Okay so this chapter is on Fawaad's point of view on his whole life. Its basically tells his tale from the time he liked Ahdia till the birth of his daughter. Its like he is retelling the whole story about his life... ;) It has alot of flashbacks so please bear with me... ;) oh and its devided into two parts..... this is one... the next one will be up soon!

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Fawaad's P.O.V

i was born to an italian father and a muslim mother. My father's family resided in Italy and i would be wrong if I said my mom did not get along. She did. In fact my dad's whole family loved her. I was born in Rome, Italy, the city of Romance. Since childhood, my parents taught me about Islam and raised me like a muslim. when i was 12, my ammi and abba as I had started calling them, decided to move to Dubai, in UAE as my ammi's whole family was there.

At first I did not want to move as I loved Italy more and the idea of leaving htis would be totaly outrageous. But I guess Allah had something else in plan for me.

When I met Arshad bhai in Dubai, he was 13 and Talha bhai was 17. We started spening most times together as ammi and abba had work so Masi took care of us all. Then the tragedy of Talha bhai had left us all shocked but nevertheless we continued our lives. That tragedy had left Arshad and me alone so we became more then ever so close.

On my 18th birthday we even had the same necklaces with our name letters on it that was supposed to be in our neck full time. I still smile at those memories.

Everything was fine until my ammi grew sick one day. I was almost 19 and just before my birthday, ammi became sick. We called a doctor and that was when Ahdia made a grand enterance in my life.

Flashback

"Fawaa, the doctor will be here soon so keep alert!" said abba

I nodded and sprinted downstairs when i heard the door bell.

I opned the door and a body flopped in front of me. I stood there staring at the body that was covered from head to toe.

she had on a green hijab, white dress and black jeans with black boots.

She looked up and the first thing i noticed was grey eyes.

She stumbled up and stood straight infront of me.

"Yes, how can I help you?" I asked her

"You alled in a doctor?" she asked

"Yes but a general practice doctor not a phycologist" I replied looking at her

She looked.... disordered.

She gave me a glare and walked in, her boots tapping on the floor tiles.

"Ah.. i really think we should call another doctor!" i said to abba once we entered the room

"Why?" she asked

"Ah... because... you fell down..." i said to her

I mean come to think of it, which doctor is so klutz to fall infront of people!

"Hey gravity pulls okay!" she said as she checked up my ammi

Abba and ammi laughed but did not speak.

"Fawaad, please let the doctor alone!" said ammi

I nodded.

My cousins, that is, my aunts kids from US had come to live with us so I decided to see them. We usually don't get along but I decided to actually make peace with them for a change.

"Salaam people!" I said to my lovely cousins, Please note the sarcasms

My cousins were Zaheed (20) Zeeshan (19) Zaheer (18) and Yahaya (17). They treated my arents like their own as my ammi and abba treated them like their own so technically they would be my brothers. Although there is nothing technical here but you get the point.

"Was salaam bro!" tey replied

They were great brothers but at times the young 3 get alittle annoying. Zaheed bhai is okay, mostly quiet but good, the other 3 are just too annoying!

We chatted for a while and then I decided to go check on my ammi.

As I walked out of the room, i hit a body and it went flying somewhere. My head jerked up in surprise as I looked aorund for any sign of the poor body.

What? might have been a chef or something!

"You seriously need glasses!" said the huge wall. I stared at the wall ahead of me.

I think I am high... why are walls talking?

"Dumbo! I am down here!" said the voice again as my eyes travelled to the floor and there set the dotor herself.

I started laughing seeing her condition.

Hearig my laughter, my dear brothers decided to join in and laughed away until Zaheed bhai helped her up.

"Are yo okay!?!" asked zaheed worried

I smiled at her and she growled at me.

"Bhai I will guide her to the door! Make sure she doesn't fall agian!" I said

She growled but did not speak.

We wlaked in silence until we reached the bottom of the stairs on the ground floor

"Okay so what is te doctors name?" I asked her

She kept silent

"Okay.. so I am sorry for laughing at you!" I said

Still no reply

"Are you sure you are a GP or are you a phycologist?" I aksed her and this time she laughed.

I smiled.

"I am Dr. Ahdia. !9 and a GP not a phycologist. Differance is that I do not look like a GP as I am too simple for that!" she said

"Cool, I am Fawaad, almost 19, a businessman and an italian!" I said smirking at her

"Italian muslims huh" she said as we walked to the door

I nodded.

"good to know... oh and your mother is alright, she just had HBP but now she is fine, i just need to keep checking up on her everyday!" she said

"Cool, and thank you!" i said as she walked out the door of my house.

End of flashback

So that was how she entered my life. Soon we became good friends and since my bros practically loved her, she came more often. Ammi and Abba loved her alot too.

Then came in the stupid feelings.

I still remember that day when I saw her and an unfamiliar feeling came to me. That emotion that was not described but it had a great effect on me.

I saw her and my stomach did a 360 degrees turn. i was puzzled at the emotion but ignored it and continued on with our friendship but as time flew, the feelings and emotions went to a higher degree. To such extent that i even had thoughts of us in the future. Not hte haram way but the halal way.

And that was the time Arshad just had to fly to India.

No one had any idea how glad I was when I was told that we had to go to India for a month or so. I was excited to be at least away from Ahdia for some time. Some time to actually sort out my feelings.

A part of me wanted her to know about my feelings but another part of me said that if she did know, it would have an effect on our friendship.

I knew it was sorta obvious i liked her because I would actually blush at her thoghts and smile at her whenever she came at home.

The time I landed in India I was happy as ever! being away from Ahdia was not what my heart wanted but I was wayyy too wise to fall for the heart. I listened to my brain and decided to enjoy here.

But much to my luck, her thoughts did not leave me. It haunted me like I had done, Allah forbid, some sin!

I usually got lost in her thoughts and i knew it was a bad sign. It was always a bad sign and after knowing that your mom is matchmacking her with your cousin, it was worse!

That day when Arshad asked me about her, I did not want to tell him but I had too. I had no reason not to.

I was glad at least he knew and then his ammi, that is, my masi knew too.

Then came that day when we went to pick NZ fufi and Fufa and the nest thing I know, she decides to just come to India.

She be like "Oh Lets just go to India and haunt Fawaad's thoughts there!"

I was happy she was here and sad coz I did not get my thinking time.

My feeling grew for her when I saw her each day, more beautiful than ever. But then again, Adeel was on the list too and there was no way I was loosing my love to some NZ freak. No offence to NZ people but he was just like.. lets just say.... he was a player and I don't wanna loose MY EFFING LOVE to some player.

But when Ahdia started becoming close to him, I had to do something but things backfired and I ended up asleep!

Flashback

"Ahdia, ah..." i said to her.

We were currently on the terrace and everyone was downstairs doing things.

She looked up to me from her laptop.

"Yeah?" she asked me

My mind went effing blank. It just had too!

"Fawaad you there?" she asked me again

"yeah I am here..." I said

To be honest i really did not want to talk to her abot it but it was serious. I can't afford to lose her. I may have all the moneyin the world but that can't pay for the treatment needed by me to get over her. Yupp... call me whipped!

"You were saying?" she said to me.

I walked and stood, towering over her.

"Yeah... so speak?" she asked me

i sighed as I ran my hand in my thick hair.

"Sit" she said and I took a seat in front of her.

She stared at me and I found it hard to speak. What on earth is wrong with me!?!

Fawaad, its now or never.. choose to have her by you for life or choose to mope around the house for her for life?

I would rather choose to have her with me.

I sighed.

'So.. ah.. I heard ammi is matchmaking you with Adeel?" I asked her

she smiled and nodded

"So what do you think about it?" I asked

"If aunty has sent you here to get my answer, I will not answer yet!" she said smiling

"No no... ammi as not sent me here, actually i came here to talk to you by myself" I said to her

"Oh.. ah.. i am still thinking-" she said smiling to herself.

"Look.. i need to know alright! Just tell me!" I said

She gave me a puzzled look but answered anyway

"I was thinking about idk.. maybe yes.... or no- I really don't know!" she replied

"So you wanna get married to him- but you don't?" I questioned

She let out a frustrated sigh.

"Seriously Fawaad! What do you want to know!?" she asked me

'Simple! Tell me whether you like him or not! problem solved!" I said equally frustrated

"Why do you-" she said but i beat her to it

"I wanna know the effing answer! Its just a yes or a no!" I said to her however all too calmly

Yeah surprised? I am calm cool and collected.

"Fawaad why do-" she growled.

Fire was fuming in her eyes and if looks could kill, I would have been dead by now!

"I need to know.. because if your answer is yes... then there are facts you need to know about h-" I said

"Oh so now you are going to tell me about him?" she asked more like semi yelled

"Look Ahdia, just calm down and then talk please" I said to her but she was stubborn and incase if you have not noticed, she had anger issues, i think.

"You know what your effing problem is fawaad?" she asked

i think we were talking about Adeel and her nikah and her anser, here?

"No" I eventually answered shaking my head.

"Well, you have this thing to know about people and face be told, I like Adeel better! The only thing good that came off you was that I actually thought that you were a good guy and the fact-" she said but I spoke

"I just came to ask you abot your answer Ahdia, I never meant to-" I said but she stood up.

"The main question- WHY DID YOU COME!?!" she yelled

I was so hoping no one heard her or I would be dead.

"Ahdia-" I said. By now I was standing infront of her "Calm down, the only thing i wanted to tell you was-"

"Fawaad- stop being so effing damn protective over me! I am a doctor for the love of god! I can take care of myself! and on second thought- WHY DO YOU EVEN ACT SO PROTECTIVE OVER ME WHEN YOU DON'T HAVE THE RIGHT TO!?!"

I was taken back by her words. Taken back would be an understatement, hack i was hurt by her statement. All these effing months of loving her, this is what I get!?!

"Ahdia, can we talk proper-" I said but she cut me off

"You know what Fawaad- Lets just forget it, I wanna marry Adeel coz he is better than you at least! He does not ocme and lecture about my flaws-" she said

Wait, where did the Flaws come from?

"And the huge fact that he is better, more handsome and on another note, he has a good personality! Better than you!" she said with a smile. an angry smile.

Where did all this come from?!?! When did i even say anthing about personalities and her flaws and- when did I lecture her!?!

I stared at her

"Stop staring and leave! me and my life! Tired of fighting over the simple facts about you Fawaad!' she said looking at me

"so you really do't wanna see me?" i asked hoping she would take whatever she said back.

But unfortuanutely things once said cannot be taken back.

"No! Not now, not ever!" she said angrily

I smiled at her. I was hurt and devastated.. but I can't show that to her... I am a KHAN and people in my family don't just back out. Take Arshad as an example.

"Okay... oh and he thing I came to tell you-" I said as I took a step back, "Was that I got a call from NZ stating that Adeel's wife's pragnancy test reports are there.... they got the wrong number, he was dumb enough to give the house no- so yeah.. he is already a father..... so.. yeah.. bye.. Allah Hafeez" with those words, i walked, sped walked to be exact downt he terrace.

She called me but I did not turn afraid that the tears in my eyes would be visible.

I went to my SUV and started the ignition.

I droe out of the mansion towards the lanes. I went there once when I landed in India. That place was usually clear with no people or vehiles so it would be a perfect place to drive at high speed. I so wish I was in dubai now.

Tears fell out of my eyes and i wiped it off. I knew it was stupid of me to try to tlak to her and It was completely my fault she did not want to see me but by Allah what else would I do!?! I needed to tell her the truth!

I had gotten the call from his girlfriend from NZ, Xeourie, who said that he did not answer the calls so she searched and called me as he had said something about me on the phone. She said that Adeel was the father of an unborn child. She was 8 months pragnant and he knew it too.

I needed to get Ahdia out of this.

My speed limit reached 250 and then the only thing I felt was a loud crash.

My breathing became shallow and the fact that the only thing I ould think of was Allah and death.

I muttered the first kalimah repeatedly as tears formed in myeyes.

I don't know what happened but I felt my body being lifted up and people speaking.

Some saying "italian" other screamig "Hospital"

i felt a cold surface under my body and my vision cleared out to black and darkness. The words of Ahdia ran in my mind. every thing else in my surroundings went to blur and all I could think about was the fact that Ahdia has said she never wanted to see me again.. so better if i died?

Again I felt my body moving and sounds of people screaming and sirens filled my ears.

I felt my body moving, like people were actually trying to kill me here!

Hello I am half dead already! Handle with care!!!

yeah right like they heard me!

Then somehting pinched my arm and my body stopped moving and the energy drained and i went to sleep in my half sleep.

When my brain finally woke up, i oculd not move. My eyes could not open and I felt better htis way.

I heard what ever people were saying about me

I think there were only doctors here as they were saying something like- Hyc... thingi.

my thoughts went back to Ahdia. Wander how she is right now? I bet she has made a decicion to marry that arse.

There was nothing I can do and I guess this sleep was better than knowing the truth that Ahdia was not mine.

I felt an unfamiliar pain in my chest and then a pinch on my arm that slowed down my effing body.

I siad the duas in my mind to help calm me and Alhamdulillah it did. Since there is no one human to talk to, I will just talk to Allah.

Ya Allah, you are my creator and the most merciful

Please let me see why Ican't be with ahdia.

I know it is not right of me to interfeare in her matters but-

did I do wrong?

Ya Allah, I am asleep, i really don't want to go out in the real world and cry....

Am i that bad?

I know you love your believers like they are but in Ahdia's eyes, am I that bad?

All I tried to do was save her form that devil... and this is what i get?

Pain and hurt...

Ya Allah please ease my pain.....

My prayer was cut short by a sobbing beside me. I knew that voice and I can recognise it anywhere.

What was ahdia doing here?

"Fawaad- I- I" she said in between sobs.

Why on earth was she even crying!?!

She sniffed and then whispered

"fawaad, I know you are not listenin to me-" she said

Now I am not sure she is a doctor.....

"But I really am sorry... I was just frustrated that ammi and abba did not even bother to know about me and just asked me to consider Adeel's proposal. I was angry... at them, myself and everyone for pastering me about him..."she said

Why was she telling me that?!! I am the one half dead now!

Okay wait.. dead people don't talk so no i am not dead.... so what am I? And how long was I like this?

"But i could not deny my feelings for you-" she said

what feelings exactly?

She sniffed and continued

"The feelings and emotions i got when i saw you... i swear it was all new to me.. from the time I landed infront of you at the door till now- All this while i liked you- oh hell I loved you! And I swear upon the stars that i love so much, that these feelings are true. I got angry at you when you asked me to consider Adeel's proposal! could you not see the fact the I actually loved you!?!! I was so angry that I swear i did not mean for you to go away.. I need you! And hell I owuld e lying if i said i did not love you.." she said

she sobbed, snifffed and took a deep breath.

"I really love you Fawaad khan.. and if only you could come back to life... and i could once again see your grey eyes..... and that love for me.. Insha Allah i will tell you my feelings!" she said

That was it... Now i so badly wanted to see her!

Sounds clique but I tried.. tried my hardest to open the damn eyes! But no, my body was not at all reacting!

I sighed and then stried again.

"Oh comeon!" I said

"Fawaad!!!!!!" she squealed in delight

i looked at her

Why was she squealing! I was not even- wiat a minute- I can see her! That mean- YAAAHAHHAYYY!

I managed a small smile as the res piled in but the doctor sent them out and checked me.

"You feel good... can go home today but be sure no tension" he said and i smiled

Soon everyone was talking to me and asking about my health that they forgot about ahdia.

I searched for her and a surprise took me by surprise again, Talha bhai was here!!! He grinned and hugged me tight.

"How can I not fight for my baby bro!" he whispered

"Thank you bhai!" I replied

Then Arshad bhai came spriting in te ward and hugged me tight.