.

"Good morning." I kissed her cheek.

"Good morning." She smiled and raised her eyebrows. "This is hott." She pulled on my body suit.

"I am done wallowing in self pity." I flipped my hair.

"And hi Kalum." She looked up at him.

"Hi Abby." He smiled and handed her a container. "We got breakfast, and I didn't feel like getting punched in the face for her eating pancakes and you not."

"Good boy." She patted the side of his face.

"Is it hot as fuck in here, or is it just me?" I shook my head.

"Well, your hair is extra long today so probably you boo." Abby laughed. "Hair tie?" She pulled the one off her wrist.

"Thank you!" I flipped my head upside down and threw my hair in a pony tail.

"Holy fuck." Abby looked at me wide eyed as I flipped back up.

"What?" I gave her a look.

"Oh my god." Kalum mumbled.

"Uh. What happened at that concert this weekend?" Abby pursed her lips.

I shook my head. "What do you mean?"

She smiled up at Kalum.

He ran his hand through his hair and down his face. "Ol I'm sorry." He shook his head.

"For what?" I raised my eyebrows.

"Ol, you have a hickey." Abby poked my neck towards the under neath of my ear.

"What?" I pulled my phone out and pulled the camera up.

Sure as hell, a light red hickey is popping out. I pulled my hair out of the pony tail.

"Oh my god." Abby put her hand over her mouth. "Did you two-"

"Cameron stop!" We heard coming from down the other end of the hall.

All three of our heads shot around and Kallie was chasing Cam down the hall.

"No!" Cam yelled. "He crossed a fucking line this time! Hollow!"

"What the hell is that?" I looked at Abby.

She sighed. "Part 2 of the shit show that's about to happen." She nodded.

They B-lined right past us, and up to Mason's locker where he was with Connor.

Mason turned around and rolled his eyes. "What do you-"

And then a fist flew, cracked Mason directly in the side of his face, and he dropped.

"You fucked my little sister Saturday night!" Cam screamed.

"Jesus Christ Cameron, really!" Kallie yelled.

Remember what I said about being a bad bitch. Now, it has turned to a numb bitch with no emotion coming out of her.

"Oh shit." Kalum pursed his lips.

Cam bent down and grabbed him by the front of his shirt. "Stay the hell away from my little sister or I swear to god I will fucking kill you Hollow!"

He let go and stomped down the hallway.

"Cameron!" Kallie screamed and ran after him.

"Stupid ass." Connor picked Mason up off the floor.

"Ow." Mason cracked his jaw, and then he looked down the hall and his face got so serious when he saw me.

I pursed my lips, nodded and looked up at Kalum. "Can you walk me to class. And body block the fuck out of him please."

He nodded. "Absolutely. Are you alright?"

"I'm fine." I gave him a small smile. "Ab, you coming?" I looked over at her.

"Yeah." She nodded and wrapped her arm in mine.

Kalum threw an arm over my shoulder and we started walking.

"Ol." Mason shook his head.

"Don't." I walked past him without even looking at him.

"Olivia!" He grabbed the back of my arm.

"Don't touch me." I turned around and pulled my arm away.

Kalum shifted so he was half way in front of me.

"Kal move." Mason nodded.

He shook his head. "Mason right now, it's not a smart idea."

"What the fuck do you care." Mason glared at him. "Olivia seriously, we need to talk."

"No Mason." I shook my head. "No we really don't. You did you over the weekend. Not really a shock."

"Mason just walk away." Abby nodded. "Please."

"No!" Mason yelled. "I can't believe you just said that."

"Con." Abby waved him toward her.

He looked at Mason, walked over, and Abby whispered something in his ear.

He sighed and looked at me. "Mason, really, just come on." Connor grabbed his arm.

"No! Olivia I don't care what the hell is going on anymore. Con I'm sorry! But I've tried talking to you all god damn weekend. I love you, and you love me so there is no way you're just, nonchalant about this." He shook his head.

I took a deep breath and pursed my lips. "Can you please walk me to class." I looked up at Kalum.

I am trying so fucking hard to keep my cool right now.

"Yeah." He nodded and reached down to grab my hand. "Breathe." He whispered.

"What the hell is that." Mason looked down at our hands.

"Mason." Connor shook his head.

His head shot up from our hands, to my head.

His face scrunched up and he shook his head. And with a shaky hand, he reached up, and moved my hair behind my shoulders.

His jaw clenched and he nodded. "Are you fucking kidding me." He looked at Kalum then back down at me.

Kalum pursed his lips and looked down at me.

I was just looking at Connor the whole time.

"Are you fucking serious Olivia!" He screamed.

And, just like that, my cool was gone.

"So you can have sex with my ex-boyfriends little sister." I nodded. "But when I have sex it's not OK!"

"You two actually had sex this weekend!" He stepped in front of me.

My head turned more toward Connor.

"No! Look at me, right fucking now!" He yelled.

"Mason back off." Kalum nodded.

"You, can go to hell!" Mason nodded. "You had sex with my cousin to get back at me!"

"No Mason, I didn't! I had sex with him because I wanted to! Because he's a great guy and I just wanted a little bit of the fucking hurt that you caused, to go away! Well, it did! You on the other hand, you had sex with my ex-boyfriends little sister to get back at me, when all of this, is on you! You do not get to stand here and yell at me for something you did too! That's not how this works! You don't get to be mad at me!"

"Ol come on." Abby grabbed my arm and I started walking away.

"Olivia look at me!" Mason screamed.

"I can't." I pulled out of Abby and Kalum's hands and shot around. "Because now every time I look at you, all I'm going to see is the person who did everything to keep his best friend when he supposedly loves me! You haven't talked to me for days on end, you have barely looked at me, you fucked Kallie, and for the love of god Mason, you chose Connor, and you didn't even attempt to fight for me!"

"Olivia." Connor shook his head.

"No!" I pointed at him. "You don't get to say shit to me either. Because you, this all happened because of you! I hope you're happy Connor, because now, I have no desire to talk to him, or look at him! You got what you wanted! And that was your best friend, over your little sister! Give me my fucking keys!" I held my hand out.

"Ol."

"Now!" I screamed.

He jumped and pulled my keys out of his pocket. He set them in my hand.

I looked up Kalum. "Can you walk me out to my car please."

He sighed. "Of course." He nodded.

This time, he grabbed my hand and pulled me.

We got out to my car and I took a deep breath.

"Seriously Ol, are you alright?" He wrapped his arms around my shoulders and squeezed.

"Yeah." I nodded. "I just, don't think school today is a good idea after all of that and last week. But I'll still see you later for dinner? Me, you and Laylynn?" I looked up at him.

He let out a small smile. "You still want to explore after all of that."

"Of course I do." I gave him a small smile.

"OK then." He nodded.

I put my hand on the back of his neck and pulled him down to kiss me.

"Good job not hitting him." He smiled.

"Didn't think it would be wise." I shook my head.

"Call me when you get home, OK?" He let me go and opened my door for me.

I nodded and got in.

I turned my car on and pulled out of the parking lot.

But I pulled around the corner and put it in park when my phone started blowing up.

Did it ever occur to you that I was so upset that you went with Kalum that I got drunk and made a stupid fucking decision?

I took a deep breath, but they just kept coming.

I couldn't even get off because she wasn't you! You are the only thing that ran through my mind that entire time!

And you can ask Connor because I fucking exploded on him. I told him all of that Olivia. That you were the only thing I thought about. That we were happy. That he couldn't just let us be happy. I told him he ruined my fucking life. I tell you I miss you. And then you go and fuck another guy.

Did you ever fucking love me at all? Or was I just the dude you weren't allowed to have and that was the appeal to you?

You know what, no! No, you do fucking love me. You were acting out of hurt. Baby please, please just talk to me! We can work it out, Connor will have to deal with it. Olivia I'm sorry. I fucking love you. Please.

He's not good for you Olivia. He hurt you. He broke your heart. He chose Connor. Do not do it.

I turned my phone off and threw it in to my back seat.

I sped home and went in to the kitchen to see my mom and dad eating ice cream sundae's. At literally 8:30 in the morning.

"Honey?" My mom gave me a look.

I pursed my lips and shook my head.

"Baby what's the matter." My dad put his bowl down.

I took a deep breath, and I broke. I was doing so good, and I broke!

"I love him." I wiped my face.

"Honey what happened." My mom shook her head.

"I'm trying to move on, and I had sex with Kalum." I nodded.

My dad sighed.

"And it wasn't about Mason." I shook my head. "For once it was about me. I had such a good weekend. And then at school Cam punched Mason in the face. Because had sex with Kallie to get back at me this weekend." I cried.

"Baby come here." My dad grabbed my hand and pulled me in to his lap.

"I miss my life, that it was 3 months ago." I buried my face in his shoulder. "Where Mason and I would just throw shit in each others faces, and not care what the other did. I miss spending all my time with Abby, and Josh and Sie. I miss my lunches with Oaken. And I miss when Connor didn't hate me." I sniffled. "I ruined, everything." I nodded. "I ruined the best thing that ever happened to me because I couldn't give him more time. I ruined my relationship with Connor because I just couldn't listen. And I know he's trying to get back to normal. But he won't even look at me the same." I shook my head. "One of the three people I love most in this world, hates me. And it's my fault." My dad wrapped his arms around me and squeezed.

"I don't hate you Ol." I heard from the kitchen door way.

I turned and saw Connor leaning against the doorway.

"Mom, dad, can we have a minute please?" He pursed his lips.

They both nodded.

My dad set me in the chair next to his, and COnnor sat down when they walked out.

"How did you get here?" I shook my head and wiped my face.

He held up Sienna's keys. "Girlfriend."

"You mean my best friend. Who I was fully supportive of you with." I nodded.

"Olivia. This is exactly why I didn't want you two being together. Because when Mason is pissed and drunk, he does shit like this without thinking." He shook his head.

"Do you realize how many times I've pissed him off in the past 3 months and he hasn't done this?" I crossed my arms.

"I didn't come to talk to you about Mason Olivia. What the hell happened over the weekend?"

"I went to a concert, and I had sex with the kind of guy I need in my life. As opposed to a guy who is exactly like you." I nodded.

"And what the hell is that supposed to mean?" He crossed his arms.

"This entire situation, neither of you thought of how I felt." I shook my head. "You only cared about the fact that I was with your best friend, and he only thought about the fact that I was your little sister. Neither of you thought about your relationships with me. I have been slowly dying for the past week because you couldn't put your ego in check and realize that I was fucking happy Connor. All I wanted to do was tell you. But he wasn't ready because of your friendship. Your friendship with him has always been more important to you than me. His friendship with you has always been more than me. And I am done being chose second. So I am going to bust my ass, and I'm gonna try to be with the guy who is right for me. Because you have done everything in your power to show me just how much Mason isn't. And you're right. So like I said. I hope you're happy. You have your best friend. But you and I, you don't love me."

"Yes I fucking do." He nodded. "Olivia most the time, I love you, Oaken, and Jake more than life it's self because you three have gotten me through every single obstacle in my life. But I'm not ready for you to be destroyed by a guy like Mason!"

"When is it going to kick in that Mason destroyed me, because of you! You are the one who destroyed me Connor. Because not only did Mason chose you. You chose him." I stood up. "Congratulations Connor. You wanted us to be nothing. And now, you and I are nothing too." I shook my head and walked out of the kitchen.

I can not wait to go to dance.

I am fucking done.

I'm going to go dance my ass off. Make this my best student choreo I've done, I am going to teach Laylynn this dance we're doing like my life depends on it, I am going to go get dinner with Kalum and Laylynn, and I am going to be a duck.

I'm going to push myself to move on.

If it walks like a duck, and it quacks like a duck, it's moving the fuck on.

I'm moving the fuck on.

I hope.