I groaned while turning over to my phone ringing off the mfn chain.

I looked to the side of me seeing Sienna and Samaria knocked out.

They had came to sleep with me last night since Shiesty was gone to LA.

I sat up and grabbed my phone off of the charger.

There was missed calls and messages from mostly Shiesty then Pam then my mama then Tomiya then Cali then Andre.

I played Inky Binky Bonky to see who I should answer to first and Pam won.

I got out of the bed and went into the living room while answering the phone.

"Hello?"

"Hey, Suhan have you been on social media yet!?"

"No why?"I chuckled.

"Well someone might've got into your accounts and hacked you because there's a video of you and someone else going across social media!"

"What video?"I asked kinda unbothered.

"You'll have to see for yourself but don't panic! I got this all under control and I'm gonna have someone get the shit taken down. Do you know who could've hacked you?"

"Nope"

"Alright well I'm gonna go make some phone calls to get this shit taken down but I need you to rethink your passwords or something babe"

"Alright, thank you"

"Just doing my job"

"Yea thanks"I said before hanging up.

I was trynna see this fucking video.

I went to my Instagram and of course people we're sending it to me.

I watched the video and it was me on top of somebody riding them.

Not just no somebody either.

It was Lawrence.

My face was only being shown in the video though.

I knew he was crooked but not this fucking crooked.

I'm honestly not mad about the video because I was really doing the fool on his dick.

The whole video kinda turned me on a lil but I had to remember that Shiesty was gone.

Nope I still haven't told him about the whole lil situation with Lawrence and I'm not going to yet.

I think that if I tell him he's gonna be fucking furious.

If he finds out on his on then so be it but I'm not saying a damn thing until I'm ready.

I called him next.

He answered on the first fucking ring.

"You aight!?"

"Umm yea why wouldn't I be?"

"Cus you got a whole fucking porno out"

"I know I already saw the video and talked to Pam about it"

"What she say?"

"She said she's gonna get somebody to take the video down and shit"

"I mean it ain't too much taking down they can do the shit is out there now!"

"Yea I- I really don't care"

"Why you don't?"

"Because it's out there now what can I do!!?"

"Get on Twitter or ig or some and defend yo name"

"Why should I have to do that?"

"You better do some before mfs make a fool outta yo ass. I already said what I had to say about the shit"

"Alright"

"Aight where my girls at?"

"They're still sleep"

"Y'all must've had a party last night or some shit?"

"I mean we did kinda pull an all nighter and baked a cake and made tik toks"

"You waited until I left to say you baked a cake?"

"I mean I didn't know you were gonna want some but I'll save you a piece"

"What kind is it anyways?"

"It's a half and half cake. I don't eat chocolate so we just put chocolate on one side and vanilla on the other side"

"Oh yep, save me a piece of both"

"I got you Poppa"

"Aight Ima talk to y'all later I gotta get ready to go do this fucking interview. Yo ass better do what I said too"

"Okay I will baby"

"Aight, I love you"

"I love you too"

"Aight"he said before hanging up.

I went to his Instagram story and watched the video he had just posted earlier.

"Aye don't nun of y'all mfs say nun to my girl. Some pussy ass nigga put the shit out there, but it's all good. Nigga just wanted his lil fifteen seconds of clout and he got it. I mean when you getting money and doing good the devil gone keep working. But shit after Suhan speak on the shit it's dead we don't hur shit else about it, so don't address us with the bullshit no more that goes for everybody!"

I threw my phone down on the couch and went to the bathroom and started on my hygiene.

After that I hopped in the shower.

"Mommy look Sienna is walking!!"I heard Samaria yell and I walked out of the kitchen.

"Oh my god!!!"I exclaimed while grabbing my phone and calling Shiesty.

"Wassup?"he answered.

"Baby look Sienna is walking!!"I said while turning the camera towards her.

"Ayyye, that's my girl!!"he yelled and she fell while laughing after trynna grab the rattle from Sam.

"Good job mama!!"I cooed while smiling.

"High five Sisi!"Sam said to her and she gave her a high five.

"Big girl!! You're getting so big mama!"I cooed and she screamed while laughing.

"Okay baby that's all I wanted"

"Aight Ima call you after this hour long ass interview"

"Alright baby"I said before hanging up the phone.

"Mommy can I have a pop tart and some fruit?"Sam asked me.

"I was gonna cook breakfast"

"I want a pop tart and some fruit though!"

"Alright what kind of pop tart and what kind of fruit?"

"A blueberry pop tart and some oranges"

"Okay"

I headed back into the kitchen and cut up her some oranges and then put her pop tarts on a plate.

"Here Samaria"I said while sitting her plate on the table.

"Can I have something to drink?"

"Yea but it's gonna have to be water"

"Why not juice?"

"Yesterday I let you drink too much juice so today it's gonna be a water day for you and your sister"

I went back into the kitchen and poured her a cup of water then I made Sienna a bottle.

"Here Sisi"I said to her and she grabbed her bottle.

After making sure they were both situated I went into my bathroom and hopped on live.

Since I was a trending topic right now there was a lot of viewers as soon as I started it.

I took out my hair stuff while waiting on more viewers to come in.

Once they were in I started reading the comments before talking.

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"Okay first let me say this, I didn't cheat on anybody!! However, I'm not gonna lie and say that the girl in the video isn't me because it is. That video, the "porno" y'all talm bout was made six years ago. The guy in the video is someone who I was just messing with at the time. Did I know that I was being recorded, yes. I trusted him though so I never thought that he'd be the type to release the video to the public. Am I embarrassed? Yes only on the behalf of my family and my kids. I'm sorry that you all had to wake up and see me having sex all over social media and I apologize to my kids if this does end up hindering their future"

"I mean everybody has a past though. I was young as hell and that was a mistake that I made from dealing with the wrong person. Now I know not to trust someone as much as I did with that guy unless they're my husband. And I wasn't as smart as I am now but y'all young girls out there use my situation as an example. Don't go around just dating anybody and letting anybody just control you and have access to you like this because you see now I'm the one being bashed for this. I'm not upset about it or anything but I mean I guess it was just a lesson that I had to learn from God"

"One thing I can say though is that I've changed drastically. I have two beautiful daughters now and I'm touching way more money than I was before I stopped working at Blue Flame. Not doing no out of bound stuff either. Doing something that I actually enjoy doing. ...but yea that's really all I wanted to get on here and say. Before I go though I want to give a big thank you to my team for helping me and supporting me during this situation. I also want to give a big thank you to my bae, Pooh Shiesty, for being supportive in this situation along with anybody else. Thank you all this is my first and last time speaking on this and I'm hoping we can move past this situation."I said before exiting the live.

I sighed before going back to doing my hair.

I never knew that all this would come with being a star or just well known to the public.

Maybe this is just the beginning and I have more to learn.