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"And in the end all I learned was how to be strong alone."

"What the hell is this??"

Ibtihaj roared in frustration cause even after trying numerous times her hands were not detaching from his face.

Anfal flinched on his roar.

She always used to get afraid when he shouts and now when she was standing this close to him, her body was shivering with fear.

" Ibtihaj you both to take warm shower to melt this."

Amma saod and he hummed.

He pulled back vigorously.

"Ooouch!!!"

A scream left Anfal's mouth when she was dragged towards him but couldn't match his pace and was about to kiss the floor when he took her small waist in his protective grip.

"Gosh!!"

He made her stand her in annoyance.

After some moments of silence he sighed and what he did next was enough to leave everyone flabbergasted.

He encircled his arms around her waist and held her up.

Her feet was in air while Ibtihaj was carrying her in his arms with her hands on his cheek and started walking towards his room.

From far anyone could say that were shooting for a romantic movie but only if you take a closeup look then you'll be able to see the annoyance, anger, frustration, fear and what not in their eyes.

Ibtihaj opened washroom by kicking it and put her down as he reached near shower.

He turned the null and soon warm water started dripping over them.

Ibtihaj's hands were resting on his sides with his head turned sideways.

Her kohal and liners was completely messed up while red substance of her lipstick was melting on her chin.

Hair strands were sticking on the sides of her face tickling her.

She turned her face aside to push them away but they were too stubborn to move.

She tried again and again but then she felt a burning sensation at her cheek and looked upwards to see him who was pinning her hair locks behind her ears. Her breath hitched when his dark eyes looked downward directly in her eyes.

She could feel that her height was too short in front of him. He was looking like a tower to whom she wasn't even reaching till shoulders.

She averted her gaze and he got out of his trance and pulled his hand back.

Unknownliy Anfal missed the warmth of his hand.

Moments passed with them standing this close to each other when Anfal felt her hand separating from his skin.

She tried and this time her hands left his cheeks.

She pulled back and he turned the shower off.

She was about to move out when he called her from behind.

"Where are you going?"

"To my room!!"

She said looking here and there.

"Like this??"

He said moving his finger towards her.

Anfal looked confused but her confusion faded away when she looked in his pointer direction and her mouth hung opened to see her white shirt sticking to her body and almost exposing her whole waist.

She quickly placed her duppata at her front.

Ibtihaj looked at her with amusement and turned his face away.

"Wait here! I will ask narmeen to bring your clothes here!!"

He said and went out.

A blush crept on Anfal's cheek.

"Stop blushing bitch!!!"

She scolded herself smacking her head.

Later narmeen gave her clothes.

After changing she came out of washroom with her wet clothes in her hands and her eyes scanned the whole room.

She had been there once at the night of their wedding.

All the scenes from Hassan's betrayal to her parents cruelness and Ibtihaj's ill behaviour flashed in front of her like a telefilm.

She sighed shrugging her thoughts and went out.

After putting her clothes out in garden to dry she walked towards launch but her steps halted at the door listening to the conversation of Narmeen and Amma.

"Amma why don't you ask Ibtihaj bhai to let Anfal stay in his room?? After all they are married!!"

Narmeen said.

" You know how thry got married. According to Ibtihaj that was not a marriage but a contract. What you think I didn't ask him? I asked him numerous times but he always ignores saying that he will see and will see. I am not pressuring him because I think that Anfal also need some time for all this. She is still too young to understand a husband wife relation and besides somehow she is immature and forgets that she should not disrespect her husband and you know Ibtihaj very well that how he behaves woth those who disrespect them. So somehow it's food for both of them cause they both need time. This all is so new for them."

Anfal felt shivers running all over her body at the thought of living woth him under same roof.

Instead of going in she turned around and went to her room.

She sat on floor circling her arms around her knees drowned in her thoughts.

" Am I that bad that Allah hates me this much? Am I that worthless that no one wants me? First mom dad then Hassan and now Ibtihaj!! Will I ever be able to be a pure and pious Muslim? Will Allah ever be pleased with me?"

She was drowned in her thoughts when sleep engulfed her and her eyes got closed with numerous questions in them.

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Anfal was sitting on bench in garden sipping her coffee looking at the stars when Narmeen came and sat beside her.

"Wanna??"

Anfal smiled stretching coffee mug in front of Narmeen.

"Thank love but I am ful!!"

Narmeen smiled.

Anfal mouthed ok and again went back to staring sky.

"So Narmeen what Amma told you in today's class? Sorry I couldn't take today's class. Can you please repeat it for me??"

Anfal said with puppy face.

"Ok Ok!! Bring your notebook if you wanna write something."

Narmeen said and Anfal ran towards her room.

"In the name of Allah, the Compassionate, the Merciful!!!"

Narmeen started when Anfal sat back with notepad and pen in her hands.

"So it is the 23rd Surah of Qur'an and it's name is Al Muminoon (The Believers). The surah takes its name, Al-Mu'minun, from the first verse.

It was revealed during the middle stage of Prophethood at Makkah."

Narmeen said while Anfal nodded listening and writing.

"About theme now!!"

Narmeen said and Anfal put the heading 'THEME'.

"The central theme of the surah is to invite the people to accept and follow the Message of the Holy Prophet(peace be upon Him) and the whole Surah revolves round this theme."

Anfal nodded.

"After drawning attention to the creation of man and the universe to impress that the whole universe including man's own self, is a clear proof of the truth of the Holy Prophet's Message, which invites the people to accept Tauhid and life in the Hereafter.

Then the stories of the former Prophets and their communities have been cited as historical evidences of the truth of the Message. They prove the following things:

1) Those who raise fingers on Prophet (peace be upon Him)should learn a lesson from their history and judge for themselves whether the Prophets were on the right or their objectors.

2) All the Prophets brought one and the same religion from Allah and they all belonged to one and the same community. All other religions were invented by the people themselves and none of them is from Allah. "

Narmeen took a deep breath and Anfal nodded in confirmation that she is getting everything.

"After relating the stories of the Prophets, a fundamental principle has been enunciated which says,

Success and prosperity in the worldly life is not a criterion of success in the sight of Allah. If some persons (or a person) are enjoying prosperity, wealth, power and the like in this world, it does not mean that they are favorites of Allah. Likewise, the poverty and adversity of other people is not a proof that Allah is displeased with them. The real criterion is Faith (or lack of it)."

Anfal's moving fingers stopped in mid word and this hit her hard.

Her head snapped towards Narmeen who raised brow at her.

Anfal shoke her head and Narmeen continued.

"What do you think Anfal? Hazrat Mohammad (peace be upon Him) and his followers bear lot of criticism and cruelty of people. They were exiled from theor hometown, Makkah.

What do you think that Allah was displeased with them? "

Anfal kept quite.

She was feeling like narmeen was answering the questions she had in her mind about her life.

"No! Allah can never be displeased with His Prophet(peace be upon Him) and the ones who follow Him."

Anfal nodded and Narmeen started explaining verses by verses.

"Quran says,

Most certainly those Believers have attained true success who perform their Salat with humility who refrain from vain things who spend their Zakat dues in appropriate ways who guard their private parts scrupulously, except with regard to their wives and those women who are legally in their possession, for in that case they shall not be blame-worthy, but those, who go beyond this (in lust for sexual desires), shall be transgressors who are true to their trusts and their promises, and who strictly guard their Prayers.These are the heirs who will inherit Paradise and dwell therein for ever."

Anfal felt as if someone had splashed cold water on her.

She was feeling as if Narmeen was telling her about her love story with Haasan which was technically nothing but Haram. She was feeling as if Allah was warning her to stop yearning for those haram things.

"Then Allah sent Hazrat Nuh(A.S) and he said to his people , "O my people, worship Allah alone; you have no other deity than Him. Are you not afraid (of shirk)?"Those of the chiefs of his people, who had rejected his Message, said, "This person is no more than a human being like yourselves. By this, he merely intends to obtain superiority over you.Had Allah willed, He would have sent down angels. Since the time of our forefathers we have never heard (that a human being came as a Messenger). Obviously this man is possessed: wait a little more: (may be he is cured)" . Then getting insulted again and again Nuh(A.S) prayed, "Allah, help me against these people for they have treated me as an impostor."

At this Anfal felt as if Nuh(A.S) was portraying her there cause she was same with no one at her sidebut the major difference was that instead of accusing his Allah he asked for HIS help. This increased the excitement in Anfal for listening more.

"Remember one thing Anfal!! Allah never leaves His people hopeless. In this pandemic when Nuh(A.S) was being assaulted HE asked him to make a ship under HIS instructions. Let me tell you the exact words of Surah!!

"Take aboard a pair of every species of animals, and also the members of your own family except those against whom the judgment has already been passed; and do not plead with Me for the workers of iniquity, for they are doomed to be drowned. Then, when you have boarded the ark along with your companions, say, "Praise be to Allah Who has delivered us from the wicked people."

You know to whom Allah signalling at in these verses??"

Narmeen asked and Anfal shook her head.

"ALLAH is pointing at Nuh (A.S) 's son kunan, who was also among those who refused to put faith on Allah.

Allah says," There are many Signs in this story, and We always put people to the test. This was Nuh (A.S) 's test to leave his son behind to face Allah's wrath. Here!!! ALLAH is giving the message to whole mankind that sometimes Allah testify you by taking your loved ones away from you. All you have to do is to pray and put your firm faith on HIM like Nuh(A.S) did. When He asked Nuh to not ask Allah about saving his child at that time He also gave message to whole mankind to not be with those who can't be with Allah.

After that Allah gave lives to another generation and again sent His Prophet and again those people denied the fact saying, " What! does he tell you that after you are dead and turned into dust and become mere bones, you shall be brought out alive (from graves)? Impossible! Just impossible is that which you are being threatened with. There is no other life than this worldly life. We will live here and die here and will not be raised up again. This man is merely an impostor, who is inventing lies in the name of Allah,36a and we are not going to believe in what he says".

At this the Messenger prayed, "Allah, help me against these people, who have treated me as an impostor". In answer, it was said ,"The time is nearing when they shall be remorseful". In due course a great scourge overwhelmed them in all justice and they were casted away like scum.

" So away with the wicked people!"

Narmeen sighed and Anfal was now sitting like a stone, unmoved!!!

"Allah Morales this in last verses saying,

"Do they think that, by continuing to provide them with wealth and children, We are solicitous for their welfare? Nay, they do not understand the reality of the matter.Those who feel the fear of their Lord; who believe in the Signs of their Lord;who do not associate anyone with their Lord; who give whatever they give, and whose hearts are filled with awe by the very idea that they shall have to return to their Lords; they indeed are the people who work for their true welfare and try to be the first to attain it, We do not burden anyone with more than he can bear. And We have a book which tells accurately (about everyone), and the people will in no case be treated unjustly. But these people are heedless of this,and their deeds are also of a different nature (from those mentioned above)."

Narmeen took breath and continued.

"So for the one who wants to be a pious Muslim and a blessed being should liaten to these words by Allah to know how a pious Muslim looks ike.

No one can be more superior in Allah's vision juat be his branded clothes and wealth and fair complexion BUT to Allah superior is the one who believes on Him and act upon what ever HE said and when He testifies the one, the one shouldn't be depressed cause you, yoursekf heard that Allah said HE doesn't burden anyone more than his will so what's the matter of crying and being depressed over the things that can be changed by prayers and suppletions? You know why most of the depression patients are being found in Europe countries? Because they don't believe in Quran and it's sayings. If someone believes on Allah and Quran and HIS sayings I can guarantee you that he can't be depressed and feel unwanted and ignored cause all he knows that if no one loves him then there still be Someone will love him and be at his side and that someone will be his Allah. "

Narmeen stood up saying.

Shivers ran down to Anfal's spine at her words about depression.

She was thinking that she too is depressed then does that mean she is one of those?

"That's all for today. See you in morning!!!"

Narmeen smiled and went in.

Anfal kept on sitting their in dark with tears on her eyes.

She didn't know why she was crying but she was feeling meaningful for the first time.

For the first time she wasn't hating her existence.

"May be because she got the answers of her asked and unasked questions!!!!

May be because she found someone who can be her therapist!!!!"

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