I groaned as the sun beamed through my room and I popped my head up.

Once I opened my eyes I looked around the bed seeing Sam and Sienna knocked out.

Sienna was laying next to me while Sam laid in between us but at the bottom of the bed with her legs on top of mine.

Last night we had a big ass party for the new year here at my house.

I invited my family and friends along with their kids, I cooked, we played games, and lit the street up with fireworks.

My girls and I are back in Atlanta and we're better.

After leaving the house in L.A. we haven't been back.

I left all of our other things back there and got my cars shipped here.

I'm no longer in a relationship with Lontrell and I haven't seen Landon ever since the week after we left when Shiesty came to get him from me.

I had told Shiesty to bring Landon to visit us here in Atlanta earlier this week so that he could be with us for the New Year but he never got back to me.

As far as co-parenting, I don't know where we stand.

He barely even calls to check on Sisi and Sam anymore, but I do see him living it up with Landon on social media almost every day.

For Christmas my girls didn't even get anything from him.

I'm not pressed because like I said before, I had to do this shit on my own before he came in the picture and I'll do it again.

Just better this time.

My store and studio is still opened in L.A. and I have Steve down there managing it until I'm available to go up there.

I'm looking to open a new store and studio down here in Atlanta since I just bought a new house.

My house isn't fully furnished yet but I'm working on that also.

It's gonna take a lot but it's worth it.

I moved Sam's legs up off of mine and got out of the bed.

Before leaving out of the room I put her in my spot up under the cover.

After making it to the living room I began to clean up the big ass mess.

There was confetti everywhere along with balloons and cups, just a lot of trash.

When I was done cleaning I went into my bathroom and hopped in the shower.

"Ma-ma!!"I heard Sienna yell and I looked in the living room seeing her standing up.

"Sienna sit down and eat your food baby!"

After I got myself dressed I cooked breakfast while they were still sleep.

Today I'm planning on taking them out to play in the snow and build snowmen and snow angles.

Then we might just come in and do some arts and crafts before I cook lunch.

"Mommy someone is ca—oh it's daddy!"Sam said and I watched as she answered my phone.

"Wassup Sam, I miss you!"I heard Landon say.

It looked as if they were on FaceTime.

"Hi L.A. I miss you too"

"Where Sisi at?"

"She's right here, say hey to Landon Sisi"she said while putting Sienna in the camera and Sisi just waved as she ate one of her oranges.

"Where's daddy?"Sam asked Landon.

"He's right here"he said before there was shuffling.

"Wassup wassup"

"Hi daddy!"

"Dada!!"Sisi yelled.

"Wassup fat, I miss y'all"he said and I rolled my eyes.

"We miss you too daddy!"Sam said.

"What y'all been doing? Y'all been being good?"

"Yea we been having fun though"

"That's good. Whenever ya mama give me the green light to come see you, I'll be on my way!"

"Mama you heard that!?"Sam grown ass said while looking at me.

I just nodded.

"Yea we was bout to come this weekend but she didn't send me the address to y'all house so we couldn't come!"he said and I scrunched my face up.

I was about to get my phone from Sam and go the fuck off on him but I decided not to.

"Well when can you come see us!?"Sam asked him.

"Whenever ya mama give me ya address"

"Oh okay mommy can you give it to him now?"

"No, I'll do it later. Maybe."

"This bitch"I heard Shiesty mumbled lowly while laughing.

"Aight Sam daddy gotta get back to work Ima talk to y'all later Aight?"

"Okay daddy"

"Bye bye dada!"Sisi said.

"Bye bye Fat, I love y'all"

"We love you too daddy!"Sam said before she hung up.

The reason why I have yet to send him my address is because he hadn't asked me then on top of that, they're not even in Atlanta yet.

I swear he's gonna try to do everything in the world just to say I'm not a fit mother or some shit.

"Ma-ma I done"Sisi said while walking in here in the kitchen with her plate.

"Thank you, was it yummy?"I asked her as I grabbed her plate.

"Mhm"she nodded while smiling.

"Yea I can tell it was, you got a little food baby"I giggled while tickling her little belly causing her to laugh.

"Ma-ma tan I duice!?"she asked me and I nodded.

"Go get your cup out of my room"I said and she ran off before going to my room.

"A..b..chee...d..e..f..g...."I heard Sienna singing her abc's as she walked through the living room.

Sam and I started singing along with her and when we were all done we laughed.

"Y'all are silly, I love y'all"I said while pouring apple juice in Sienna's cup.

"Wu-you-too"

"We love you too mommy!"Sam yelled.

"Y'all wanna go outside and play in the snow?"

"Yesssss!!"Sam screamed and Sienna did the same after her.

"Okay well mommy's gonna go put on her gear and I'm gonna get y'all ready okay?"

"Otay"

"Okay"

I chuckled before going to my room and getting ready.

Today should be fun.

"Aye nigga finish packing that shit up, what you doin!?"I said to Landon.

"Mmcht. I'm tired"

"Shit I am too but this shit ain't gone pack itself and we need to be up outta hur by Monday so hurry up bro! Yeen got that much to go"

He got up and continued packing.

I know I fucked up big time and I ain't seen Suhan or Sisi nem in a whole month.

I been using that same ass excuse cause I'm thinking bout surprising all three of em.

I'm moving L.A. and I back to Atlanta and from there once we get settled Ima have everything ready for Suhan and the girls.

Just cause I fucked up that don't mean Ima just stop trying.

I know the materialistic shit don't matter but Suhan gone get whatever I have to offer and if she don't take it then Ima just leave her alone for a while.

Ring on or not, that's still my fiancé and the woman I wanna be with.

Yea I chill with bitches from time to time but I ain't sticking dick in these bitches.

Sometimes I just need somebody else to remind me what I got at home, so I don't lose myself.

Hopefully this shit works out and if it don't then that's fine but I promise it won't be my last time trynna win my family back.