We were right now at jin oppa's 🏠 door.

I ringed the bell and few seconds later oppa opened the door.

Y/n - " hello oppa."

Tae - " Hey hyung."

Jin - " Hello, hello..come , come inside."

He greeted us with a warm smile but I noticed something funny on his face.

Jin oppa, the worldwide handsome, who used to take care of his face soo much, had dark circles under his eyes

I think jihyun is not letting him sleep.

I internally giggled.

As we entered the living room I saw Dahyun sitting on the couch watching TV and jihyun in her crib near the couch.

I kept the bags on the table and quickly made my way towards jihyun.

Thank God she was not sleeping.

Y/n - " Hey baby!"

I said to jihyun, who was just looking at me cutely.

Dahyun - " Hello there, if you forgot let me remind you, u have a friend in this house as well who u haven't greeted yet."

She said in an annoyed tone.

Y/n - " Hello hyunie!"

I said nonchalantly still playing with jihyun.

Tae hugged Dahyun and came towards me to meet jihyun.

Tae - " Hello princess!"

He said in a baby voice caressing her cheeks.

I turned around to look at Dahyun's and asked

Y/n - " Hyunie, can I bring her out of the crib and hold her?"

Dahyun - " Finally atleast u turned to look at me ."

Y/n - " Yah! Why are you being so jealous of me and my niece......tell me can I bring her out."

She nodded with a smile.

I excitedly but carefully pulled her out and sat on the sofa holding her.

I played with her for a while when tae said

Tae - " Y/n, I haven't held her even once let me hold now."

He said with a whiny tone.

Y/n - " Okk....but do you even know how to hold her?"

Tae - " No, tell me."

I carefully handed jihyun to tae who was smiling widely.

Y/n - " Support her head."

Tae - " She is super light.....is she fine?"

He said in a worried tone.

We all laughed.

Jin - " She is born few days ago... ofcourse she would be light dumbhead."

Y/n - " Btw I bought some some stuff for her."

I said pulling out the things from the bags.

Dahyun - " Aww....this dress is so cute..give it to me."

I handed her the dress.

Y/n - " Hyuniee..I also bought new mom stuff for you."

Dahyun - " Thank you "

She said cutely.

Jin - " Yahh! You all just buy stuff for jihyun and her mom but what about me I am also a new dad why no body brings anything for me."

He said with his popular Rap style scolding.

Y/n - " I bought something for you too oppa."

I said making him curious.

Then I put my both hands inside the bag and then bring them out showing him finger hearts.

Y/n - " I brought lots of love for you oppa."

His smile turned to frown but he smiled again and laughd a little.

After talking and playing with jihyun, she felt asleep so we place her back in the crib and decided to leave.

Btw I clicked so many pictures of jihyun with me and tae and even her solo pics.

So, it's been 10 months since our marriage.

I can't believe that two more months and it will be an year.

About my feelings? well I have lot to talk about it.

Since Tae got the confirmation that I am comfortable around him he is being extra clingy, I am not complaining tho..but he still stays in his limits and don't go overboard if you know what I mean.

On the other hand...I did started getting feelings around him after he confessed but at that time I thought it is because I finally started to see him as a man...but now those feelings are grown manifold.

I never thought that his closeness would make my heart go out control but it happened...I do get butterflies when he compliments me, kisses me or says I love you.

About I love you.... I have heard him saying it many times....but now it feels different,... initially I used to feel blessed but now I feel melting down when he says I love you.

His presence around me definitely gives me a funny feeling in the stomach.

All these are the signs that I have fallen in love with him.

But

I am still not sure..... what if it's not true love,what if I am just feelings these things because 'he' loves me...so I want to get confirmed myself before confessing anything to him.

I know he is waiting for my confession,

I know I might be testing his patience but

I don't want to do anything in haste...I want to be so sure about my feelings so that nothing and no one could waver my feelings for him.

I want them to be permanent and true.

Btw right now I am in the kitchen preparing dinner for us.

Nowadays I really look forward for him to come home...yeah! yeah!ok you can say I miss him.

I was in the middle of my cooking process when my phone kept on the dining table rang.

Y/n - " Oh God! Who is calling now?"

I switched the stove off cause I don't want my precious food to be burnt while I am attending the call.

I went towards the dining table and saw the caller ID.

Y/n - " Tae?..why is he calling me? He should be home by now?"

I picked up the phone.

Y/n - " Hello?"

??? - " Hello? Who's this?"

This was definitely not tae's voice but some other man's.

I again checked the caller ID and it was tae's number only

Y/n - " Umm you are calling me from my husband's number so who are you?"

I said politely.

??? - " oh okay, actually mam your husband has met with a car accident and we are taking him to the "xxxx" hospital."

I was shocked as hell and my mind went blank, this thing took me soo off gaurd

??? - " Hello, hello mam are you there?"

Y/n - " Y-yeah, I'll come t-there."

I said with a broken voice.

Call ended

As I cut the call my tears started falling and I realized what I got to know right now.

Y/n - " T-tae..a-acident?"

My knees felt weak..I held the chair to maintain my balance.

Then I snapped back and quickly ran outside with my car keys.

I drove as fast as I can and my tears can't stop flowing.

Y/n's mind - " please be fine tae, please."

I reached the hospital, parked my car and dashed out towards the building.

I entered the hospital building trying to look for the reception when I saw a stretcher in front of me with someone on it

Not just someone but Tae, he was covered with blood all over his face, arms,legs.

That sight was unbearable,

I felt my world shattered...a loud sob left my mouth and my knees gave up making me fall on the ground.

Y/n - " T-tae?"

His stretcher was pushed toward the nearby OT.

Just then a person who was with tae, came towards me, while I was still sitting on the floor crying.

??? - " Are you his wife?"

I nodded weakly.

He helped me get up.

And took me towards his OT and made me sit down on the bench infront of it.

Y/n - " What happened?"

I asked him between my tears.

??? - " Your husband was hit by another car, the driver was probably drunk....and died on the spot.....I witnessed the accident and called the ambulance."

Y/n - " T-thank you....but what about his condition."

I asked nervously.

??? - " He has lost quite a lot of blood, even may have some concussions....it is a little difficult situation but I am sure he will be okay."

My tears which stopped for a second started flowing again.

??? - " umm I'll be leaving, please be strong...I'll pray for his well being."

I nodded while looking down and that man left.

I covered my face with my hands and started crying.

I realized one thing and that is

,

yes I do... to the extent that i don't think my life has any meaning without him.

And being my slow and dumb self I realized it just now...in this extreme situation.

It was tae's birthday today...He is turning 27 today.

I planned a surprise dinner date for him at the beach...he love beaches.

We reached our destination.

Y/n - " okay, open your eyes now."

He opened his eyes and saw a beautifully decorated area with a table with two chairs.

Y/n - " Happy birthday."

I said throwing my hands up.

Tae - "You planned all this?"

He asked with an amazed smile.

Though I know I am very bad at surprises but looking at him smiling so happily made me proud of myself.

Y/n - " yes!"

Tae - " Thank you....I love you."

He said hugging me.

Y/n's mind - " ahh! Don't keep saying I love you.... It gives me goosebumps."

We are having the dinner which was obviously tae's favourites.

After that we decided to take a walk along the beach.

Tae was holding my hand.

Y/n - " Tae, what you want to achieve till your next birthday?"

I asked curiously.

Tae - " An ' I love you too' from you."

Y/n - " He was craving to listen to those three words from me and I just....."

I choked on my tears unable to complete the sentence.

We were sitting in the living room watching a movie.

There was a pregnant lady in the movie who was having difficulty in walking down the stairs...and suddenly she starts screaming because her water broke.

Tae - " Ughh....this is unbearable for me to see."

He said making an uncomfortable face.

Y/n - " You again start thinking about me in this situation?"

I said turning to him.

Tae - " I wish we were sea horses."

I gave a confused laugh

Y/n - " What?"

Tae - " So that instead of you I would carry the babies."

He said with a sad pout.

I burst out laughing at his thoughts and his cute face.

Y/n - " He loves me soo much!"

I said smiling in pain.

Y/n's mind - " Tae, please fight...don't give up..I have yet to confess to you...please don't dare to leave me...I'll die without you.....I love you....God, please help him."