Finn sat in his bedroom stunned for a few minutes before he quickly jumped up and ran to her room. He tried the door but found that it was locked ‘El please let me in?’ he begged. He needed to talk to her, to explain but most of all he needed to tell her he loved her because he did. That hadn’t changed. 

He admitted that he was confused about his feelings for Serena but he was not confused about his feelings for Rachel and she needed to know that. 

No answer came from the room and after five minutes of knocking Finn gave up and retreated to the living room where he buried in his head in his hands. 

‘You fucking asshole’ Maria’s voice yelling at him as she slammed into the apartment startled him. 

‘Maria what?’ he questioned her he had no idea why she was here. 

‘How could you?’ she asked him then. 

‘Rachel called you?’ he asked. 

‘Of course she did although I could barely understand a word she said because of how hard she was crying’ 

‘Oh god Ria I fucked up really bad’ he broke down then. 

‘Yeah you did you asshole’ she told him. She felt no sympathy for him anymore. He had caused everything. It had been his idea to ‘postpone forever’ it had been him who had started dating and fucking other people and it had been him that had broken the rules. 

‘I cant believe while she’s spent the last three months miserable missing you and making plans to talk to you about ending this bullshit charade that she’s hated since day one, you’ve been out falling in love with someone else’ she yelled. 

‘Hey’ Finn yelled back ‘I haven’t been out falling in love with other people, I love her and she’s been dating other people too you know’ he told her. He knew that he was completely in the wrong but it wasn’t as though Rachel had told him that she was miserable with their arrangement. But you should have known his conscious told him. 

Maria scoffed ‘oh yeah, you would think that. You really haven’t paid an ounce of attention to her for months have you?’ she said sarcastically. 

‘What’s that supposed to mean, I might not have been here as much as I would have normally because of exams and stuff but’ 

‘She’s been lying for months Finn’ Maria told him then ‘she hasn’t been out a date with anyone in over three months and she probably hasn’t slept with anyone else either’ she spat out angrily and watched as Finn's face turned pale. 

‘And then to date Serena of all people considering how much she hates her’ she continued. 

‘Rachel doesn’t hate people Maria’ Finn sighed leaning back into the couch and closing his eyes. 

‘Oh doesn’t she?’ Maria replied sarcastically. 

‘No, I mean I know she doesn’t seem to like Serena for some reason but’ 

‘For some reason?’ Maria roared ‘News flash moron, your girlfriend in a fucking bitch and believe me unlike you I’ve seen her in action. She has gone out of her way to make Rachel's life a living hell all because Rachel is smarter and doing better in class than her’ 

Finn looked shocked at her words and Maria realised that he had obviously never seen that side of the girl. 

‘I didn’t mean for it to happen’ he whispered then. 

‘Did you sleep with her?’ Maria asked then, she needed to know. 

Finn nodded his head sadly. 

‘Slept or sleeping?’ she asked him then. 

‘Only once’ he whispered disgusted with himself. 

‘Why didn’t you just end it when you realised who she was?’ she asked then. 

‘I don’t know’ he sighed ‘there is just something about her that drew me in’ he confessed. 

‘You said you don’t love her well what do you feel for her?’ she asked. 

‘To tell you the truth I’m not sure what it is’ he admitted 

Shaking her head she turned her back on him and started towards Rachel's bedroom ‘Maria please tell her I’m so sorry and that I love her, only her’ he begged. His words caused Maria to stop and turn back around ‘Ok’ she agreed and then she was gone.