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Asfa's pov :

I woke up into the middle of the night just to find the bed empty beside me and Humza was missing the bed felt cold without him by my side.

I slept hardly at late night as I puked my guts out and Humza was helping me to get clean, the absence of him beside me was the reason I woke up, I looked around and found the door to the balcony open.

I tied my Raven locks in a messy bun, wore my fuzzy slippers and marched towards the balcony to see Humza praying his tahajjud prayer under the glowing moonlight.

I smiled at the sight which made my heart swell with love, I watched him like a creep as he completed his salah, he didn't acknowledged my presence as he was lost in his thoughts.

As I began to walk towards him he sensed my presence, I squatted down beside him patted his shoulder but he didn't looked up his gaze was fixed on the ground " Humza look at me! " I told him a soft tone but he shook his head in no.

" Humzaa! " my voice was just above a whisper but he pulled me down gently as I fell on his lap and wrapped my legs on the either side of his hips was basically straddling him, I combed his jet black hair backwards with my cold fingers and cupped his face, then made him look at me forcefully.

And a gasp escaped my lips as I saw his emerald orbs filled with tears, he looked so sad and upset at the moment that my heart broke into million pieces.

" If only I had seen the truck arriving the accident could've been prevented no matter how much I try not to blame myself but I end up doing it again and again, if only I could reverse the position he would've been alive by now! " his jaw ticked As he gritted his teeth controlling the shake in his voice.

" she lost her husband and now seeing her getting married brought all the old memories back and my regret is killing me, she's acting happy and bubbly in front of us trying to mask her emotion but we all know how much she'll be hurting inside, I just want to take her pain away! " he put his head down in shame though he was not at fault.

" I know Humza, it's not easy for you nor for her but remember all happens for a reason we can't change the past and I'm saying for the nth time it was not your fault, you barely survived the accident remember! " my voice shook when I remembered seeing him lifeless on the hospital bed.

" sometimes you don't even realise you're blocking your blessings by holding on to the past or thinking negatively, Learn to let it go Humza! " I told him stroking his cheek, he nodded at me with sad eyes as I repeated the words of certain blue eyed bunny who calls me love will always tell these line to me whenever I start over thinking.

" She and Zain will be gone by the end of this day, I don't want her to go! " he told me as his voice cracked at the end and a tear escaped his eye.

" O Humza you're being such a baby, she's just going to be six hours flight away from us! " I told him smiling as my own eyes brimmed with tears.

one thing about my lion, he looks All strong and unbreakable on the outside but only I knew how soft and mushy he's on the inside when it comes to his loved ones.

I hugged him tight as he rested his head on my heartbeat and complained like a baby while sobbing

" But still she'll leave us today, she's my strength if not for her then I don't know what would've happened to me, she is like my second mother, I'm her first baby boy, I don't want zaam to take her away from me but I also want her to be happy! "

I stroked his hair as he cried, no matter how strong we try to act we all break down in someone's arms " I also don't like she leaving us and especially our Zain but we have to let her go, bunny will make her happy and I can assure you that and it's not like she's going away from us forever, it's just New York not like she's in another continent! Stop being dramatic it only suits me! " I joked at the end to lighten the mood as I once start crying I won't stop.

He chuckled a little and nodded still being in my tight embrace, I stroked his hair gently as we stayed like that in that position for a long time just enjoying the peaceful moment of being in each others arms in the middle of the night.

He placed a soft kiss my neck and pulled back just a little until our noses were touching with a small smile on his face, he tucked a lock behind my ear " thank you for always being with me at my lowest times! " he gave me a grateful smile caressing my cheeks, but his eyes were glassy.

" No need to thank me love, we're together in everything which comes in our ways!" I smiled in consoling way and he pecked my lips softly, which made me blush.

" I really wish and pray that this union should bring a lot of happiness and joy in bunny and aals life! " I told him happily and we both mumbled an Aameen under our breath.

" Now you need to be the stronger one who need to support mama because if you too break down then who'll console her! " I told him softly and he nodded at me.

" I'll try my best to stay strong and console her when it's always been the other way around! "

I kissed his cheeks which had turned cold due to the weather, I moved away as he stood up and scooped me in his arms, I snuggled into his hoodie-clad chest as he kissed my temple sweetly.

He carried me to our king size bed as it was still midnight there was one and half hours remaining for fajr, I was so exhausted, we were in spooning position on the bed as he kept stroking my tiny baby bump which made me relax in his arms.

Him being so caring, loving, supporting towards me and our baby just makes me fall in love with him more and more each day.

The best husband I could ever asked for!

Alhamdulillah ya rabbi, For blessing me with an emerald in my life!

Aala's pov :

I was looking at the chirping birds in their nest on the tree trunk, from the open balcony as I gripped the railings hard just basking the early morning sunlight and the peaceful environment to stop the inner battle happening in my mind.

It was an hour after fajr, I tried to sleep but it just seemed impossible for me, it's my nikah today and its still feels unreal to me.

I cried in my sujood for the longest ever in my life just asking Allah to grant me peace and contentment of what he has in store for me in the upcoming future as I don't want to bear another heartache.

Flashback!

" What's more important than me? " I asked keeping my both hands on my hips and standing in front of his seated self on the singlet couch with his MacBook on lap.

He looked up with amusement dancing in his bluish green eyes which made my annoyance to reach another level.

" There's nothing important or interesting than my very beautiful wife but being the CEO comes with its own disadvantages sometimes! "

He was merely stating the fact but I was not having any of it " Oh really but I don't think so, you just ignore me and made me feel left out, You don't love me anymore! " I was overdoing it I know I was being a diva, a spoiled brat here! I just want to get my husbands attention all to myself!

Selfish much?

Absolutely!

I was jealous of his work! My archnemisis!

His facial expressions saddened instantly, he looked hurt by my words and I suddenly started to feel guilty.

He closed his MacBook in an instant and was standing up when I beat up to him and settled on his lap " I'm sorry really sorry Dani, I didn't meant any word which I uttered, I was just trying to get your attention that's it, please forgive me, I didn't thought to hurt you " I babbled in fear, burying my head deeper in his neck, I was just trying to poke him for fun he never ever made feel left out.

He sighed but tightened his hold on my back and kissed my hair smelling it

" Just don't ever scare me like that aal please, you had no idea what I felt at that moment, I thought I failed you as a husband!" he mumbled against my hair.

" I'm really sorry, please forgive me! I just don't like sharing you not even with work, I just can't help it I'm so possessive when it comes to you! " I mumbled grumpily at the last part and he chuckled loudly making me grin on embarrassment like a fool.

Way to go aal.. So childish!

" Aye you don't need to say sorry and I know you don't like sharing me but even with my work I didn't thought! you are so cute Wife! My possessive wife! " he laughed and now he was mocking me.

" you're mocking me! " I poked my index finger on his cheeks where that cute dimple resides in his cheek making me jealous of that dimple as so many girls will find him very attractive with or without the damn dimple.

" I wouldn't dare! " his eyebrows rose in amusement as he bit the bottom of his lips with his two upper teeth.

" Now you're definitely mocking me! " I punched his shoulder feeling embarrassed as my cheeks turned red, his laughed got so loud that I end up laughing with him so hard at my crazy thoughts and behavior.

Flashback ends...

A faint smile was etched on my lips when I thought about our crazy moments, but reality hit me hard it was in the past Gone! Tears flooded my eyes and I couldn't stop!

As much as I don't want to think any negative about this marriage but it always floods me with anxiety and fear.

What if he regrets this later?

What if he think this is not the kind of life he wanted?

What if he treat Zain differently, like not his own, though he's not?

I don't think we can have a normal relationship like a husband and wife What if he just get fed up with me?

All the what if's were messing with my mind!

My palms started sweating as my breath became uneven And suddenly I'm not so sure about this marriage!

I don't think I want to marry him or anyone!

There's still time for me to back up right?

I was beginning to hyperventilate I can't breathe!

Suddenly I started to see black dots as my vision blurred, my balance trailed as I fell on the floor, my head was spinning and then all I remembered was darkness engulfing me!

Hope it is a nightmare, which will end as soon as I wake up!

Phew!

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