"You ready baby?"I asked Diamond after I finished rolling my last blunt.

"Yep!"She said while taking a picture in the full body mirror that was on the wall.

I hopped right in it behind her and wrapped my arms around her while nibbling on her ear.

"Babyyy..."she laughed while moving forward as I started kissing her neck.

"Aight come on"I said while grabbing my shit before we left out.

Tonight my family having a dinner party and balloon release in honor of my brother.

I'm bringing Diamond along with me, and I invited Suhan and the girls.

I told her not to start no shit Cus yesterday at the funeral I saw her mugging Suhan.

If she start some shit today Ima make her ass leave.

I could tell my family was bonding more with Suhan than her but I told Diamond not to worry.

Shit when my mama first found out about Diamond she asked me where Suhan was.

I know she wants me with Suhan but right now I'm trynna seek as many of my options as I can.

If Suhan wants me back then she'll say that or do some bout it.

Until then Ima keep doing me.

After getting settled in the car my driver pulled off and we headed to the restaurant.

"Oooh that's my song turn that up!"she said to my driver and he turned the radio up.

It was You and I by Avant and Keke Wyatt.

"Oh boy, you and I!! One hell of a chemistry, baby I, I'm living out this life for you!!"she sang to me while kissing my lips.

I kissed her back while groping her ass.

She tried to pull away but I grabbed her jaw and kissed her again.

"You been drinking?"I asked her.

"I just had two shots of Henny"

"Sure you ain't had more than that?"

"I don't think so"

I shook my head while hitting my blunt.

"Why you worried bout me drinking?"

"I ain't I just don't want you acting up tonight"

"Baby I'm not gonna be acting up, I'm a good girl you know I am"she slurred while kissing me and trynna unbutton my pants.

I ain't stop her or nun I let her do it.

I need all the head and weed I can get right now.

With Tee dying I've been stressed out lately.

I can't get to my lowest though Cus I gotta be there for my mama nem.

"Shiest!!"30 said while dapping me up as I walked into the dinner room with Diamond on the side of me.

"Wassup nigga"

"Hey"Diamond said while he was walking back to the table.

"Well fuck you, you big bitch"she mumbled and I chuckled.

"Daddy!!!"I heard and I turned around seeing Sam running towards me.

I looked behind her seeing Suhan holding Sienna.

She was looking bad as hell.

She had on this all red wrap top that only covered her titties, these tight ass black jeans, and a pair of all red Bottega Veneta sandals with a red Chanel bag.

Her hair was pulled up into a bun and she had on a lot of jewelry.

"Wassup Princess!!"I said while lightly pinching her jaw then picking her up.

"Hi daddy!"she said while kissing my cheek and I kissed hers back before putting her back down.

"Hey Sam, girl you look cute"Diamond said and Sam just stood there innocently beside her mama while looking at Diamond.

"Uht- you not gone speak?"she said while laughing.

"Say hey Samaria"Suhan said to her.

Sam just waved.

"She good"I said.

"Wassup my other princess!!"I said while grabbing Sienna from Suhan.

"She's so cute, I can't believe you made some cute babies. We should make one tonight"Diamond said while kissing me.

Suhan rolled her eyes.

"Aye go find us a seat"I said to Diamond.

"I didn't speak to baby mama, hey Suha girl"

"It's Suhan!"

"Oh I heard Shiesty call you Suha so I thought that's what you went by"

"Nah it's Suhan!!"

"Oh well my bad"she giggled before walking off.

"Bitch!"I heard Suhan say as she watched her.

"You gone stay with your daddy or come back with mommy?"she asked Sienna.

"She good with me"I said.

"Alright well just bring her to me when you don't want her no more"

"Aight" I said before going around the table and speaking to everybody.

After doing that I went to give Sienna back to her mama then I went to sit down.

Diamond sat on my lap and I tapped her.

"Yes baby?"

"What you doing?"I asked her.

"Nothing, you said go find us a seat"

"I meant separately"

"I know what you meant baby"she said before trynna kiss all over me but I stopped her.

"Get up and find you a seat"I said.

The two seats that were next to me was seats taken by my mom and 30, and I wasn't moving.

That's the only thing she ain't fuck up by, choosing the right seat.

"Why can't I stay right here?"

"Cus you ain't finna be getting on my damn nerves, get up"

"I know you not trynna act funny Cus that bitch is here?"she whispered in my ear.

"Mane gone on with that shit and go find a seat"

"It's okay, you just ain't gone get no pussy tonight"She said before getting up.

I shook my head while watching her.

She went and sat right in front of Suhan.

The table was an oval shaped table.

We was at the end, more like at the round part.

Suhan was sitting on the right side and Diamond had sat on the left side.

Ima keep an eye on the both of them Cus ion want them bumping heads, Diamond done already caused enough shit.

I looked up seeing the waiters coming in with everybody's food.

I mentally sighed as Diamond sat in front of me.

At this point I was ready to smack this bitch.

I guess because I'm the baby mama, she think she can keep making all these smart remarks.

That's what's really gone get the bitch smacked the fuck up.

Then the bitch got the nerve to speak to me and my kids.

I went ahead and made Sam speak Cus I was just trynna be cordial but the bitch is pushing it.

The food had came and what I had on my plate was Beef Enchiladas, rice, retried beans, and a small side bowl of spinach dip with tortilla chips.

I also had a Margarita.

I was going in tonight.

I ordered Sam a plate of nachos with a slushy, and for Sienna I'm just gonna feed for some of her baby food that I brought in her bag.

Even though she had half of a bottle before we got here she might be hungry again.

Sienna can eat.

On the days that I feed her milk only she eats eight and a half ounces for breakfast, lunch, and dinner.

My food might get cold but I don't care because my baby has to get fed first.

I took out the containers of Chicken Apples and Green beans baby food from her bag along with two spoons.

"You ready to eat baby?"I asked her before opening both containers.

I pulled her stroller closer to me and kinda in between I and Sam's seats.

I helped her sit up and pushed back the canopy.

I put some of the Chicken Apples on the spoon and placed the spoon in her mouth.

"Mmmm is that's good?"I asked while watching he clap as she ate.

She wanted some more so she started bouncing in her seat.

I chuckled while giving her some more.

"Mommy can I have some of that big slushy you have?"Samaria asked me.

"That's not a slushy baby"I said while laughing.

"It is"

"It's not a slushy for kids"

"Niece say she trynna dance on tables tonight!!"Veeze said.

"I promise you ain't nobody going to no damn hospital tonight either"I said and most of the people who were sitting on this end laughed.

After I get done feeding Sisi I'm going in on my shit.

"Ooooh this my song!!!!"I heard Diamond yell as she got out of her seat and the song Damage by H.E.R. came on.

This bitch was drunk as fuck and couldn't even control herself.

I done drunk this whole big ass margarita and I ain't said a word.

I'm a lil tipsy but I ain't all over the place and filthy fucking drunk.

"If you got it, it ain't no question. No, it ain't no room for guessing. No more than emotionally invested. Showing you all my imperfections, oh. If I let you, you'll take me for granted, yeah. If I'm worth more than you could manage, manage, yeah. Open with me, oh, we could be honest. Closer to me, oh, giving me solace. Promise that you won't let me fall!!"she sang loudly while hugging and kissing on Shiesty.

He looked quite embarrassed.

"Everybody done eating? I think it's time to take this shit to the rooftop!"he said while standing up.

We all started getting up and shit.

I had to strap Sienna back down in her stroller.

We all got situated and headed to the rooftop.

Someone in their family had brought lots of balloons to release for their brother.

Shiesty's ghetto ass had fireworks.

"Lontrell now you know these people ain't gone let us do no fireworks on top of their building"Gladys said.

"After this we leaving anyways so if we get kicked out oh well"he said.

"Aight everybody got a balloon!?"he yelled.

"Yea"everybody said.

"Aight y'all know like I know Tee Da P was the light of everybody's day. Shit sad how he had to leave us hur all alone! When God send for us though, we gotta go and everybody gone get there one day. But I'm pretty sure Tee wouldn't want us all down bad bout this shit so we gotta move on and put a smile on our faces. Just be happy that he made it and continue to do it for him. So after I say Who we doin it for I want y'all to say Tee Da P then we gone release the balloons!"

"WHO WE DOIN IT FOR!!?"

"TEE DA P!!"everybody yelled before releasing their balloons.

Ion know why but I had shed a few tears myself.

I could tell Shiesty was deeply hurt by his brother's death but he was trynna hide it.

I couldn't imagine the pain he was feeling right now, him or his mama.

After the balloons all disappeared the fireworks let off and we all watched them.

It was beautiful.

I'm not gone lie though I'm ready to go back to the room and get in the damn bed.

After this I'm going back getting my girls ready for bed along with myself then I'm hopping right in the bed myself.