I laid in bed while making videos of myself.

"Baby are you okay, why are you drunk!?"I sat up and asked Lontrell as he tumbled his way into our room.

"I'm not drunk baby!"he said while coming to stand in front of me.

"Yes you are"I said before he grabbed my face and kissed me.

He then just stared at me.

"You wanna leave me!?"he asked me and I scrunched my face up.

"What are you talking about baby, I love you!"

"You don't love me! You know who you love!?"

"Who do I love !?"

"Them niggas! You love them niggas that you be laughing with!"he exclaimed while mushing me very hard with his finger.

"What are you talking about Lontrell!?"I chuckled.

"What's wrong with me baby!? I got all the money in the world, ya kids, and a big ass dick that you love to sit on!! What the fuck is wrong with me!!?"he yelled.

"Sssshh everybody's asleep, okay!?"

"Yea I'm very aware of that!"

"Do you really wanna fuck with a basketball player!? Or am I just not fucking perfect enough for you!!!?"he yelled once again.

"You- I- Lontrell wh—"I began to say before he punched me in my face.

I grabbed my nose before looking down in my hand seeing blood.

When I looked back at Lontrell he was smiling causing me to burst out in tears.

"Think about what you did!!— See I don't wanna hurt you baby, because if I do that then ima have to kill you! But you can't just be embarrassing me, talking to other mfs when I'm not around!"

"Lontrell I'm sorry!!! I- I didn't mean anything by it!"

"Aight so what's yo fucking reason!?"

"Skylar had dropped her pacifier in the mall, he saw it and brought it to me! Somehow we just ended up talking. No I don't wanna be with him or anything like that Lontrell! I love you!!"

He started laughing while walking to the other side of the room.

"I saw the way you were looking at him Suhan!! I'm not fucking crazy! You wanna fuck him don't you!? All because Skylar dropped her pacifier now you wanna fuck him just like you fuck me, huh!?"he yelled.

"N- no I- I don't!!"I cried before he slapped me twice.

"Bitch lie again!"

"Lontrell you're fucking crazy, why are you doing this to me!!?"I cried dryly while trying to scoot away from him but he pulled me back by my leg.

"What you running for? I ain't gone hurt you baby, I just wanted to teach you a lesson about fucking with me! Keep on and you gone learn a life lesson, it won't be no more us!"he said before walking away.

I watched as he walked out of the room before slamming the door.

As I sat up to look around there was from my nose blood everywhere.

It had stopped bleeding though.

I got up and went to the bathroom.

There was dried blood on my mouth and shirt, my cheek was cut, and my lip was busted.

I didn't wanna worry myself about the bruises so I just got undressed before getting into the shower.

Honestly I don't know how to feel about this situation.

I can't say that I didn't know it would happen again because I did, just didn't know when.

I've been thinking about divorcing him but I really wasn't sure, I think I'm ready now though.